Saturday, December 31, 2005
hmm.. watch qing tian da shen todae.. haha nice movie.. FUNNI yet TOUCHIN..haha =))..hmm after tat we went to 925 makan..haha..ke lian de wendy kena shoot.. nai ma teng nii haha...hmm after eatin we went to play bball at 213..
haiis..kena prob there.. lols.. wat can i sae??..haha.. dun feel like saein it out let bygones be bygones ba,, haha.. but aniwae they are SORE LOSERS..lols..hmm after that we went to 243 play..haha.. played till 10++ den wei jie pei mi walk home lor.. thnks wor =))
-wo gettin happier each dae le... ever since ive let go of u..zhen de hao relieve wor..haha..im no longer that gal who crys fer u every night le..im now the cheerie miie..the real real mii...hahas..wo hao kai xin wor``
-wo xue zhe ta kai xin rang bie ren zou jing lai...haha..zhi shi hai shi bu neng chen shou tai da de da ji``
*shi jie shang zui yao yuan de ju li bu shi ni wo bu neng zai yi qi er shi dang bi ci zhi dao dui fang ai zhe bi ci shi que bu neng zai yi qi*
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
hmm.. CYCLIN todae..haha.. i went out at 10+ to meet kor[zhiyong] at mac den we eat le den go arcarde..haha i went crazee todae..haha..was like tokin to my pooh bear nNn actin cute haha =))
hmmm..we went to cycle at east coast,,FUN..haha wendi is kena protected de white tiger wor..haha.. erm erm at abt 6++ we took bus back to yishun.. haha..hmm lamin with ying chao dey all..haha
had a HUGE quarrel..world war 4 yest at my house.. haiis.. my FAULT too,.. im sorrii.. haiis..
*hmm i have decided le.. wo bu hui ju xu xi huan ni...i think thats a better choice.. seein u Nnn them bi jiao possible..i think i shld not stand in your way perharps..haha.. wo hai shi be your fren..haha.. aniwae lettin u goo is definitly easier so im FINE..ahah xi wang ni xin fu,...dui ni de gan jue zhi hui zai wo xin zhong cheng wei guo qu*
-``tu ran lei le.. zhen de hao lei arh..``
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Monday, December 26, 2005
hmMm.. went to ahyi hse in da mornin..haha den went back at four plus.. hMm..played with moii nephew..*cute* hahas.. hMm my shoe broke on moi way home..hahas.. paisehs..
went to play bb at cc.. haha wendi nNn fang ru nNn janet went there too.. haha fun nehs.. erm erm abt 10++ den go home.. hMm.. fangru aN wendy shoes also broke..haha *you yuan* haha...
hMmMM..cai huang acc mi wait for bus.. thnks wor.. =))
hMm..nth much..juz a normal dae.. haha.. play bball thats it haha..
*janet thnks fer ya present wor.. i love it haha =))*
-``hmMm..wo ho ruan wor.. zhen de hui bi jiao hao ma..wo bu dong.. you hao duo yi wen..wo dao di gai ju xu xia qu hai shi fang qi.. haha,,wo ye bu dong--
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
MERRY xMAS haha =))
yup wat a wonderful COUNTDOWN at orchard nNn wat a pathetic state we are in..haha..FUN.. guys lets go again next yr,,haha..after orchard we went to east coast for bbq..haha nNn my kor[zhiyong] nNn pals went to find us.. wEEe..love eu guys wor..haha nNn we were like talkin nNn crappin..they keep HONGIN my frens..haha
erm erm...but good things dun alwaes last long..haha suddenly the sky began to rain..haha NNn we were like freezin..haha..cold..haha at abt 8+ we went off le..haha im freezin..haha..after tat we went makan den we went home..haha =))..was lamin in the bus,.haha ying chao i pei he de not bad ba...haha =))
erm erm slept till 4++ den go play bball..haha wee..fun..went down 609 too nNn saw jia hao..haha so long didnt see him le..haha..
