Sunday, July 31, 2005
erm erm,, yest nv blog,,haha was a normal dae bahz,, erm erm went at at 11am yest to meet fish,, janet,, nikkii den go jalan rot at nP,,hahaz den at 3+ went to the open field opposite cC for the nDp,, canT stanD iit,, wasnT organiised so go out wit xi hui,,haha den think she went home,, i go find fish dey all.. haha den at 6+ mi go cc fiind him n pinG,,haha den play bball awhile,, den go 165 play hahaz,, erm erm played till 10.50 den he sent mi back..haas =)),, stoP shootin mii,,hahaz,,later beat eu arhx,,lolzz
todae: went to cut moii hair..lolzz,, kinda short i feel,,haha den after cuttin hair went home zzz hahaz,, den go to my gReaT graNdma bDaE diiNner,, rot with my coUsins oVer theRe hahaz,, we took photos,, play with babiies,,hahaz den chiit chattiies,,hahaz erm erm went home at 9++ bahz,,haha yuPz,,hahaz thats abT it baHz,, a siMplE dae,, haha neVer geT to see eUu todaez,, goT miiss Mii,,hahaz..suRe nO de,,hahaz jkJk..
[weijiie][kor]: mii trust eu,, hahaz,, erm erm.takaz of yaself bahz.. sorri that my trust fer eu so weak,, dui bu qii,, =p
[mou ren]: eh eh,, hahaz..imu lottz,, takaz of yaself wor,, haha,, muz zhao gu hao zi ji den can takazz of miie,,hee =p,, u hor stop stop shootin mi,, i will will angrii de hor,.,haas
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Friday, July 29, 2005
erm erm didnt had time to blog yest,,hahaz,,,basicallii nth much lor,,haha went put with him n jia hao to bugis after sch to buy present bahz,,hahaz,,he so the good siia bought a beariie [big] for his stead,,hahaz,,erm erm den at 6++ den reach home le,,hahaz
erm erm todae ar??,, hahaz had POP,, was it successfuL??,, hoPe sO baHz,,hahaz haiix the rifLe so daMn heaVII lor,,hahaz,, erm erm nPcc enDed aT aroUnd 6++,,haha den e NEW batch oF nCo [us] went to the coffee shoP and eat lor,,haha celebrate for us takin over... =)) erm erm took pics with nAssEr,,hahaz,, and witH saM they all lolz,,, fuN,, after that mi sam,, xihui,, jeff we walk to 165 lor,, sam n hui go back fiirst den mi n jeff went back at 9,,hahaz,,haiiz mixed feelins for our NIC,, happi that they had a new start [iTs noT gOodbyE,, it is aNothEr cHapTer of liFe],, saD cox we canT beaR to leavE them bahz[onCe nicc,, foReva niic][oNce nCo,,alwaez an nCo],, erm erm yeapz... first time i drop tear duriin pOp,,hahaz,,
-=-a dedicaTiioN-=-
NcO 'o4-o5--> thank eu for all ya guidance durin this one yr of teachin bahz,,erm erm sad to part,,see eu all leave npcc..but happi as it is another begining for eu all.. a new chapter of life,, =)),, thnkx jEna n FarhaN,, eu too were greaT nIc,, givin mi encourage when i feel like givin up,,haas,, durin nco course,, sorri jena,, remember i shouted coxx of shikin,,almost gave up hahaz,,thankz u for the tag eu gave us,, good daes,,bad daes these memoriies will alwaes be wiit us,, we will not forget eu all,, erm erm may all ay dreams come true =))
NcO' o5-o6-->yEaPz,, aftEr 3 yrs,,hahaz we are finalLi taKin oVer leRhz,, happI?,, yeaPz,, erm erm although it was realli sucessful bahz,, but there are still chances arund,, we can do it,,hahaz,,guyz,,less quarrelz and more harmony kkz?.,, we are uniited,, =)),, we muz do our best to bring the unit to a highEr leVel,,hahaz,, cOnifidEnce..hahaz
weiijie[kor]--> i dunno siince when,, i had a feelin that we are driftin apart , i realli hate that larhz,, kor i hope that eu mean wat eu sae la,, nv let go of mii this mei,, eu mean alot alot to mii,, more than him le,,realli,, kor i dun wan us to part,, i wan us to be forever de kor n meiiz
``i aM stiLL veRii faiiThleSs,, i am aFraiid stiLL,, waT iifE i sTill missEs him aBit,, waT iiFe hisTory repeaTs,, aloT oF quesTiion marKs in miie,, buT we caN ovErcUm all thinGs riite? heez``
