Tuesday, August 30, 2005
liFe nV gonna bE eaSii,,
iTs tOuGh,, iTs haRd,,
wE kept coMplaiiNing aBt iiT,, buT waT caN we dOo.
wE caN onLi leaRn to taKe thiiNgs thaT happeN in oUr liFe..
lEarNiiN to aCcePt tHeM..
thEre aRe tiiMes wHen we fEeL likE giviiN uP..
buT wE caNt cox we haVe ppL whO caRe for us..
tHus,, nO mattEr hoW coMpliCatEd liFe is,,
We caN onLi leaRn to maKe the BEST out oF iiT,,
LIFE GOES ON..
erm erm was verii normal todae bahz.. haas.. went to fr hse with wendy n ivy after sch den we meet alissa to buy MR LOW present..haas =)) after that we went to alissa hse do the present..haas.. fold so many STARS..hand PAIN =p haha..after tat i went to 609 find them.. haas den mi n cyn crazee le..we were like laughiin hahaz =))..seven plus he send mi home le..
PERFECTLY NORMAL DAE BAHZ =))
maybe realli is my over suspicion le.. erm erm xin suan..haha.. she me gan jue lai de.. wo zhen de bu dong hahaz..aniwaes its FATE..hahaz
-=-waT is E futUre gooNa be liike,, i waN to nOe iiT but somehow ii am tiiRed of LIFE-=-
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Monday, August 29, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAE ERIC !!! =))
haha remembered when i am still with u i alwaes look forward to ya bdae to celebrate wit u.. haas =)) aniwaes u got her nNn i got him hahas..erm wish u forreva happi n xiinfu =))
ehh todae arhz was siick lor.. feelin so giddy n sore throat n cough n sneeze.. haas PROBLEMatIC MIIE !!! =x erm erm went rite home after school todae..haas do my homework den nap awhile le den go 609 find them =))
erm play bball till 6++ den waiit for cyn to arrive den we cut ERIC's bdae cake lor..haas fun ..hahaz erm erm after that i went off first..he sent mi to nP together with hao n jaz..cux mi meet er jie n si jie mahz hahaz.. after that went lOng JoHn with si jie =))
sooo..it was a normal dae..but i am feelin siick..hahaz.. gotta learn to takaz of moiself le hahaz..
~erm erm will i be able to unlock the barrier in moi heart..i happi to have eu by moi side.. but if i am to leave u before u do.. please take real great care of yaself nNn forget mii..i m juz sayin IF..but if eu were to let go fiirst.. i would learn to let go n do wat i promise eu.. i will stay happi n smile de~
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
WEI SIAO shi WEI LE SHE ME..
KU QI shi wei le SHUI..
SHENG MING DE SHE CAI shi yin wei SHE ME er qii..
erm erm everything doin fiine.. nth much bahz.. juz that my SWINGS are still so hUGE hahaz...erm erm supposed to let cai huang nNn you yi come my hse do hp thingy de but last minute my kor came home.. den .. erm erm SORRI GUYZ.. realli dun mean it =((
erm he sent mi home todae after his training.. siiao todae have 8 periods of maths..haha ..
cai huang .. dui bu qii dun mean it realli.. dui bu qii.. =((
`wo de nei xin shen chu you zhong shuo bu ming bai de GU DAN,, na zhong gan jue hen tong ku shi mei you ren neng bang wo de.. bu guan wo sheng ming li you duo shao ci xin de peng you .. ta men ya bu na tian man na gan du`
`sMile For the saKe oF eUu to sHow that ii am FINE.. to show that ii am STRONG`
`oH gOd.. cOUld u juz graNt mi the wisDom to overcome thIngs.. to sMile from mY heaRt n to Be haPpii.. i waN a cOloUrfUl liFe .. i dUn wan ani proBleMs`
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
BETTER,, but not WELL..
when i CRY in the nite,, wat do i CRY for? wat do i STRUGGLE for?
wo wei le she me er zhen zha...
somethings no one understands..not even myself...somethings i wanna share with u or perharps someone closer to mii..but u all nv understand bahz..so i shall keep all e dilemas i have in my heart bahz..
some feeling NO ONE ever understand !!
went to 609 play bball todae ..was like SMILIN cox fer the sake of smiling lor,,hahas..plyed till 7++ eiight den he sent mi home..erm erm was VERI quiet on e way.. a strange feelin bahz.. siince u sae u are alriight although i dun think so,., but i dun wanna ask anithing haas,, cox u wanna tell u will de bahz,,
juz wanna u to promise mi that if that dae ever come u will be happi no matter wat..got so HARD mahz hahaz..