*feli nNn wendy,,u all make mi so pai sehs lei,,ahaha..dotts i will angry de nNn i mean it..jux that i dun wanna spoil e atmosphere haha *
*i guess im confirmed le..but will it be a better choice.. i noe if i were to let go now.. i still can cox its definitely easier den letting eric go..if i were able to let go of eric..i can do it too..but will i be happier if i fall in or i would be hurt again.. im afraid.. but but i noe im never ya cup of coffee..or tea but..argHh..complicated*
``-its true,, u will never noe when ya goin to fall for sumone--
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
okies.. im juz so damn LAZI to update..hahas..went to orchard yest with ying chao shixian lydia zhiyong nNn weisheng.. haha erm thnks kor for ya pooh wor haha mei mei love eu..hahas =))
okies.. havin bbq nNn goin countdown later.. damn bloody hell pek..haiis so many cock ups..haiis..hope everything will be fine ba...
hmMm..how does one noe if sumone is jealous..?..how does one noe if they like sumone..?..
nan dao is true that ive fallen in?.. im so confused..but i dun wan risk e chance..when i noe i'll wont be ya cup of tea wat for rite..haiis... *fan*
here i wish everyone A MERRI MERRI CHRISTMAS =))
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
its a VERY pu tong de RI ZI..haha normal dae fer miie =)).. accompany wendy nNn fang den after that at nite mi go play bball lor..
hahas..simple..simple..
hmm hmm.. you kor kor he sistaz jiu gou le bu shi ma..wei she me wo hai hui ke wang ai qing de chu xian.. dan wo que hai pa ai qing de shang haii,, wo dao di zai xiang she me..fang xia le ta ke shi wo que bu gan qu ai shang bie ren..haha wat is this man..
kor [jian wen]: wo hao xiang hao xiang ni..i felt that e dist between us is like draggin further nNn further le..i ask eu if im still ya sis..you said yes.. but why i dun see e care.. haiis wo hao zhen xi ni..hao xiang la jing wo men de ju li..kor ni yao xing fu wor =))
kor [wei jie]: ben lai hen qi dai he ni yi qi chu men de.. ke shi xian zai ni que cannot make it..haiis yi cang huan xi yi cang kong.. kor kor wo hao xiang ni ye shi wor.. ke shi ni hui xiang wo zhe ge mei mei ma..haha xie xie ni gei de chen nou wor..ahaha =)) kor,, mei love eu =))
kor [zhi yong]: hey mei ci bulli wo de..haha dui bu qi wor..everytime beat u..haah =P..hmm..xie xei ni de guan xin..=))..
sistax : xie xie ni men cang zai wo sheng bian.. hahas.. ting wo de naggs,,nNn rubbish haha =)).. i LOVE u guys,,haha =))
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
at fang hse now...havin TUTITION later.,..siians..hahas..
hmm,,yest went to watch THE PROMISE,,oh my mummii..hahas i dun uinderstand the story all i noe is i almost dry when i saw nicholas tze cry..haha =P.. haha..almost fell alsleep in the first part of the show,.haha =))
hmm after movie went to play bball at cc.. haha..one dae jux end like that.. aimless?...hahah perharps.. hahas
CONGRATS to all who passed their N-level.. jia you for sec 5 wor =)) happi fer u.. =)) but for those who didnt make it.. CHEERUP.. do well for ya nitech perharps.. dun GIB up..hahas..jia you =))
``bu shi bu xiang ai shang bie ren.. juz that wo hai pa zai shou shang haii,,wo mei you yong qi he li liang zai qu chen shou another heartbreak..``
``you shui bu xiang yao yi ge zi ji ai de ren zai sheng bian pei zhe ta.. you shui bu xiang bei ai..wo ye bu li wai.. wo hao xiang hao qi dai wo de xin gan qing..hao xiang dong who will he be``
``ai he feng yi yang..it cant be seen but it can be felt,, u nv noe when will u love someone.. when u will let go of sumone..wat exactly is LOVE``
``ren dou zai zhui xun da an...zhui xun zi ji xiang zhi dao de da an..but do they ever think that da an huo xu jiu zai ta men sheng bian..or something there isnt a need for anii explanations?``
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
hmmm.,.catch KING KONG yest..haha a verii touchin movie..tears rolled down moii eyes
hahas =)).. i LOVE king kong hahas =P..erm erm reached home at 3am..haha gosh SCARYY...
went out with ahsi nNn meei mei todae..haha im LATE..sorrii hahas.. erm erm erm spent 60++ haha..pok le.. erme rm nice dae guys..haha went back yishun went to find kor[zhiyong] nNn chatted with them..hahas..im BLUR...sotong =))..