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
todae arh.. meet him under moii blog den go sch together lorz..hahaz.. in sch arhz..nth much bahz.. idiot cai huang i sleep till soo shuang den cum bang my tablez,, i stunned lorz..haaz.. after sch got remediial from 2.30 to 5.30 *siianz* hee =) after that ent for npcc till 6.30 bahz,,haaz.. den after np,,, whole squad go mac have meetin till 7++ den went home,,haas.. tiring,,lolz =p
nPcC,, nCo [2005-6],, we rOx.. haas,,
[no matter how bumpy e road is,, i will try to overcum iit together wit eu]
[smooth n sweet? hopiin soo =)]
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
erm erm wat can ii sae?,,ahha,, afew daes nv blog le bahz,, lazii lolz..erm erm went to celebrate pris bdae on sundae lor,,hahaz den mondae arhz got rehersal for POP,,siianz,,hahaz after npcc den went home le,,hahaz..den todae arhz,,morniin meet dear den go sch together lor...raiinin..drenched..haha..verii normal dae in sch bahz hahaz,, stae back to do up my notice board..hahaz den accompanii ahma to waiit for da hie n er jie and zi yin,, haiiz,,hahaz
his side le.. gonna
ermz back to treasure it,, hahaz erm erm eric i feel happi for eu,, happi to see eu happi,., dun forget our promise,, erm erm,, treasure it bahz,,hahaz,,i will still be here for eu de even is as a frenxz..
-=-bu xiiang zai hou hui ren he shi le,, zhi xiiang gen zhe wo de xiin xou..hahaz-=-
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
few daes didnt blog le,, same routine bahz..bBaLL hahaz,,erm went home quite late bahz,,hahaz,,i dun gib a damn,, i dun need anione to gib a damn,, i am who i am,, e rebellious mi,, e attitude mi,, e cheeky mii,, i am who i am,,lolz...dun sae eu care,, eu lurve mii when wat eu all do does not show iit,, why am i born in this world...where parents sae i am useless,, scold mii,, lol,, useless den useless lor,, aniwae i given up on moiself le,, i dun even wan to study,, at most die onli next time,, can die now i surely go de,, useless den dun put hopes on mi le,, idiots,,hahaz,,
haiiz...todae playin bball see eunher so good,, i came to know smthin,,, i knew that eunher den are meant to be,, i am juz a passer-by in ya heart,, someone who eu can forget easily bahz,, i dunno why my heart aches when i see eu n her so happi,, but i sincerely wish that eu all canbetogether,,as long as i noe eu have happiness can le,, but somehow i hope that eu remember those times when we were together bahz,,
i am tired
realli tired,,can i juz let go
if i can ever choose
i choose not to be born
den i wont hab ani worries
if i can dun go home and face eu all
i would,,cox everythin is pushin mi to my limit
but can ii??..
no matter how eu all treat mii eu all are still my family,, sometime i wish that i have parents who will treat mi real well wont scold mi for nth,, i had enuf of all these for 15 years le,,how long muz i put up with all these idiotz things,, y born mi out,, y the one who dies is not mi but er ge,, i believe that if er ge is alive den dun have mi le bahz..izzit it grreat,, i think that eu all will teng da ge n er ge more bahz,,, zhong nan qing nu,, no one care for mi except kor kor n ah ma,,, the rest fcuk off manz...no matter how kor kor scold mi,, i noe he cares,, but kor one week seven daes,, 5 daes i reach home before 7.30 i only on daes that hab no sch den reach home late de lor or else is when i have things in sch lor,, it is not asif that i will do ani thin bad,,, i now wats rite n wrong,,i dunno wat e hell to sae,,lolz
*i wanna end all things,, i hate myself,, my life,, my everything,, i dun wan to be arund*