''wei he wo gan jue bu dao kuai le he shen ming de jing cai''
''wei he wo gan jue bu dao xin fu de qi xi''
''let go,,hold on,,deciision,, u make?? i make??,, DILEMA''
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
OH DEAR.. DEPRESSION HAR =((
keep on havin SWINGS nowadaes.. I AM NOT HAPPI AT ALL.. wat happen?
I DUN UNDERSTAND MYSELF ANIMORE,, I DUNNO WAT I WAN..
can someone please save mi out of this DEPRESSION state..haiiz..
everything was fine nowadaes.. no more frenship probs.. nth but e problems lies wit mi now..i am like havin swings so easily nowadaes.. I AM STRESS but i dunno over wat..haiiz..kor u all are leavin soon le.. NO MORE 'TIAN MI MI' to hear anymore.. no more CRAPS from u all le.. haiis realli dun bear to leave u all.. MUZ come back often hor.. life goona be bORED without u guys..haiis..NO MORE PPL FOR MI TO BEat aniimore..haiis cant make fun of u all le..haiiz ...
erm erm life wasnt too bad this daes but i wasnt sastified at all,, i am not CONTENTED.. i am not HAPPI.. arghH wat the fOOT..haas =p.. i am feelin up n downs,, i lose my MIND,, i am out of hand,, i can no longer control wat i am thinkin i cant control moi SWINGS animore..
OH MAN..GOD ARE U THERE TO SEE MI THROUGH ALL THINGS ?? LIFES UNFAIR !!!
`iTdCs,, mIbTlHl..`
`no matter wat happens in life..life goes on.. no matter who leaves or who stay life goes on still,, the sun will continue to rise,, the earth will still revolve round the sun..NTH changes cox LIFE HAS TO GO ON no matter wat happens`
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Monday, August 22, 2005
kiEs.
YesT was a Nice n FUN daes ahha.. met up with both moi coUsiNs aNd CRAPPIN ALONG ..haha.. COMEDY US lolz =p hahaz.. went to eat SUSHI TEI den went jalan jalan ahhaz.. erm erm yeah mi alwaes YOYO alwaes LADY haas.. aCtualii mi is juz wan watever nice clothes also wear dun wanna juz focus on one category mahz haha =))
YeaHz.. waS fLYIN on CLOUD9 hahas.. kor bought mi tat phone.. haha .. LOVE U KOR =)) yeaps...
erm erm somewat somehow i am tiired.. realli dun feel like studyin.. was it becox i didnt study hard enuf or wat.. i did try my best but why are there so much carelessness.. where is e dilligent mi in sec1.. OH MAN.. or was my expectation too high.. no my expectation was low lor..haiiz kies wat i sae now also cant change anithing i shall juz put more oil haas =))
erm erm had chem remedial till3 den intended to go home..haas..but peng jian birdy n cai dey all so was kinda borin so went with them lor.. but dunno why he was like so fierce la.. den i dunno wat to do i run after him..haiiz.. I NOE U R NOT ALRIGHT..but i CANT do anithing..walkin behind u as a fren not knowin wat to do makes mi feel that i am USELESS la.. aniwaes smile kies.. u look veri SCARY when u are fierce..e yan shen very scary..