okiies.. been playin lots le.. hahas..time to settle down for moii studies perharps..haha =)).. erm erm erm i wanna do WELL..hahas
*hao xiang zhi dao ni de yi bai fem gei zhe yang de ren*
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
haha,, hmm went to ah yi hse todae.. haha my small little nephew bulli mi..haha =P...
meet bin pei nNn fang at far east den we walked to PS to find brenda den back to orchard to find jie[chun jin]... jie i noe that we are in the wrong for being late but we alreadii try our best to rush down le.. sorri =((
erm erm supposed to catch KING KONG but no more seats so we cancel e movie..haha..saddenin..hmm hmm i feel lyk im on cloud nine.. so relieve..hahas...gals u have been waitin mi to sae I DUN LOVE him ba.. nNn ive done it..haha CHEERS =))
eric.. wo zhong yu zhuo dao le.. zhen de,,, bu hui zai fall back le.. u are HISTORY to miie.. wo BU AI ni le.. nv gonna look back.. but aniwaes.. i HOPE that happiness will alwaes be wit u... FOREVA FRENS..=))
janet nNn fang,,, xie xie ni men rang wo xiang tong... without ya question.. i wouldnt noe that ive let go.. nNn i still got u all..more den contented with u guys with mii =))
*ci ke wo de xin kai le..bu zai feng bi le..wo zhong deng dao le shuo bu ai ni de zhe yi tian*
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
yeaHx..haha went to do homework todae nNn finally we got our FAMILY PHOTO..haha =))
erm erm xiang le yi zhen ye... wo zhen de mei you xiang xiang zhong ai ni bah.. wo hen kuai le yin wei wo bu zai hai pa mian dui ni le.. kan dao ni her ta wo zhi you kuai le.. she me tong ye mei le.. wo fang xia le.. yupp wat janet said was rite zhen xi ni he cyn de frenship is more impt...haha so ni bu zai shi na ge wo ai de ren le.. or shld i sae wo zao jiu fang xia le.. zhi shi i think that im still missin u.. hahas.. suddenly wo feel that im so relieved..haha..xie xie ni ceng jin gei wo de ai.. xie xie ni gei de hui yi.. hahas zhen de hen mei...
yup.. shi qu de wang wang zhui mei li,, wang shi zhi neng hui wei.. so we must learn to treasure now nn not stay in the past..zhe yang ren shen cai hui jing cai..hahas..
*ba guo qu fang xia.. ju xu zou wei lai de lu..ba wo xian zai..ren sheng cai hui mei hao*
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
hmm... wo you mei you xiang xiang zhong ai ni?? haha fang ru ask mi this question.. haha i might be saein iLu.. iMu..iNu.. but is that true.. or is that jux becox i lose eu n so i miss u??... maybe wo cong lai mei you hao hao de xiang guo this question bah...when fang ru ask mi..i stunned,, but i also dunno.. NOT determined..is wat they sae i am.. cox i m not DETERMINE in lettin u goo..TRUE??.. maybe..
sometimes.. i smile doesnt mean that im fine.. when i laugh it doesnt mean that im happi i juz wanna light up e atmosphere... sometimes when i keep quiet doesnt mean that it doesnt matter or im not angry jux that i didnt show it out..sometime when i sae im fine ot doesnt mean soo.. sometime when i sae i hate eu it doesnt mean that i hate eu from e bottom of my heart perharps..
zai man tian xing xing de ye li... wo gan dao le gu du..you shi yi ge ren de tian kong bin bu shi na me wu qu ke shi wo ye hen xi wang you yi ge ren neng wei wo de tian kong tian shang duo yi dian xin xin rang wo fai guang...dan wo hao bu xiang na ge ren shi ni ba,,
ren de ben xin shi shan liang de.. yup.. zhen de.. ren ben lai jiu xiang yi zhang bai zi.. hahas..shi yin wei you le ai you le peng you that why bai zi cai ni you yi fu mei li de hua..wo you cong qian kuai le ma.. hai shi na dou shi wei zhuang de..bu xiang rang ni men kan dao wo weak de na yi bian er yong xiao rong lai ying gai.. ahahas,, wo ye bu dong...
hen duo hen duo de yi wen... ke shi wo dong you xie yi wen wo yi bei zi ye zhao bu dao answer..