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
todae arhx...hard dae for mii,, hahaz mood up n down,, haizz,, drop tears lolz,,haiiz,, i noe i shld be happi but i have no idea why my tears rolled down hahaz,,haiiz..recess time go fiind my gan ge,,den lie on his shoulder,,zhi xiang kao yi kao feel like cryin but in e end i kept tellin moiself he dun worth iit,, stop ya tears..lolz
after school go nP maKan not realli have appetite bahz,,haiiz after that go play bball with nikkii,,wen,,ahma,,thomas,,hao,,frog hahaz..i played till 7 den walk home with thomas,,,was like so quiet on e wayz,,didnt tok except for saein bye bye bahz,,hahaz,,,haiiz he ni ye lai ye mo shen le,,,hahaz,,
-=-treatherwellhor,,thistimediediealsomuzletgoocozeugotsomeonewhomulikelesoicantholdonle-=-
=-rememberourpromise,, keepourmemoriies,, dunevaforgetthemcan?-=
-=-mayhappinessalwaesbewiteu,,missyaalwaes-=-
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Monday, July 18, 2005
tiired,, hahaz,,normal daez...nth special,, waited for fr with wendii todae,, so mant things happen haiiz,, u like her dont eeu,, go ahead wit ya feelin bahz,, dun care abt mi,,i will be fiine,, wish eu n her happiness bahz,, mi n him fate bahz,, u happi can le... i nv wanna patch cox i LoVe eUu,, i realli do,, but eu got her le so dun care abt mii,, remember our promise,, both of us muz be happi,, cannot be sad,,i will be happi de,, yi ge ren de jing cai bahz...i promise eu i will consider,, i dunno why surface seem happi there is still a feelin of sadness,, but i am glad that eu are happi,, hahaz,,
suo yi yao ni liu xiia ye shi bu ke neng de le bahz,, zhi xiiang dui ni shuo zhui hou yi ci de wo ai ni,, wo zhen de aii nii,, ni yi ding yao xin fu,, yi ding yao kuai le,,wo hui xue zhe fang qi bahz shi yin wei wo tai ai nii,,
-=-maY haPpiiNeSs bE wiiT eUu-=-
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Sunday, July 17, 2005
long long no blog le bahz,,,haha ghost blog le,,haiz,,realli verii tired,, i am like gibin up on all things le..things nv goes well for mii be it school or relationship,, i am tiired of life le,, can i gib up my life mahz,,haiizz
fang shou de ren shi ni,, wan to patch de ren also eu,, shuo bu dong shi bu shi peng you de ren ye shi ni,, wo bu dong ni yao de shi she me,, jiu xiiang ni du bu dao wo de xiin yi yang bahz..bu xiiang patch is becox i dun wanna hurt eu i dun wan eu to becum my subsitute,, u dun miind but ii do,,hahaz,, ru guo xiiang lian wo men de shi hui rang nii shang tong de hua,,na jiu wang le bahz,, ba ta dang zhuo yi cang meng bahz..
haizz,,,wo shi zhong hai hen aii nii,,maybe eu dunno bahz,, i dun wanna find eu or wat coz i dun wan be close to euu,, i dun wan eu to noe i love eu,, i juz wanna be there sliently for eu bahz,, cox when i noe it is impossible for us to get back,, wat for i ask eu to return bahz,,haiiz,.,tell mi izzit true that eu like her,, if yes i wish eu n her happiness bahz,, she is such a nice gal and my good frenz lehz,, treat her well bahz,, i wanted eu to stae but i have to courage to ask eu back,, i am speechless i am afraiid,, but i realli misses our past,, haiiz,, will miracles happen to eu n mii hahaz,,
i asked moiiself,, am i goin to wait like this,, wat if after next yr n i still love him,, am i goiin to lock moi heart juz for him,, i wonder,, i ask myself,,,i onli noe i wanna wait for eu,, i onli noes i believe in eu,, i dunno why,,hahaz,,i am silli bahz...i am realli tired of life le,, can i juz gib up everythin,, it wont make any fcukin difference if i am gone bahz,,i am juz a nobodii bahz,, i might be smilin all dae long lookin happi,, there is sorrow behind these laughters,, there is pain bahz...hahaz..