`did i do e rite thing...was it my over suspicious or wat`
`how could this happen to mi,, i made my mistake,, got no where to hide,, the moon goes on and im fadin awae,, im sick of this i juz wanna scream HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO MI`
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
eHh.. went to watch movie with si wu n er jiie hahaz,, THE MAID.. oh man.. i was like SHOUTIN hees =p.. sorri WU JIE.. didnt mean iit but it was scarii =)) haas.. okkz went to TIME ZONE haas cute minnie i have too =)) THNKS SI JIE.. muaCkiiEz =))
erm erm after walkin round NP.. went to si jie hse wiith wu er n ivon jiie =)) haas went off with si jie.. si jie and niki had HIP HOP class den mi go fiind him lor..haas leavin ivon wu n er jiie to kan jiia.. hahas =))
at 219 play play awhile den went to 165 le..haas =)) played till 2245 den went home with him n them haas =)).. erm erm somehow i FEEL that ni de yan shen you hua yao shuo.. and i FEEL that wo de yan shen yao biao xiian chu le yi xiie she me shi de.. haas =))..kaoz kena bulli by him n xiiao pang hahaz =((
``kan dao ni men na me hao.. xin zhong you zhong te bie gao xing de zi wei.. wo bing bu zai ai ni le zhi shi as a fren de guan xiin ni bahz..i feel so happi for eu two..MUZ remember our PROMISE wor.. yao kan dao bi ci xin fu..we must BE HAPPY =))
``you shi hou dang ni ai shang yi ge ren shi,, ni bu hui qu zai hu ta you duo hao,, ceng jing you mei you ai guo ta..ni zhi xiiang qu zhen xii he ta zai yi qii de mei yi fen meii yi miao.. juz like wat mi n u can do now =)).. CHERISH TILL I LOSE IIT.. yUpz =))
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Friday, August 19, 2005
YeaHz.. COMMON TEST IS OVER !!! haas =))
Haiiz.. OMG wat had happened?? MY BAD PHENOMENON back AGAIIN.. GOSH =((
haiiz i had enuf.. enuf of setbacks.. enuf of life.. haiix studied so BLOODY DAMN hard.. but each n everytime when i get back my results.. my heart SANK.. OH MAN.. =((
kies.. he sent mi home after school todae.. held my hand so tight..haas.. I AM AFRAIID too..aniiwaes i dunno wat to sae haiix..
I GOT MILLIONS N THOUSANDS OF FEELIN IN MY HEARTS but WORDS CANT BRING OUT WAT I FEEEL.. haiix
``i JUZ wan everything to be WELL``
``i promise eu that i will be strong.. will eu promise mi that u will stay happi no matter wat happens``
``i am feelin that eu had e ans le..juz the matter of TIME i think..no matter wat.. i dun wan u to regret n moiself to regret too,, no matter wat eu choose to do.. i hope that u will be happii``
``thats e least i can ask from eu bahz =)``
``wOrDs caNt brinG ouT wat ii aM trYiiN to tEll``
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
A BIG THANK EUU TO THOSE WHO REMEMBER MY BDAE =))
HAPPI BDAE TO PEI JING =))
erm erm juz a normal day haas =)).. OMG i DUN have TIME to finish up my SS.. OH MAN =((.. haiix.. erm erm went to sch wiit him in e mornin =)) THNKS for ya present =)) i LOVE iit.. n ThaNks for tHe PIGGY =)) MUACKIIEz
YEAHZ.. MY BIGGEST PRESENT IS MI N FELI HAO LE =)) i think that is the BEST present for mi le =)).. n atleast mi n wendy got tok le =))
erm erm after school went home with him bahz =)).. truely i was feelin very happi or extraordinary happi todae lor.. i was like erm yupp NORMAL lor..erm erm B forgot moi bdae le bahz i guess..waiitin for ya bdae msg?.. i dunno larhz..aniwaes yupp so long le guess u forget also le..aniiwaes its OVER.. next is that is the story endin soon?.. will it realli END?...i feel frightened.. yeah i might have alot of ppl arund mi still.. n B will be here? aniwaes u got think who i NEED most or WANT most?..aniiwae IT IS YOUR CHOICE,, cox IT TAKES TWO HAND TO CLAP =p
``i juz wan everyone to be HAPPII,,i wan a fairytale life where there is no sadness or hurts =))
``i wan a WORLD of MY own, i WAN moi FRENZ n FAMILY``
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
E MATHS haRDDD,, CHEM haiiz CARELESS MII.. instead of lookin at proton no for my ionic bonding.. i looked at the MASS no.. OMG.. i am so STUPID.. =((
kies wat eva its OVER aniwaes =)).. erm been studyin hard for SS tml.. haas.. and mother tongue too =xx haas ..
todae arhx.. meet him in e morning den went to sch together lor.. haas =)) erm erm nth much bahz got rememdial after school den after that he n cai huang come find mi den went back together lor... reach home le den mi zzz le.. hahas woke up at 7 den study till now lor.. =))
10 more miniutes.. haas TURNIIN 15 sOOn.. haas.. erm wiLL i gET wat i waN.. my samsung e350 C.. ARGH.. wiLL kor bUy for mii.. haas =))..