*ren sheng shi ru ci ke gui,, er ni men shi zhui zhen gui de*
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
erm erm...had afew FUN daes =))...
went to orchard with jie[chun jin] and moi sistaz... we ate lots of CHOCO haha nNn neos.. haha..tirin..hahas.. erm erm todae on our way home got STUPID indian MEN look at us.. from top to toe especially the BREAST..hahas.. BASTARD..gorge OUT their EYES,,,lols.. den moi sistaz send mie home.. THNKS ,, iLu GUYS =))
erm.. i saw eu n her todae..no longer have that HURTIN feelin..maybe still abit but atleast its gettin lesser..thats e way i wan it to be..hahas...i realli hope for a new relationship.. hope to rely on someone.. but im not sure.. hahas
kor [wei jie]: kor kor ni shi wo zhui zhen xi de kor kor..im realli scare that one dae i would lose eu.. wo zhen de hen pa.. uu are e first bro who i cry for.. shui ran i might not be e meii that eu teng most but eu are definitely e kor that i wont mind to fu chu..im so afraid that as time goes by ni hui wang le wo zhe ge mei mei..kor da ying wo.. if realli got that dae ba wo give eu de key chain shou hao nNn hao hao de zhao gu zi ji,,yao hui jia cox home is still e warmest place..nNn yao ji de that somewhere theres still someone who cares for eu..kor ni zhui zhen guii
kor [zhi yong]: kor.. that night... e night that eu shouted at miie.. my heart was broken eu were nv so fierce before... but i noe im at fault.. kor im sorrii...erm ni shi zhui guan xin wo de kor kor bahs..zhui hui bao hu wo er bu hui hu lue wo de bah...maybe eu also the wo dat wo zhui fang de xia xin de bah..cox ni da yin guo wo that without miie eu will still be happii..ni huo xu also the one that understands miie most bah..nNn more dong shi bah... kor wo hen xie xie ni dui wo de guan xin.. wo ye hen nei jiu,, cox i alwaes gib attitude or make eu angry.. dui bu qii..
kor [jian wen]: ni shi li wo zhui yuan de kor bah.. hao xiang bu guan wo duo me xiang lai jin ju li ni hai shi hui tui hou.. kor wo zhi xiang dui ni shuo: i might be baised but i care for eu too.. i realli do.. u nv noes how much i wanted to be like sylvia.. be ya listening ear be e one that eu dotes on but i noe its impossible.. kor.. all i ask from eu is..live ya life well.. take great great care nNn be zhen xin in ya relationship..
sistaz: yea..u all were e reasons for mi to hang on.. eu all are the one that i can confides in.. gals eu all rocks..im not sure if we will be like this as life goes on.. but i hope that if there is ever the dae that i leave eu guys or we lose contact.. please stae happi nNn live ya live well..hahas.. gals im willing to be ya listening ear nNn shoulders when eu all need miie.. i might not give e warmest hug but at least ill be there for all of eu..thnks for all e chances..nNn thnks for all e tolerance.. i love eu guys.. ni men ye hen zhen gui..
*tian xia wu bu shao zhi yan xi*
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
went to send wen off early in the morning haha.. hmm.. after that slack arund till 1++ at the airport.. haha.. den went back yishun le.. mi ,,fang ru nNn peii went to kbox at city hall,, haha accompanii jie [chun jin] ma..haha FUN..haha..after that we went the the rooftop at esplanade..haha..
seein jie so sad,, i saw my shadow on her,, the me when he left,, all of a sudden i feel so DOWN,,my tears drop when i sang [wo ke yi ren shou],, yup,, i can bear everything but i cant bear it when she got wat im supposed to get??..*hmm juz translatin a part of the chorus*.. i wanted so much to console her but i cant cox i saw e past miie,,haiiis.. how long can one sleep on??... how far can a dream go??...how much can one give??...how long can i take to let go??...how much courage do i need to fall for someone??...
i ask wendy to wake up.. but do i have e zi ge to ask her to wake up...? NO i dun have it cox i didnt even set an example..i wanted so much to slp on.. but i noe i noe.. e longer i slp.. e more hurt i will feel..e harder it will be for mi to let go...i decided to let go of it slowly but im so SCARE that i dun have that determination.. im afraid that i would fall back.. HELP MIIE..haha..
