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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

wEEE..im at jiawen hse..haha =)) bakin cookies..haha went to play bball yest with san n er mei,.,,haha =))

okies okies..im not feelin rite..hahabut i jux now that i gotta be strong..haha =))

haiis..haiss.. haiis..mOu rEn[someone].. ni dao di shi shui.. i noe eu are not him...who on earth is so hen that wants to see mi fall.. want to see mi shang xin.. u GET it u noe.. evry word eu tag.. every thing in there makes my tears drop no matter how i tried to control it... u noe?.. are u happi now...

haiis,,, hao sha hao sha.. but i hope that is eu bahs.. haiss.. even though i noe its IMPOSSIBLE.. haiis

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Monday, November 28, 2005

NEOPRINTS SIIAO..haha took so much pics with fr todae...haha NICE =))

went to catch movie with fr at bishan..haha =)) nice show..but im soo afraid perharps.. haha =P

okies...we went to rot at yishun at 7+ den i walked home alone..i wasnt feelin rite..i jux felt tired and maybe depressed..

its clear,, but YYY..whenever i tot ive LET GO,,but when i saw ya ive the FEELIN back again..i walked to meet fr instead of takin e bus becox i dun wanna see u i dun wanna see eu face to face..cox im afraid..but fate loves playin games on miie..i saw eu at NP..haas..the feeling when i saw eu was AWFUL,,im feelin upside-DOWN,,i tried to FORCE out tat smile..haas..

decided to go to SAFRA jux now to see if you guys were there..but when i reached there i dun have e COURAGE to walk in,,cox MEMORIES FLASHED BACK,,tears rolled down when i walked to safra..eu would NEVER noe how much courage i took to face eu n her..kekex...guessed wat..OUR PAST,, believe if i said i still look back.. believe if i said im still carryin that glimpse of hope which is impossible..haas..im still hopin SERIOUSLY i am..although i knew that theres no SUCH things as CONG LAI..but i fell in too deep,,cong qu nian fen kai shi wo yi jing fell dao bu ke jiu yao de di pu le...

ni dong mah,, wo hao xiang zai ni mian qian xian de weak yi dian..wo hao xiang ting dao ni de guan xin,ke shi thats all false hopes...bu guan yi ge ren xian de duo jian qiang,,ta ye you weak de yi mian dui bah...wei le ni wo slowly xue hui le jian qiang...yin wei ni wo dong shang xin jue wang shi she me..yin wei ni wo de xin zai ye rong bu xia bie ren..wo qi dai you yi tian wo de xin ke qi zai huo qi lai..ke shi you you shui can REPLACE u..shui ke yi zai rang wo dong SHE ME shi LOVE..

zai shuo ye mei yong..ni de xin yi you le ling yi ge ta..

*i dun like this..i dun like the feelin when i saw eu,,i dun like the tears.. PROMISE?..wats tat..i broke my PROMISE to myself..*

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

HARRY POTTER..hahas.. exciting.. catch it wit jing n kevin =))..

its CLEAR..im somehow CLEAR...somehow i NOE u r still in MY heart

the feeling IS there,, it didnt FADE,,

perharps it DID,,but a LITTLE

i DUN wan it,, cox im LONGIN to SAE

i DUN love u,, i wan a HAPPY relationship, i DUN wanna hold oN

cox i NOE we are impossible.,,

but why DOES it seems so HARD to get u REPLACE

*somehow,,im feelin kinda LOW but ill stand up*

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Thursday, November 24, 2005

haha.. went out with JING[erjie] yest to shop.. we shop shop from orchard to bugis den meet da joe kevin at FAR EAST..haha den pei them walk walk den we go PLAE POOL..ahah PAI SEHZ haha im so LOUSY..haha

erm erm erm fun dae..but im tired too..hahas

pei: im sooo sorrii.. i mean i tot....arghh im GUILTY..pei im sorrii

i WONDER y i dun dare to LOOK into ya eyes..izzit like wat they sae?

*SPECIAL SOMEONE*

or its jux a CRUSH

*i wonders*

-=-wo hao qi dai wo qing kou shuo chu wo bu zai ai ni de na tian-=-

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

its been LONG sinnce ive UPDATE..would u guys BELIEVE i went for tha CAMPUS SUPERSTAR...haha...i went for it.. i JUST wanted an EXPERIENCE,,,hahas...

binpei jia you wor.. U are E superstar in OUR heart...hahas...

erme rm nothin much happens..im FINE.. maybe its COZ i didnt saw eu FER e past few DAES? or maybe im ENJOYIN moiself..haiis but SOMEHOW i MISS EU AGAIN..

okay..now ii noe,, its so CRYSTAL CLEAR..how much she is to u..how much u love her.. its SO clear..but i cant SAE or DO anithin beside BEING HAPPI fer u..maybe its TIME i sae GOODBYE n disappear in ur LIFE..i shall keep on LOOKIN for my mr RITE?..haha lols..

im LEAARNIN to take stuffs EASII..takin all things wit a SMILE..haha

i REBOND moii haiir..im LAME..hahas...