-=-i dun have animore excitement though it goona be my bdae cox it juz a normal dae bahz-=-
-=-i gain less den wat i loss but atleast i have someone by moi side bahz-=-
-=-tian zhong hui hei,, ren zhong ya li bie.. shui ye bu neng yong yuan pei shui..-=-
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Monday, August 15, 2005
BORRIIN,, DEAD FOR MY ENGLISH.. OH MAN... =X
erm erm meet my BELOVED si n wu jiie for school todae.. SI JIE IS SO BAD,, haas =p so made mi n wu jie waiit so long.. jkjk.. but she bought sweets for us. =))
nothin much happen in school.. THE START OF COMMON TEST.. oH maN,, haas STRESS =x hope i pass all =)) erm erm had chem rememdial den waiited for him den mi him n jiie went nP lor.. haas waiit for hao cox he wanna borrow from mii my MP3 plaYer *i miss my mP3 player =))*
everything is fiine reach home le den i zzz till 6.30 den study le.. haas =)) kor cooked pasta for mi n jie to makan, *YuM yUm* haas..i am still so full now man.. =x..
`i wanna start all things afresh,, i wanna treasure all that ii have`
`those people who left mii,, i hope eu guys to be happi n xiin fu.. ` =))
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
DID I DO E RIITE THING...WAT IF ITS E LAST MOMENTS...
WIELHA... *guess it mans.. haas*
kies.. erm went to jie hse to study.. ended up playin? haas.. erm erm natural bahz.. alwaes like that de..haas. =)) went back at 6++.. he sent mi home,.,, hug mi till verii verii tight wor,, haha scare mi leave arhz.. haas =)).. i dunno la.. as long as wo hai chen de zhu den i wont let go kiie..
nth much todae.. i am juz bloodi damn tiired la.. haas
leave all things to FATE
yEaPz... FaTe,, =))
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ARGHHH,, LOST... EVERYTHIIN,,haiix
I WANNA CHANGE PHONE... SAMSUNG E350C.. I WAN IT,, haas =p
erm erm,, wat can i sae de lehz.. erm erm fridae arhz.. cha bo npcc lor haas .. juz dun feel like goin haas =)).. after sch went to meet er jie den she acc mi go home take ball den we went to meet si jie and wu jie at NP..haas =)) after makan we go 213 play bball haas.. play till 6+ we go si jie hse rott.. haha leave her hse at abt 7.. went to NP to fing kel n Phebe...haas =)) happi for eu my shi fu.. so xin fu siia.. haas.. erm erm treasure her wors =p.. after dat went to 165 with kel.. play till 10++ den went back with cai huang... lols.. dun think too much.. =))
had some conflict with yea.. haas.. wat can ii sae??.. i can onli yuan li him to salvage e relationship bahz.. haas.. some old problems alwaes TRUST?.. haas.. if you realli cant take it,, den let go bahz.. its ya choice lols..
yest arhx.. celeb bdae with kor n jie,, haas cake yummi yummi,., hahas.. after celeb went to 165 with you yi n huang lor.. but ther got ppl so we go 219 lols... erm erm play till 10++ den he send mi home THNKS =)).. erm erm.. everything fiine?// hope soo..
haiiz why when i did treasure.. when i did try ppl cant see.. lols.. i am realli tiired.. so fcukin damn tiired... i hate moii life.. wat e hell.. lols.. yuan lai wo yi zhi shi ni de fu dan bahz,, ni xiang fang le wo zhe ge peng you.. na wo hai you xuan zhe ma.. maybe zai bu she de ye de fang shou bahz.. xi wang ni yong yuan kuai le bahz.. zhi xiang zhen xii shuo yong you de dong xii. my bball frens.. him,, syl,, fr,, we,, da er si wu jie.. thnks.. lols.
