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Monday, September 26, 2005

yar..its all moii fault.. shldnt have done it in e first place
i dunno ya pains but u dun even noe mine too riites..
words i said might have hurt eu unknowingly..but im juz tryin to sae out how i feel..
beside sorri i dunno wat to sae.. i noe im such a failure that i was nv there for eu but were eu there too.. it was all along moi sistaz there rite..
i did put in effort i did nu li in this relationship..but i couldnt break that promise i choose to keep to moiself...
im selfish,, its all moi fault from the begiining,,when eu said eu are numbed n nth matters animore wat can ii do..
ni ye bu shi hai ai zhe ta mahs.. ru guo you yi tian ta ai ni de hua..jiu fang le wo
zhen de leii le.. mei yi ci de zhen chao dou rang wo gan dao ju li..yong you le bi ci you you she me yong..que du bu dao bi ci de xiin...

*zai ing ren bian qian wo shi ge dan sheng de nu ren.. wei she me bei ai wo que jue de bei aii.. wei she me ni zou bu dao wo de wei lai..rang ai gu ding xia lai wo bu yao ai yi zai zai cai pai..wo bu shi mei ci shi lian hou dou neng cong xin zai lai*

iTs all mY faUlt

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Friday, September 23, 2005

`Dang ni hao ai yi ge ren shi,, ni hui wei ta gan dao gao xin dang ta zhao dao xin fu shi,, shui ran ou er hui shang xin dan shi zhi yao ta kuai le ju hao`

-im at nikki hse now.. YEAHZ =))..im so CRAZEE n HIGH nowadays...hahas..
-let it be this way yeah? i guess thats the best le..
-question marks kept runnin in my mind,, unspoken feelings,, undefined words,,how to express them out?
-im feeling kinda lonely,, im so afraid but i dunno wat am i afraid of..
-im tryin to be HIGH n CRAZEE to forget certain feelings in my mind but some feelin are juz there..

`glad that we r closer .. im feelin afraid that problems might arise btw us again..thnks for that second chance..sistaz`

`yin wei wo ai ni shuo yi wo rang ni zou le,, jiu suan ku qi ye shi yin wei huan xi`

`zhi xiiang dui ni shuo shen dui bu qi..baby im sorri`

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

eU maDe mi reaLLi disaPpoiiNted,,

ii daRe noT gO nEaR eUu,, mi n Her weRe sHocked whEn we noE iiT

whY woNt eu be e one saEin oUt,, whY muz TheY tell uS

hoW loNg u wannA keeP iT frOm us,, iT huRts uS kies,,

wE aRe reaLLy washiiN ouR haNds oFF,,

i tOt i cOulD trEaT eU liKe i tReaTed hiiM,, i aLmosT did iT..

bUt noW..i DONT thiNk i cOuld..

pErhaRps mY baiseNess was RIGHT from the beGiinIinG,,

i tRiiEd noT to beliieVe wat ii heaRd buT ii dUn thiiNk theY woUld lie tO miie..

is iiT tRuE.. whY wOnT eU teLL us peRsoNaLLii

dUn maKe us tHiinK thaT eU arE beYonD cUre,, coX i dUn wiiSh tOo

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`tEaRs roLLed down all of a sUddEn yEsT,, iM stiLL in DepRessiiOn =((

`i ChooSe tHiis waE,, i cHooSe to KeEp iiT fOreVer,, i cHooSe tO reMeMbeR

`iiTs haRd,, iT wasnT eaSii aT aLL,, buT ii stiiL taKe tHiis waY oUt

`iiM smIliiN oN thE ouTsiiDe,, buT bLooD kePt driiPiiN frOm the iNsiiDe

`nTh cOulD bE doNe tO eaSe e paiiN to caLm e tEaRs,, to eNd moii dEprEssiiOn

`oNe daE eU wiLL noE...noE e tHiiNg i cHosE to kEeP

`nO oNe wiLL evEr unDersTanD waT ii waNt,,

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Friday, September 09, 2005

eu WOULD be fiine de..THINK positively KIES??

i PROMISED eu that ii will be GOOD,,

PROMISE mi that eu would be STRONG,,

GOD will BRING eu THROUGH iit de,, TRUST MIIE..

No matter wat HAPPENS.. you will NEVER EVER be REPLACED in moi HEART..

EU n WEIJIE are the KORS that ii wan..nNn ii WANNA kepp eu all BY MY SIIDE

ii will BE HERE FOR EU,, for EU to lean on,, for eu to BULLY..

ii MIGHT NOT noe wats HAPPENIN arund eu..but my EARS are here..

DUN GIB UP ON YOURSELF,, cox there are PPLS who care for eu..

it HURTS that NIGHT when eu lied to mi cox EU DUN WAN mi to be WORRY..

but eu NEVER noes,, it makes mi even more worried.. i SMILED still cox eu smile..

the MINUTE eu dried moi tears from my eyes,, i got the URGE to hug eu tightly

to TELL eu how MUCH eu mean to mii even though eu alwaes BULLI mii..

ii wanted to tell eu KOR,I LOVE EU..nNn eu will alwaes be my KOR ALWAES..

ii WANT to be ya MEI FOREVER..can ii?