-=-caniihaveeuback,, can we return to nine mtth ago,, can we dun ever let goo-=-
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Friday, July 08, 2005
thnkx for everythin..all tat eu had given mii..i didnt ask eu to stae nor said anythin...cox i noe it was my fault...my fault that i still couldnt let goo..i dunno wat to sae wat to do,, i remembered ii told eu before...it was your choice to stae or leave cox i dun wan to liu ren he ren if that ppl want to leave,, wo dong wo ba ni shang de hao shen,, wo dong wo ba ni nong de hao leii...wo yi wei shi jiian hui rang wo gen aii nii rang ni qu dai ta zai wo xiin zhong de di wei,, ke shii before wo lai de ji to do that,, eu left,, yin wei ni bu xiiang li shi cong yan bahz...
dang ni wen wo xuan zhe shui shii,, wo mei you hui da yin wei.,, yi ge shi zai wo sheng bian dang wo zui sad de shi hou.,, lin yi ge shi shang wo zui shen de ren,, liang ge dou hen zhong yao,, ni yao wo zhe me xuan zhe,, ru guo yao xuan,, wo ning yuan yi ge ren shen huo...wo hai shi wo.,,na ge kuai le de wo.,, da ying guo ni wo hui kuai le,, na wo jiu yi ding hui,, ni hai hui shi wo de shou hu xiin mahz,, ni ying gai hen hen wo bahz,, wang hou de re zi,, ni yi ding yao kuai le,, wo hui yong yuan ji de wo men de shi,, ke neng ru guo wo cong lai mei you yu jian guo ta de hua wo men jiu bu hui you zhe yang de jie ju bahz..
chu le dui bu qi wo hai neng shuo she me,, dui bu qii rang ni zhuo jue ding,, rang ni qu be e one who is tong,, nan dao ye zi hai shi shu yu shu mahz,, bu guan yu ba ye zi dai dao na li,, ye zi de xiin hai shi shu yu shu mahz?...
-=-usEleSs,, hOpEleSs,, paiN,, misSes,, faiLuRe,, craZinEss,, oVeR-=-
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
erm erm..haha todae arhx,..basically projects bahz..haha at janet hse do project till 7.15 den walk home alone lor..hahaz...eat alot lehz..but den my head very paiin..vomiited..lolz..hhaaz...erm erm...tml sixth le..hahaz
dear one mth le lehz tMl sixTh le..one moNth le..this one month haven been smooth-sailin for us bahz...we had tears we had laughters..tiimes when i cried for him infront of eu..times when we almost gave up on each other...it was hard for us to last till now bahz...cox problems unseen..lolz..hahaz...but there are also memoriies...nice beautiful ones..lolz..hahaz..hOpe we can lasT bahz..i am realli tryin moii best to let go of him le...dear thnkz for all that eu had done for mii..thnkz for ur tolerance..xiie xiie nii..hahaz..sorri that dang wo he ni zai yi qi yet still miss him u knew iit but eu accepted it..thnkz...hahaz
siiaNz..dunno should go np mahz..hahaz..wo xiiang pei ni lehz..hahaz..erm erm..
wo zhen de bu dong ke yi ai ni duo jiu..ke bu ke wi wang le ta...wo zhi zhi dao wo xiiang hao hao zhen xi ni..hao hao de zhen xii yi qiie...hahaz..ru guo you ren heng tong de chen dan de hua..let mi be e one bahz..ni he ta ..zhi yao ni men kuai le..wo wu shuo wei de..zhen de..hahaz..wo zhi xiiang wo men de aii jiu zhe yang jiian jiian dan dan de..mei you fan n0u ke yi mahz..lolzz
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
erm erm..so long no blog le..hahaz was concentratin on another bloggiies..hahaz...this periiod of time things happen...but atlast it was solved bahz...hahaz..erm erm...sometimes i am juz confused over certaiin things bahz...i cheriish e times with ya and i am realli happi..i am blissed to hab eu in moii life...but i have no bloody iidea why i miises him still lorx..i noe i am bad...i am unfair..buT when i am wit eu n i saw him..i dunno why i will cant be close to eu de...erm erm sae mi bad sae mi bitch or watever bahz...i realli treasure everii moment wit eu..but one thiing is sure that no one will be able to rrepalce him de..he is irreplaceable in moii heart..cox i swear to lurve him foreva..
i realli treassure eu,,and i am very xiin fu...sorri if i made eu sad..sorri ife i make eu stress..sorri..hahaz..wateva happen within mi n eu still be alwaes on my heart...and betwween mi n eric shall be alwaes hidden beneath moii heart
~tU staRt a reLatiiOnsHiip is eaSii..buT to sUstaiin it..is HARD~
~i aM afraiid at e end i will be e oNe lettin gOo of ya haNds...becox of hiim bahz..i am aFraiid~
~i reaLLi treasure every moment wiT eu cOz i dun wanna regret when i lose iit~
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