`if i can give up on moii life,, i would,, I AM JUZ FUCKIN DAMN TIIRED`
`HOW LONG DO II HAVE TO HOLD ON,,`
`tears might not be of help sometime`
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
FREAKS,,ARGH,, HAIZ
WAT AM I BECOMIIN,, rEbeLLiiOn,, CRUDE,, rUde,, SELFISH,, faKe,, iS THAT E REAL MIIE,, wHERE thE miiE IN SEC ONE,,
i am speechless,, wat can i sae,, but i realli did tried my best to change,, i did believe it or not bahz,, thnks those who still treat mi as their pals.. especiially ah ma n wen,, thnkz,, ivy ng,, fr too,, those who dont,, i dunno wat to do ,, haiiz,,
yea,, i do like eriic still abit bahz,, but i nv like ch lor,,i am tryin moi bestiie to let go of eric but but time lor,, i am serious bout thomas lor,, take it or leave it,, those who sae moi FLIRT,, so be iit den,, its ur mouth n ur thinkin not mine aniiwaes,, i dun gib a damn lor..as long as i noe wat i am doin,, yea i am close with the guys,, but but that doesnt mean anithing or i am ***** can?
nan dao shi wo ba shi qing nong cuo le mahz,, i understand wrongly?..
FeLiciiA: mi dunno how to face eu aniwaes,, but but i muz muz apologised to eu that i am rude la,, dui bu qi., will eu forgive mii??,, mi think no bahz,, haiiz,, beside sorri wat can i sae,,
biru: dun have to sae sorri la,, nv blame eu ,, frenz,, cheers =)),, yepps,,
him: thnks for being by moi side.. thnkz
*i realli wanna salavage frenship between wendi, feli n mii,, sorri gals,, sorri for e shoutin,, dui bu qii* but i noe my SORRY wont help larx cox wat is done is done bahz,, but i still have to sae SORRY..
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
aRgHhhH,, wHy aM ii tHiiNkiiN sO daMn muCh.. =((
oKay fiiNe,, todaE was juz a preetty normaL dae,, zzz till 12 haas *piggiie miie* juz feel like sleepin n dun wake upz haahaz,, like that BETTER..NO PROBS,, =)),, erm erm went to meet jia hao at NP haas,, took lunch den waiited for kwang,, eriic,, hua,, jiie den we go funland hahaz,,
FELL ALMOST ALSLEEP IN FUNLAND.. so DAMN BORED,, =p,, cox mi dun PLAY arcarde de mahz,, hahaz,, after that we went 609 play bball hahaz,, *siiaN bEiiN e oNe wHo aLwaEs keNa buLLiiEd by u alL de =p,,haha* played theere awhile den they sae go 637 so go lor,, hahaz,, played till 7.30 den he sent mi home,, THNKS =)),, at home watch SUPERSTAR with korkor n jie jie hahaz,, kor keep crticising DERRICK,, oH maN.. piSseD hahaz,, WEIJIAN N JUNYANG ROX,, hahaz =)) *fa hua chi* =p
dRiftiin further n further ,, reaLLi?,, wat can i do,, wat if mi sae i need tiime to calm down to settle moiself down,, cox mi realli very confused n upset over lots of things now,,haas
may thing turned out well for everyone of us,, be it in relationship or frenship =))
*EVERYTHING SO DAMN FAKE,, EVERIIONE SO DAMN LOW,, WATS HAPPENIIN*
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
eh eh todae arhz,, zzz till eleven,,haas rise n shine heez,, went to meet sam n xi hui at nP,,haas the shoppin center was like FULL with ppl in RED n WHITE,,hahaz,, YUAN LAI SINGAPOREAN SO AI GUO DE,, haha,,den i get the goodiie bag le i cha bo,, haha =p,, went to janet hse hahaz,, eat the mac lols,,den sit sit,, todae everyone soo LOW de hahaz,, after tat go carnival walkiie awhile.. haas den meet pris at nP,, lols he came to find us too,, went to SEARCH for winson present haas,, in the end bought a t-shirt for him haas,,
after that went to 219 cox wanna shun bian wait fer feli mahz who noes her face so black haiis,,
mi n priis dunno wat to do siia keep on thinkin where we got wrong sehz.. haiz den she walked off,, lol went to find her,, zhao so long,, zhao dao hou she like so bo chap,, wth,, den pris so pek chek too lor haiiz,, i realli dunno wat sae lor.. fa xiie till 10+ den go home le lor,, haiiz why are theere so manii probz MI SO TIRED LE ccan I JUZ DUN CARE..=((
`maybe mi like not so close wit eu le bahz,, i dunno why,, but i got feelin is coz i dun wan eu to fall in deeper bahz,,haiiz,, wo bu dong,,lolz`
`i hope that our frenship is alrite lor,, both side are both my good frrenz,, wat can i do,, how can i help,, i realli dunno, haiiz got a feelin mi gonna burst soon le,, haiiz die le also good bahz,, life do sux to the core for mi manz..=((
`no love last foreva,, no frenship n sistaz last for life?? is that true,, haiiz
`TEARS ARE OF GOOD USE`
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HapPii biiRthDaE siiNgapOre !!!