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I AM SO TIIRED =x

HAPPY BIRTHDAE KWANG !!!

haas,,LAZII miie to update..hehex.. okok.. went for NPCC yesterdae mornniing for PROMOTION TEST..haas,, SURE DIIE DE,, lack of CONFIDENCE.. =((
may the LORD bless mii =X

erm erm,,after promotion,, went to roam arund NP alone..haas..walk here walk there,, go sembawang buy things to put my CHOCOLATES =))..haas,,after that rest rest awhile waiit for cyn they all to come my house.. den we went for the bbq..hahas =))

mi cyn n pris take our chocolates,,we PENG ZHE iit..haas AFRAID that they would drop lor.. hahas.. den on e way we sing song,, lamiin haas =x feli there entertainin us,,hahas..reach le den we gave them our CHOCOLATES hahas..erm erm den rott at there lor..haas.. FUN BAHX..ride bike..feli went back at 11++ haas.. mi n cyn send her to take cab den mi n cyn went to ABC and buy drinks..ahaha..the road was CREEPY haha.. so QUIET..
they poured water on mii..OH MAN..i was WET hahas,, VERY WET !!! =x
we went to jetty at mid night bahs..haas den RAIININ.. cold so went to shelter..den mi n pris were so cold lor.. haas.. cold but warm in our heart riites..haas =) u guys shld noe wat ii meant hee,, erm erm went home at arund 7++ haas.. TIRED.haas pris came too.. den i bathe fiirst.. bathe le pris turn den ii fell alsleep..haaas.. went to NP at 10+ rot there till 12.30 den i walked home slowly.. den SLEEP all the way till 7 haas.. den meet him den went to play bball till 10++ den went home le.. haas..

OH MAN,, stacks of HOLIDAE HOMEWORK haaas,, i haven DO it hahas..=(( DIE LE..haha..

-zai jing zi qian wo shi ge bei ai de nu ren..dan zai ai ren bian qian wo shi ge dan sheng de nu ren.. beii aii haii shii beii aii[depressed]-

-yue shi xiin fu yue hai pa..pa ta hui jie shu,, yue yong bao que yue shi gu du,,meii ren liao jiie de ji mo wo zhi ji zhao gu-

-somethiings i juz want to keep wit mi FOREVER,,ii am contented now that he is HAPPY n i have EU although there were times when ii really do miisses him so much that ii cried but ii noe eu would be there to dry moi tears-

-NDWZADHST-

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

OH GOSH,, WTH im gettin SO LAZY haas.. lazi to UPDATE hee =p

HAPPI BDAE SOCK CHING !! =))

erm erm alright lets start from yesterdae bahz =)).. went to sch in da morning for NPCC =(( hahas.. den after that sam came to my hse wait for mi to change clothes den we went for NEOS haha.. den meet cyn one at ocbc den we went to sembawang to meet pris n man hong =)) haha actualli wanna make my ez link de.. but i was so FORGETFUL la.. forget to bring my bc haas =))

erm erm after sembawang we went to orchard haas.. ate FOODCOURT hee.. den went SHOPPIN haas =)) erm erm smth funni happen..haas wen we pass by grand hotel.. theres a van with ppl in it la.. den cyn ask wats the van for,, pris said it was for tourists den i said eeeiikk so BUDGET haas =p.. den JOLIN CAII walked out.. we didnt knew it untill ppl shout YI LIN YI LIN.. den we noe..haas but onli two ppl shouted her name.. its show how INPOPULAR she is? hahas..she walked pass us without saein exuseme..LOLS.. WTH,, so wat shes a STAR,, but can she be SO RUDE?..haas she was luckii dat we DIDNT embarrassed her lor.. we dun even noe she is JOLIN CAI YI LIN aniwaes,..who gib a DAMN..haas..

we shopped at orchard till 8plus den mi n cyn went back to sembawang to get our things den pris waiited for her jie jie at orchard lor..reach home at abt 9++..lols.. DEADBEAT !!! =)) erm erm nothin much happen todae bahs.. went out for abt one hr plus onli la den go home le.. haas..

HAPPI 3 mths,,haha things gettin BETTER?..haas HOPE SO =)).. may the LORD bless us =))..
i juz want you to be happi no matter wat happen =))..

OH DEAR,, PROMOTION TEST TML,, im AFRAID,, i DUN wanna LOSE this chance..GOD grant mi E wisdom PLEASE !!!..

erm erm somehow i miss e past when we sistaz..[11peeps] stae together..now reduced to 7 lers.. can i return back to that familar grp again?..hopin to blend into you all again.. somehow i feel alone in moi heart at times too !!

*is there FOREVER in this world,, wo shi yi ge bei ai de nu ren,, dan wo shi fou shi xin fu de nu ren nehz.. wo bu yao ai yi zai zai de cai pai..*

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Thursday, September 01, 2005

had fun yest sistaz?.. haas YEAH.. erm erm i might not alwaes be arund wit you guys,, to know wats happen round you all,, to get updated.. or shld i sae i noe da least..but no matter wat happens, u guys realli mean alot to moi.. i might appear to be HECK-CARE,,to be BLUR,, but i am not,, i care..

so sistaz,, no matter wat happening round you all,, i'll be here till e end =)) i might not be a good listener but my shoulder are still available =))..

bros..u guys mean alot to mi too.. wei jie n jian wen,, u two realli veri veri impt to mi.. i didnt hang round much this few daes with you guys..becox i wanna xi guan e daes without you all.. without ni men de cao nou..haas..no matter wat happen..eu all are my kors alwaes..take great care..=))

erm erm.. went out wit er si wu jie and qi jie to amk yest..haas we go find ting jie den went to play pool..haas i nou chu so many siao hua.. lols.. hahaz realli had a fun time.. erm erm den acc ting jie back... saw cai at cc den play bball with him lor after that went to 165 to find him.. but i went back with wei jie..cyn ..eric cox mi cant reach home to late mahz.. sorri..

NORMAL =))

i might not know wat are u upset abt..i might not understand you well..but i realli do care and treasure US..goin 3 mths le bahs... will e road be smoother or wat.. *clueless*,, our feelings UNDEFINE...

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