KEVIN nNn MENG DA.. i LOVE u all de HAIR soo style.. ER JIE i love URS too =))

*im juz cryin to myself alone.. no one CARES*

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

YEA...im BACK ...haha i MISS home =)).. okies TIRING..haha but FUN

the FIRST NITE...haha we CYCLED from PASIR RIS too CHANGI n we saw AH GUA,,haha
they damn CHIO but once they tok,.. i FAINTZ,,haha =Pp after AH GUA..we went to CHANGI BEACH,,haha FANG RU scare mi n cyn den we SCREAM..haha..erm erm we went to SEE sun rise..but TURNED out to be MOON SET,,haha cox the CLOUDS covered the SUN n they wasnt SUN RISE,,ahah after tat we CYCLED back to the CHALET,,, DAMN IT...it was TIRRING lor..haha..when we reached e CHALET..i rushed to BATH first haha,, FUN n TIRRED,, BACKSIDE n HAND pain..haha =))

erme rm SECOND daes,,,ESCAPE CLOSED,,,we ROTT..haha SLEPT n eat play pool...haha and OF COX SISTAZ CHAT..haha chatted at the PARK..haha NICE CHAT hees and chatted at DOWNTOWN EAST PLAZA...haha..and BIN PEI N BREN keep on scarin mi n cyn..we SCREAM siia cox we were tokin abt GHOST STORIES..haha

third dae..haha we checked out at 10.30 haha and took bus back to yishun,,, SHUCKS,,ahaha TIIRED,,haha reached home FINALLY and it was soo COMFORTABLE..haha

ahah erme erm guys thanks for teaching mi how to ride bike..and takin care of mi..haha its FUN..haha thnks =))

erm erm i hope so much for mi n u to be like last time..u were the best fren i took..haha i missed e times we tok abt our xin shi,,but i understand,,how to tok abt our xin shi when maybe the root of our probs come from e same person..haha but i realli hope that we can be like last time..i miss those times..

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

haha BACK from GENTING.. nice DAE..hahas...EXCITEMENT hahas...okays..

had a DREAM yest..hhaha its was a SILLI one...haha..i DREAM of u n mii BACK again...it so sweet la.. can once again have ur LOVE n CARE in my DREAMS..hahas =)) but on the other hand... its juz a DREAM.. i can nv have it AGAIN..haha NEVER MIND.. im USED to it le.. hahas =))

YEA..goiin CHALET tml..xiiong xiiong BDAE..hahas =))

erm erm erm.. TIAN SHI: haha xie xie ni de advice too wor.. yea.. i shall cry when i feel like.. and should not control it as it will make mi feel better... wo xiang xin yuan fen haha

erme rme rm kindred souls: i MISS you all alot..

*shi qu de maybe forever also cant have back..its JUZ a dream*

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

SHOULD i go,, i REALLI dunno

am i FIT to be in YLDP,,

im such a LOSER,, an IRRESPONSIBLE freak

SHOULD i or NOT?..

DILEMAAA..

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

NEW skin,, LIKE itt,, cox it SHOWS my feeliin

yupps LIIES,,nth but LIIES..

went to LAZE at bin pei work place..haas.. chatted with fang ru n wendii.. yup.. realised lots of things..wendii u got to be STRONG..we'll be by ya siide..haas went to yishun at arund 7++ den meet ahma le go play POOL..haas thnks for accompanyin miies...=)) yup u guyz made mi realised how impt families are..n how much i mean to u all too..hahas..nn yea maybe its time i shld live for myself n not for him or anione le..

haiis i realli need eu RITE now..but i cant..

maybe thats FATE,,e ways things meant to bee?

can i REJECT itt,,haaiis..

kor,, i feel like HUGGIN u rite NOW,, im feelin OH SIIT BAD..

control moi tears put up a smile..but NOW..my tears are DROPPIIN..

im no longer that STRONG LION,, that CONFIDENCE miie..

im DOOM,, im DIED,, im JUZ numb

life wasnt e SAME,,maybe maybe im NEVER strong before..haiis..