HaPpii BiiRthdaE NiiKii !!!
erm erm wenT to meeT wen.. er jiie n janet n niiKii arUnD sevEn deN wenT to sChooL togethEr.. haas,, walk slowly den raiin,, *enJoyin e raiiN haas =p* reach school le very boriin haaha den tok tok lor,, but some unhappi incident happened lols,, haaiix why can everyone stae as a grp nehz? y mux fen senior bu senior de lehz,, aiNt seniors ouR freNz too? mux we draw such a clear liine? haas,, iF oUr frenship sae break jiiu break den is it worth?,, *tiired of this type of prob mans,,haas,, haiiz*haha had concert in school den mi wen janet nikki binpei damn high we sign all e wae man hahaz den everyone looked at us heez *maLu*
afTer scHooL wenT to NorThpoiiNT with janEt,, wen n Nikkii haas,, dunno why mi keep on so peK chek den scold e FouR lEttEr words,, soRrii sii JiiE dun mean to sCold de ,, duii bu qii,, haiiz pass by BB rooM ahaha den kaming very cute siia ask mi came den sae *gOu goU shOu zhii* hahaz.. sTunneD hahaz yea gOu shOu zhii canT breaK e prOmiisE haas =p went noRthpoiinT maKan haas after that go jUroNg wiiTh mR caii huaNg haas,, accoMpanY him go see docTor,, mii so good accompanii him see doc,, he still shoot mii haas =)) erm erm after that went homiie to prepare for goinn to MaRiiNa haas,,
meet janet.. nikki n wen 6 at oCbC but i was laTe haas,, sorii guYz,, haiixz den heard a bad bad news,,*knew iT wouLd happeN le,, oUr freNship with tHem brEaK le,, trUe? haiiz* went to aMk meet er jiie den chatt on traiin to marina,, haha there damn crowded sehz haahaz,, den the bus so pack,, haha,, one incident so damn embarassin,, hahaz,, the bus driver wanted to ask if anione want to get down ,, den no one replied him haas,, den wen shouted,, *you mei you ren yao xia che* hahaz,, damn paisehz loRz,, haha den we shouted n siiNg oN e waY,, er jiie couLdnT stanD us,,hahaz,,
aLwaEs keNa buLLiied by eu all the,,haha the steamboat mi so good help eu all to cook hee,, jkjk,, tot smallest got advantages,, *soBz* ended up kena bullied,, haha,, at the steamboat there wen recognised one guy who is a costumer as the worker,, haas *wen ar wen wiie todae eu so blur hahaz*,, eat till 8+ den we walk here walk there waiit for LiaNe,,hahaz,, we siiNg all aLonG maNs,, ahahaz erm erm den went to a bus stOp and cuT the cake hahaz,, *fiirst time ever,, celebratin bdae and cuttin cake in a bus stop* hahaz den wen got a NEW nicK called SHE ME DOU YAO,, haas cox she everythin also wanna try hahaz, after cut cake we went to play arcarde den went to wait for liane,, yeahs fiinalli liane came,, fiinally got to see who is san jiie,, hahaz den took lots of pics todae hahaz,,after meetin san jiie,, we went back le cox nikki cant go home too late hahaz,, we walk so long man,,hahaz abt 30 min den reach the mrt man,, *tiiriiN* hahaz,, sing along and HIGH hahas,,
rEacH home arOunD 12 plus hahaz,, daDdii cAme dowN to fetch miie, hahaz,, cox mi scare maHz,, haiix got soo manii mosquitoe bites maNz,,hahaz.. tiiRiin bUt fun dae,, wOOo.. hahaz
sIstaZ roX,, =))
-=-will our frenship be fine?,, will we be able to understand each other more,, oNce Fren Foreva fReN,, realli dun wanna eNd iiT,, canT we juz be together wit eu all nNN wiTh er jiie they all aT e saMe tiiMe?-=-
-=-FreNshIp,, reLatiiOnship,, cRaPpss,, i haD eNuF oF thEm,, aRgHH =((
-=-iF i coULd cHoose to enD mooii liFe,, i woUld,, i aM siiCk n tiiRed of livIin although problems make up parts n parcel of life but it is tiiriin,, =((
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Monday, August 08, 2005