`-you meng xiang cai neng chen zhen,, but can all dreams be fulfilled,, can all empty hearts be filled-`
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Friday, December 09, 2005
okiies.. hahas.. hMmMm... went out with my kor[zy] and his pals yest..haha spent 31 dollars on a skirt nNn 2 necklaces..haha.. *heartaches*.. kena di siao on e train by willi..hahas.. dotts..
hmm.. nth much.. chatted till 4+ with kor den i slp awhile..haha
wakie at & this morning..meet them 8 at ocbc... i mean fang ru binpei..yu wen nNn wendii..hahas.. take breakfast nNn den went to play bball le.. hahas..hMmMm.. played till 3++..den went to NP.. mi wen nNn fang fell asleep in mac.. *uncivilised us* hahas =)).. hmMm..nth much le.. walk my way home..haha
although sometime i misses eu but i noe it wasnt as deep as t was ANIMORE,, at least im CLEAR now.. it isnt WORTH my tears my TIME,, at least i NOE we are still FREN,, at least im SOBER,, i noe wat i shld do..hahas..
*lookin forward*
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
hMmMm..went to BUY books todae with fang ru nNn chao mei bao bao..hahas..after that went home change le den meet trudii,,priis nNn siiew..haha we went to FAR EAST..haha SHOPP =)) went round lookin for my PONG PONG skirt..haha =P but saddenin =( hahas.. cox from e front see mi wear not bad..but look from behind my LEG SO SHORT..haha..hmm nNn moi kindred souls went to mei nai de bao bao hse to have movie marathon..haha mii dun feel like watchin so didnt go lor =)..
hMm went to play bball after my shoppin at FAR EAST,,,haha =)).. hmM played till 10 den walk my way home...
its just a NORMAL dae,, tryin not to THINK so much,, cox i noe YOU YI TIAN WO HUI ...
*xiang lian bian huai nian,, xin dong bian xin shui*
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005
played bball at cc with alot of ppl todae.. my sistaxz,, nNn after that my god-bro they all.. at abt 7+ i went to 325 to find them..nNn play awhile den i went home le...haha
hao xiang hao jing mei blog le.. LAZII..haha jing tian wo gan jue ru he??,, huo xu you xie FED-UP,, you xie SHANG XIN,, maybe cox todae is the sixth?...haha
mou ren: cheng shi ni de you ren,, hen yi han bu neng zai zhuo ni de you ren le.. qie qing ni hao hao de zhao gu zi ji bu yao ba zi ji lei huai le... wo dui ni de kui jiu yi bei zi dou huan bu liao.. er ni gei de ai wo yong yuan dou bu neng gei hui.. dui bu qi.. wo mei wang ji jing tian shi she me ri zi.. jux that so wat if i remember,, i cant do anithin..
ni: hey jiu zhe yang rang wo bu hai pa de mian dui ni..rang wo gan dao zi ji yi jian jian yi wang.. zhe yang xia qu jiu hao le.. wo bu yao ai ni de gan jue zai hui lai..cox hao tong..tong dao wo zi ji dou bu zhi dao gai zhe me ban...ni bu hui zhi dao wei you duo me xi wang na ge ren shi ni..ke shi how am i able to deceive moiself when im clear that eu wouldnt sae those words...and how am i able to decieve moiself when i saw e both of u so lovin..when im so clear that shes ur life ur love..she e one that is most impt in ya life besides bball...im rite aint i??..its damn clear,,..soo besides facin wat else can i do..
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
MOODSWING todae.. ATTITUDE..haaiis.. but i juz COULDNT help it...
i think of u,, wat ANGEL said,, wat MOU REN tagged..it juz keep on being refreshed on my MIND,, tears came rollin down,, haiis,, you xie shi perharps bu shi ni xiang yao qu zhuo..er yi jing shi a type of habit le,, jiu xiang ai zhe ni is already my HABIT,, how to change this habit?.. yin wei gai diao hou jiu rong yi FORGET?..
shi wang bu liao hai shi bu xiang wang?.. this question makes mi think real hard,, maybe is cox wo bu xiang fang,, cox wo bu gan xin??.. hai shi wo zhen de nu li le dan i cant do i?.. which is it?.. be glad that eu have lost some things?.. so that good ones will come after that??... will that realli happen on miie? but i hope that e good one is EU by moi side again...
shi wo ren zhen hai shi ni cong mei zhen xin guo??... i dunno i kept tryin to BELIEVE in eu that eu realli put in ya HEART before.. i kept tryin to BELIEVE u that e reasons were REAL..
all these question kept RUNNIN in moi mind...i FEEL so upset?? or MESSY?...i dunno,, im NUMBED..all i wanna KNOW is who exactly is that MOU REN??
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