``will eu EVER bee that SPECIAL SOMEONE againn,,pperharps im no longer that SOMEONE animore-

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ONE YEAR,, FIFTH,, im still HERE..somehow WAIITING perharps

but does it think that i SHLD gib up

somehow i remember HOW eu broke moi heart on this dae.. but will EU?

i DOUBT soo..

haiis... chi ke wo de xin zhen de hao tong,, haii

play bball so long todae with caii.. thnks for acc mi =))

ren sheng shi duan zhan de, dui bahs??

maybe i shld let go realli?? n find back my SP..hahas.. maybe i shld learn to treasure and control moi mood le..

kindred souls: im not in good mood nowadaes..not bein myself..but i thnk u all so much for accomodatin mi.. thnks..ni men rang wo understand alot of things.. u all put sense into mi.. and at least eu guys saw moi effort... thnks =))

kors: wei jie and jian wen.. i realli miss you all alot alot alot.. jian wen wo hao xiang dui ni fu chu yi ge mei mei gai zhou de...wo dong im baised at times.. but jian wen kor.. wo zhen de zhen xi ni.. and wei jie.. thnks for bein there for mi.. wo hao xiang bao zhe ni men wor.. kor kor

jies: jies all goin for o lvl le wor.. muz JIA YOU.. takaz wor =))

eu: i got so much to sae but perharps i will nv have e chance to sae bah.. erm erm wat do eu want mi to do.. let go? i noe eu wan that bahs but but im still tryin so hard.. i noe how much eu love her..thats why i envy her soo much.. stay happii.. im alwaes here for eu...

*i got so much to tell eu all but somehow i dunno how to type out so it seem so BLUR..haass aniwaes thnks guys* =))

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Thursday, November 03, 2005

ENUF,, im SILLI,,haiis

i NOE how much i MEAN to eu

i NOE where i stand,,

u DUN have to tell mi... it HURTS

i CHOOSE that way,, soo let it be

she wants to be ur LAO Po.. she loves eu alot.. but WAT ABOUT MII

wo ye HEN ai ni..but eu dunno... TONG REN BU TONG MING

i ENVY her,,

tears are droppin AGAIN..FOR EUUU

u are e REASON I cry but why m i POURIN out my SORROWS to him AGAIN,,

why wont eu be e one to DRY it

u means ALOT... n it remains...

perharps.. im the SILLI one.. i had nv been SMART

i HATE myself,,,

i JUZ wanna HOLD ON,,

moodswing todae.. i realli dunno how to face eu..i see eu i think of wat someone said.. my gosh it hurts ... im like CRAZEE..not MUISELF

but wei ni fu chu de aii ni bu hui dong de..

kindred souls: thnks gurl.. i m a STRONG lion.. i will NEVER fall...ill be there for eu all too =))

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

wo zhen de hao xiiang bao zhe nii

hao xiiang wen ni hao mah, , hao xiiang dong ni zhui jing fa sheng she me shii

hao xiiang hao xiang,,

but i could onli xiiang bahs

haas.. yea.. FISH owe mi 28 bucks hahas..okay okay bball n frens dae wahaha =))

all of a sudden im so PEK !! i wanna SCREAM my LUNGS out..haas

*hai niao n yu de ai qing zhi shi ou ran de xiang yu,, yi shun jian er yi... jiu xiiang wo he ni*

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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

yest,,haas 6 hrs of MATHS,,haas im MAD,, enjoyed doin it cox it can occupies up my miNd..haas =)),, erm after that went to play bball at cC,..haas play till 6 plus den go hommee..after that went to 609..haas CYN teach mi how to cycle..haas my balancin sux..haas.. had an ACCIDENT,, i knocked onto a stationeried LORRY..haas and a BLU BLACK on my cheek.. *ouch* haas...CARELESS miie =Pp

tiirriin todae haas..=)) walked all e way lol..haas went to amk haas pluck MEI MAO..haha..den went to ORCHARD haas.. mummy my leg soo PAINN..hahas

kindred souls: haas thnks for all your care and concern wor.. haas ill try not to be pek de.. ill control my temper..hees =)) nnn ill be strong de.. although sumtime mi gib attitude im sorrii...
strawberry:takaz wor.. erm erm i believe eu can de.. haas.. zan bao bao: u hor dun alwaes so pek caan?? hahas takaz wor.. wen: juz do wat eu wan to.. takaz.. janet n fang: thnks for bein there,,haha... KINDRED SOULS ROCKS =))

da--wu jie,, von jie n all my kors: o lvl cumin le.. takaz wor.. nNn i miss eu all.. go out after exam wor..hahas.. JIA YOU.. hahas =))

*jiu shi ai ni ai zhe ni,, bu qi bu li,, ill be there fer you till e end,, silently i hang onn*

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