todae arhz,, went out with er jiie,, wu jie n si jie to sembawang beach,, haas,, feel so good after tokin things out maans,, haas,, everyone havin swings to tuUaS huH hahaz,, *dun la,, cant swing* haaass oNli we understand hahaz,, erm erm at 4+ went to wujie hse stae till 7++ den go take bus with er n si jiie,, haas,, erm erm den mi go 895 fiind them lols,, erm,, erm,,
didnt rrealli tok to ya bahz,, silence?? haas is that better?,, i am tiired jux dun feel like tokin or thinkin ani thing le,, haas,,and dun eva break ya vow becox of mi pls,, i dun worth,, i sUx,, nv sae yaself uselss,, no one is useless bahz,,e dist between mi n eu,, haas wat can i do,, i feel e dist but but,, i am tiired to pull it,, rang wo rest awhile bahz,, wo de tears wo de heart realli lei le,, haaas,,
everyone thinkin its moi fault,, i didnt spare a tot of eu,, lols,, oKaYs fiiNe leT iiT be hoW everyOne thiinks,, iT doesnT matter or maKe anii diiffEreNce,, i m tiiRed,, lols,, taKe it as mOii faUlt deN.,suan le,, den wo de cuo bahz,, wo bu xiiang qu zhen shui dui shui cuo,, lols,, ying wei wo zhen de hao leii,, hao xiiang dao xiia le,, nth matters le bahz
to kamiNg: yeaS smoKe less haha gOod for heaLth de,, haha remember our proMise kiies,, treasure her and i shall proMise eu to takaz of moIii seLf,, hahaz,, cant break it hor, hahaz or else mi beat eu arhz..haas,,
yeas!! minG tiiaN goiN out wiTh sisTaz,, nO more tuas plEasE,, we shalL roCk e atmosphere tmL,,haas,,
*nTh maTteRs aniimoRe le baHz,, iFlD.,, dYiiN soOn*
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
tOdae arHz,, beNiing a piiGgy tiil 11 am,, haas den wake up heard bad news.. mY mummii losT moii raNk,, arGhh,, piissed,, haas,, errm wat to ahyii hse todae lorz,, den 9++ den went homiie with mummi,,
i remembered the date,, haha todae haha 2mths,, road was like tougher n tougher,, i am geetin more n more tiired,, lolss
erm,, havin a feelin that eu n mi are driftin apart more n more le,, no matter how much kisses n hugs wouldnt be able to help,, trusT?? eu sure eu trust mii mahz? i noe its moi fault that i am close wit himm,, but i dun gib a damn to wat others think or sae includiin eu cox i qing zhe zhi qiing,, i wont have anii feelin if eu are close to other gals infront of mii,, cox i trust eu,, i am not pushin e fault to eu saein that it is your fault,, but but,,, i realli wu hua ke shuo bahz,, eu sae eu would trust mii but wats now,, eu dun seem to trust mii,, to trust the US bahz,, i am tiired le,,
duii bu qii
seriously,, i realli dun have the confidence in e us,, i realli dunno wat to do wat to sae,, are thing meant to be this way,, i am almost givin up not onli on us bUt aLL thaT i haF,,
liFe suX,, eVerythiiN sUx,, FUCK OFF,, arGHHhh
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Friday, August 05, 2005
haiix,, my gooDness,, wiie does thing turned out this way riite,, haas yesterdae,, really tiired le so deciided to giv u see wat i wrote lorz,, i am tiired n afraiid too lols,, kies,, shall juz try our best to build up trust n confidence bahz,,hee
todae arhs had npcc after school lor,, den went to causewae with him n kel,,haas after that go 165,, yupiess,, wonderiin why ur face seem to be so troubled eu told mi eu r fiine,, but why dun i feel so,, lols,, den at 10+ go back with cai huang haas,, went to s11 to makan with him,, crappin lols,,haha thnks for sendin mi to the bus stop,, take caare of ya leg,, =))
