SHE AINT A KID. </3

Sunday, October 30, 2005

sLacK.. haas.. tired.. played bball for a long time todae.. im tired..haas..find fang ru under her hse den we went to 213 play.. SUDDEN moodswing haas.. IM SORRY..scared eu all le.. DUI BU QI i juz suddenly feel so USELESS and so LAN cox cant score during match bah.. haiis.. and suddenly i think of him again..haiis

learn to ride bike todae...YEAHZ =)) but i no balancin...almost fell luckii pei was there haas =))..haiis..erm erm went home at 7++ for dinner den went to safra find wen n pei.. yh and evan was there.. GOD..LAME sia..haha..den we send wen to interchange n waited for janet den we chatted.. haas

after tat .. pei was mistaken as a boi haas in gals toilet.. lols.. PEI DUN KEEP ON CUTTIN YA HAIR LE LA..haha =Pp erm erm den we went to play pool..haas FUN n finally i noe ABIT le =))
haas but i think of e times mi n u used to play pool together..haiis =((

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juz a SIMPLE message a few word..

even if it was juz ASKIN mi bout some things

i WOULD be happy n contented already..

cox u AFFECTED mi so much,,

cox eu ARE very impt in my life..

GUO QU DE ZHEN DE BU KE NENG HUI CONG LAI MAHS..

tu ran hao xiang lian ni de yi qiie,,

WAT SHLD I DO,,

eu NEVER noe when i NEED uu.. imu

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Friday, October 28, 2005

tu ran hao xiang hen RELAX..

does it MEANS that im letting go SLOWLY le??..

but WHY do i still dunno how to face U..

iTs a diLemA...

im SICK n TIRED alreaDy of all the CRYINGS..

got back moi report card,,, SHUCKS.. haaiis i wan CHIONG next yr le.. haas..

erm highlighted moi hair too haas =))

i juz didnt wish to sae much.. maybe im fine but am ii? i jUz feel like crying out to euu but its IMPOSSIBLE,,

kan jian ni xin ai de ren bao zhe lin yi ge ren de tong ni you zhi duo shao..it HURTS but wat can i do..wo ZHEN DE xiang dui ni shuo WO AI NI,, but u dont..

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

went to TTSH and tai ma better le.. yea.. HANG ON ..haas..
erm after tat went playin bball till nite lor.. haas.. CAT follow us den mi XIN BU ZAI YAN..
wahahas..THNKS SISTAZ =))

iLL juz PRETEND that i DIDNT saw anithing,,

iLL juz PRETEND that im FINE..

iVe LEARNT to treat it as though is was NOTHING BIGGG..

ive LEARNT to take THINGS in STRIDE,,

so wat bout HOLDIN ON,, it HURTS,,

its GONE,, nv to be BACK animore..

why CANT i juz wake UP n move ON,,

i HATE myself,, hate FOR fallin so DEEP..

seein EU so BLESSED now,, wat can i ASK for

i COULDNT do anything BESIDES feelin HAPPI for euu..

iM SORRI,, sorri for this YR of STUBBORNESS..

i JUZ feel like HANGIN ON..

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

everything will cum to an end one dae..

but

ONE thing will nv end

iTs e BOND between the KINDRED SOULS,,milky US..hahas

at least where the world give up on mi,, they didnt..=))

at least when eu left mi here.. they were there to accompany through e darkness..

went to e ttsh todae.. SADDENING,, lol.. tai ma u muz be well kies.. heartbroken when i saw eu cry..haiis..

is LIFE that FRAGILE?.. =((

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Saturday, October 22, 2005

KINDRED SOULS are FOREVER haas =))

sistaz thnks for stayin by moii side ,, appreciatied all ur care.. =)) sorri for my swings sometimes.. im sorrii..

haiis.. been not myself these daes.. smilin for e sake of smilin.. im so fedup..haiis..my heart goes breakin,,oh man,, no one ever understands..somethings i juz chose to keep to moiself.. its hard to love eu do eu noe that .. its like arghh hurtings everywhere.. do euu noe that,, but im so willin to ke fu all e things as long as i can love eu silently..im silli arent i ?.. haas,, yep so silli to love u so silli to cry for eu.. hahas..one dae if eu ever need miie,, i will be there for eu cox i m alwaes by ur side only that eu didnt realised.. haas.. wo hao xiang ni.. wo hao xiang nian shu yu wo he ni de shi jie.. wo hao xiang hao xiang dui ni shuo chu suo yu de gan shou .. dui ni shuo wo ai nii.. but its IMPOSSIBLE..haiis

`wo hai yao deng duo jiu ni cai hui bei replaced..wo hai shi ai ni`

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

HAPPI BDAE JIAN WEN [kor]..

*aFraiiD* tml gettin back moi results le.. how?.. iM so SCARE..haas =X

borin SCH dae..haas =))..

iLL jux try to CONTROL my temper,, gettin MORE pek nowadaes..haiis..

i JUZ wanna CRY,, but i GOT to be STRONNGG !!

=))

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

RAN AWAE FROM NYP,,haas,, den went ROAMING haas =))

okays.. went to play bball with cyn,,bren,,yuwen,,fr..haas WET..lols.. okok fa xxie hahas.. =))

IT a NEW beginning FOR U,,e SAME spot for mii,, find YA happiness n ill juz STAY by him in SILENCE

wo ai ni,,mei you bu ai guo ni dong mahs.. u WONT know bahs,, cox u WOULDNT care much abt mii,, im a NOBODY to u aniwaes,,BEST FRENS u said,, BUT wats NOW?.. not EVEN fren we r like STRANGER,,wo yao qiu bu duo zhi xiang zuo ni de peng you ye hen nan mahs,,haaiis..

i REALLY dunno how to REACT at times,,but i SMILED.haas.

*SHREKS* same old spot after SO LONG.. a FAILURE INDEED..

-=-i Juz CAnT stOp haTiN mySeLf,, i SucKs-=-

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Monday, October 17, 2005

FiNe,, iM saD,, that was EXPECTED !! haas

iM sOrrii babii,, im not worth for that LOVE of urs,, its hard on mii to make that decision too..bi jing ye zai yi qi four mths le.. but yi ge ren de xin zhong zhi neng you yi ge BAO BEI,, er wo de BAO BEI shi ta..

that moment when i passed eu e letter,, i couldnt control e tears.. but i noe thats e best way out,, i wanted to apologised personally but i haf NO courage at all,, maybe apologised le you you she me yong,, e HURT is already TheRe !! i cried not becox i she bu de.. is that i hate MYSELF,, hate myself FOR the bu JIAN DING..

bu guan is rite or wrong.. i made the decision.. i wont regret de.. i hope that EU WOULD LIVE YA LIFE WELL WITHOUT MI KIES..RU GUO SHANG XIN QING NI WANG LE WO,,

tHnKs for all ya concern haas.. =)) iM fiNe.. liFe has to GO on aniwaes,, ill be strong n move on =)) is my fu qi to have eu all as my sistaz

+ wo hai shi ai zhe ni.. one yr plus le.. wo de xin hai zai ni na bian.. wo hui yi zhi zhe yang jing jing de shou zhe de.. lovin u in slience,, qing ni hao hao de he ta yi qi,, yi qi zou dao yong yuan bahs,, wo zhen xin zhu fu,, +

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

tml the DAE,, wat will my ANS be ?

maybe i have the ans already,,

im afraid of regrets too,, but its unfair to u..

im juz hopin that u will be fine and my fren still even if we are not together,,

PLEASE DOOOO TAKE GREAT CARE,,

bi jing na me jiu le,, wo ye hui you di she bu de..ke shi things will end one dae de bahs

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

erm erm..
went to makan with wendy at NP..hahas.. erm erm erm hahas chatted quite long hahas.. den we walk to grace hse.. den grace n wendy send mi home..haas..THNKS GERLS..

yepps,, memoriies all arund..we cant forget them.. atleast we can learn not to think back.. life have to go on..

dedications:

kor[weijie]: mi realli hope that eu can work hard for ya o's.. i dun wanna see eu go ITE or retaiin..
i hope that everythin will be smooth for u..no matter wat happen when u need mi ill be there for eu as a mei mei de..kor.. truely speakin sometimes i realli wonder do u care for mii.. sometimes i really hope that eu can rang wo zai ni huai li ku qii..let mi xiang ni shu ku.. but u were nv there for mii.. but no matter wat eu will alwaes be my kor.. the one i treasured most..

kor[jianwen]: i hope that everything goin well for u.. i hope to see eu smile..kor dun look down on yaself hao mahs.. im here for eu too.. even if u dun wan mii to be here for eu.. theres slyvia.. hahas.. soo u are not alone.. takaz greatly.. i treasure u too =))

sistaz: thnks for all ya cares n concern.. yepp..erm erm alwaes here for each other yeah.hahas.. takaz lots =))

*im sorrii.. i will make myself clears once my decision is made*

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yOooO..finally can have a BIG break..haas =))

at nEt hsE now..hahas yest they cum my hse TON..hahas.. FUN .,..

erm erm went K-BOX too..hahas,..

went aiirport to send SAN JIE off..haas.. fun hehe

soo long nv so RELAX le.. haha can PLAY BBALL le.. =))

*if i really left euu...please take great care of yaself..please..thnks*

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

PERSEVER..haas =)) one more PAPER n i can RELAX..

haas.. will my MUM allow mi go 'CHALET' hahas..hOpe sOo

hope maths can get A1..haaiix..

okiies.. maybe eu saw moi blog.. besides sorri wat can i sae.,, erm erm it way TOO deep
i CULDNT get up..im TRYIN but im TIRED

STUBBORN MIIE..arghh..