SO wat that we seem fiine,, i am still so afraiid,, i couldnt feel e secure,, i feel so insecure still,, ani way,, time is wat needed bahs,,haas,, tu ran lei le,, realli lei le bahz,,haas,, hope things shall tured out fiine,, i am still so confused n haas lack of confidence too,, =p
*tiiRed de wo,, wat shld ii do,, confused,, shattered*
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
ehz,,, todae arhs feelin so dead man,, coughin like hell..ahaz,, wasnt concentratin in enGlisH class,, was like slaCk haas,, lolz bad mood?? maybe cox feel like zzz hahaz,,haiix duriin recess kena bullied by vincent,, kimgee,, weijie,, long,, jianwen they all lor,, i regret trimin moii eyebrow haas and cutin moi haiir,, *soBs soBs* after sch go to no where haas,, mi yuwen wait in sch for them to fiinish traiinin den wendii acc us lor..haha fUn man,, rachel they all come find us den we sing songs,, sing damn loud lor,, even mr fauzi came out n ask us to be softer,,haas,, at abt 5.20,, send wendi back lor,,haha den left our bags at e benches,,hahaz den wen we return,, iT was goNe,, mi n wen worried like hell,,lolz,, yuan lai is rachel n yi bing take de,, *xia si wo* haas
after that he finish traiinin le,, den we walk home together lorz,, haha realli wan mi go back to his side arhz,, okiex lor,, u bear den okie lor..hahaz,, haiiz actualli mi also scare that i will like him again lor... war ife i am being touched lor,, mi also dunno wiie everytiime i see him,, i will be verii happi.. for no reason de,, i dunno wiie,,haha maybe is mei see kor dat type of feelin bahz hahaz
~bu guan fa sheng ren he shii dou bu yao fang kai hao mahz,, even if need to choose,, also let mi be e one to choose e road k?..haas,, erm erm maybe soumtimes we have doubts in each other la,, but as time goes by we will trust each other more n more riite,,hahaaz u will help mi to regain back moi confidence when i feel faithless riite,,haaz,,,=)~
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Monday, August 01, 2005
hao leii hao leii,, haha couldnt concentrate in class,, was crappin arund with fish,, chun siiang n aznor,,hahaz,, erm erm cheering up?..haha maybe bahz,, no one noes wats on moi mind,, haas.. erm erm went to 233 with wendii,, ahma,, fangru todae hahaz,, couldnt fiinish up my mee,, haiiz i have no appetite,, dunno why,,lolz.. erm after makan go maria place find him,, jie n kel,, lolz den walk home lorz,,hahaz
abT 4.30 go 609 play bball till 7++,,hahaz lolzz,, fun?.. maybe but hilarious,,hahaz fuNniii maNz,,haha lolx..chatted with you yii,,haha reaallii??.. maybe bahz??.. but unless he can rang wo di er yi ai shang ta lor,, or else is not possible de larz,,haas..
jiaN wen [kor]: erm erm,, i dunno shld i apologiised to u for my attitude towards eu not,,maybe eu feel that mi baised bahz,, but kor between eu n wei jie,, both also moi kor,, the one i realli treated as kor de,, eu noe eu disappoint mi alot mahz,, e way eu treat linda makes mi feel that eu very scary but i nv given up on eu..when eu are sad,, i ask eu wat happen,, eu wouldnt sae,, wat can i do,, i feel that mi this mei damn useless la,, cant help eu,, maybe eu are closer to slyvia bahz,, jiu suan ni he wo bu close,, ye qing ni you shi de hua tell slyvia bahz,, at least mi noe wat happen,, i realli cant read ya mind larz... all i hope is dat eu n weijie happii can le,, =p
__=i waN everYonE aruNd mii to haVe happiiNess,,to be haPPii,, the rest doesnt matter,, sum things i have alreadii kan kai le,, haaz=___
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