*im HOPIN hoPiN that one dae MY DREAMS will COME TRUE..but ITS so hard..*

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

yeah..left wiT both maths ONLI..den OVER le..haas..

excited for the ''CHaLeT'' haas =p..

okiies.. PHYSICS is GONE CASE..haas =(

okies.. some PEOPLE tagged moi blog passin RIDICULOUS comments.. WAT THE FOOT..haas

IF U ARE NOT HAPPI,,its jus MIND OVER MATTER,, i dun MIND n u dun MATTER =p

ps: if ever the dae the girl is no longer on my phone,, u shld noe iit..

-=-iN miD-air hanging..iM trYin tO soaR,,buT i juz reMaiN wheRe i am-=-

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Monday, October 10, 2005

sLacKii miiE..haas =p..

juz takin a short break hees.. erm erm STUDII STUDII..haas..okiees

STRESS STRESS STRESS...

ntH mucH,, didnT wanna think of aniithiinGs.. but one question hinders miie..

AM I HAPPI? they asked..

maybe i am maybe im not,, maybe i dun even noe.. but i no longer know how happiness taste animore..

alot of things i kept it in my heart,, those words are only for someone bahs,, no one noes onli miie..hahas

maybe i choose that way,, maybe i didnt.. hEAVEN noes.. haas

to [d]: treasure before u lose it..

`iTs goNe lonG agO,, vaNiishEd inTo thiiN aiiR-

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Friday, October 07, 2005

haas..im STRESS..okays had been studyin non-STOP this few daes..n iM completely goin CRAZEE !! =x

im AFRAID,, im SCARE of the results.. i realli PUT IN EFFORT..i wan to do WELL..lord give mi e WISDOM please.. =))

okays..learning to accept things as it is.. maybe thats better for EVERYONE..erm erm i cant speak to eu like last time animore but..anyway IF U HAPPEN TO PASSBY.. i noe U wONt..i STILL wish you E BEST OF LUCK for ya EXAMS..jiayou =)

OH MANS..gotta CHIONG chem le..haas.. =((

GOODIE LUCKIIE EVERYONE =))

~sOmetiiMes e OnE besiiDe yOu miiGht nOt be e One yOu nEeD..buT e oNe eu neEd miiGht noT be tHere fOr eU~

~iM cOntEnTed wiT yOu guYs by Moii siiDe =))

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Sunday, October 02, 2005

maYbe sHii wo de cUo,,

iM feeLin kiiNda Low toDaE,, meMoriies fLasHed bacK aGaiiN

i wasNt thaT sTronG,,tHaT siiao sha aT aLL,,

i fEeL likE sCreaMiiN,, i HaD nO onE tO teLL tO

iM sO afRaiid TheY woUld scOld mii foR my iNdecisIveness buT

i diD trY sOo haRd tO forgeT buT i gaVe in aT lasT,

iM wEaK,, i CouLdNt pErsErvE or maYbe i didnT waN to be deTermiNe aT aLL

i lEaRnT so mucH frOm yOo,, i cHoosE noT to Noe hOw weLL yOu arE liVin noW

cOz i nOe u aRe sOo haPpii n BlessEd nOw,,

iTs tiMe loNg agO for mii tO waKe up frOm thiis dReaM whicH dOn bEloNg tO mi aT aLL,,

buT yEt i sLepT oN,, i dReaM oN,,

tEaRs rolled dOwn oN sTarrY nigHt,, looKin uP thE skY..

i tOt sOo dEePlY,, i wOndEred,, pErharPs a yR bacK i sHldnT fall fOr yOo

tHeN ii wiLL noT bE in sUch sTaTe,,

haViiN hiiM by mY siiDe noW,, buT heAveN noEs nO one wiLL replaCe eUu

iM at fauLt toTally..

i waNtEd tO haTe eU buT i caNt,, i eNdeD up hatiiN thaT guY,, thE reasOn whY we paRted

yOu wasnT theRe when i NeeDed a sHouLder buT he waS theRe,,

i waNted tO be theRe foR yOo buT i duN thiiNk u NiiD mi nOw aNiimoRe.

aLL e besT tO eUu..

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Saturday, October 01, 2005

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