Thursday, March 30, 2006
maybe this is wat i SUPPOSE to get,,
maybe its alwaes da SAME..
destined to be this way from da START..
im alreadi NUMBED,, it doesnt MATTERs,,
kor[zy]..i dunno wat GOIN on between mi n uu.. i dunno wat to do when u are sad.. its da other way round.. not u dunno how to be my kor.. is i dunno how to be ya mei mei..kor.. like that very tiring lehs... can we talk things out.. hahas.. anyway.. i still hope that u are happii
kor[wj]: very long nv see u le lehs.. haha but at least jux now chatted wit you on the phone.. ahah HAPPI =)).. kor i miss u. if ya nv work tml.. i maybe go meet u.. im doin fine.. takaz
kor[jw]: mr.. u good got da sao nv tell mi.. haha she chio lehs,, haha.. hmm takaz wor.. nnn may u all last =))
-theres too much question... but some i dun have to noe the ans..cox its better to be left UNSPOKEN``
-a LonEr might noT be bad,, at least he does wat HE wants``
alone
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Monday, March 27, 2006
sHe me sHii Kuaii le?.. haO cHen ji?,, beii aii bei teNg?.. peNg yoU??,, jia reN?.. daNg qUaN faNg biaN dOu qU de PinG heNg jiU jiaO zHuO Kuaii Le maHs?..
sHii baii?,, zHen de Shii cHeN gOng de daO lU ma?..
todae is jux a very very normal dae.. SLACK at home.. STUDY nNn SLEEP.. lols.. wo duNno wat to blog,, iM tiiRed..haha.. wO haO leii aRhs.. meii tian STUDY,,mei tian duo you ya li.. hahas.. but thats LIFE..i haf to go through it.. haha =))
pang wang kao wan shi hou de ri zi,, dan hui xiang lian ci ke de mei hao.. hahas.. wei lai shi wei zhi shu de...wo de ming tian shi fou jiang can lan hai shi yin an,, you shui hui dong.. haha..
-sOmetHinGs i Jux dUn wisH tOo maKe cLeaR,, maYbe reMaiiNing uNcLeaR is Da bEsT``
-dEng Na tiiaN daO lii wO zi RaN huii MinG baii``
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
haven been BLOGGIN.. hhaas.. im jux being LAZY hahas =))
okiies... went for ANDREW's bbq yest.. hahas.. but BEFORE that went out with fishiie to BUGIS.. we rotted there for 4-5hrs.. haha went searchin for andrew's present.. ahaha.. i simply love e pillow i get fer him haha =)) after that went to meet francis nn pals den we headed to 755..hahas.. played bball nNn makan lols .. hahas..
joeson they all took water nn SPRAY..haha diiao.. i got wet too =)) haha its fun lars..lol.. hmm went home at 1++..haha den zzz all da way till 9 this morning.. STUDY till 11+ den zzz again till 3+ den went to meet mummii at ORCHARD.. lols
haha.. i bought the BAG i want.. ORANGEE =)) hahas..mummi bought a ORANGEE polo tee fer mii too,.. hahas.. i simply love ORANGE n BLACK hahas..
-nEver mAke sOmeOne ya PrioriTy wheN theY onLy mAde uUu an OpTiOn``
-tHe fEeLinG weiiRd,,buT iM noT bRaVe eNuF to fInd oUt thaT fEeLin``
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
CLOSE?..
wats that.. appearance nNn inner.. lols
im alwaes with u all.. but i sense no closeness like im with them?..
i felt distance.. not part of u all.. i tried to blend in.. but its hard..
maybe im destined to be alone?.. haha who knows.. but thnks GOD
thnk for lettin mi have e chance to noe u all.. haha cox i noe even if distance.. u guys care =))
-actualli i miss it.. wo hao xiang lian na zhong bei ai bei teng de gan jue,, dang wo kan dao my sister together with their dar so close.. wo ye xiang you yi ge stead.. haha..sae onli.. but when will i met one.. haha.. zui jing de wo,, kan shang de,, you hao gan de ren hao xiang dou bu shi bei zhan tong de...hahas.. you xie is not my taste last time but now.. lol.. wo xi huan de dou bu hui xi huan wo de ba.. hahas =X
*bei ai hai shi ai ren--
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
hmm.. few daes didnt update.. lols.. BBALL todae.. fun nn tirin.. hahas =))
leadin a super duper sloppy life.. dun seem to bother much.. lol.. wat the hack am i thinkin... haha RUBBISH.. kies.. tml havin heats.. oMg..wat should i do.. haiis.. im afraid of cork ups.. haha lols..
zhen zhen de ai shi she me gan jue?... shi she me shi hou..? cuo guo le ni yi hou wo bu zai dong wo shi zai wan hai shi ai shang.. wo bu si xin.. wo bu xin zhao bu dao bi ni gen hao de ren.. wo bu xin zhi you ni cai neng rang wo zhen zhen de kai xin.. wo xiang ba dui ni de ai bian chen yi zhong hen..ke shi wei she me its like so hard.. lol..wo bu dong ni hao bu hao.. zhi xi wang ni shi xin fu de =))
sisters:.. wo gan dao insecure.. bu zai gan open up.?.. i dunno.. er er.. zhi xiang dui ni men shuo de shi.. ru guo wo bu dong ni men de shi qing.. or ni men bu xiang dui wo shuo.. its okies..zhi xi wang ni men shi kuai le de.. yupp nn fang ji de bu yao rang wo hui dao ccong qian.. .. yin wei wo bu xi huan na ge wo.. dui wo you anithings jux sae out ba.. bu yao qu xiang wo de gan shou.. nnn i noe sometimes the way i handle things u all dun like..zhi ke yi shuo pai sehs..
zhiyong: kor dui bu qi.. yin wei dui zhi ji de qi shi er rang ni gan dao bu kai xin.. sorri... but i nv gib up on moiself.. nNn.. xie xie ni na me teng wo.. xie xie ni wei wo zhe ge mei mei fu chu de.. thnks.. *remember our promise*
jian wen: kor kor.. wo hao xiang ni.. haha.. still remember e last time we saw each other.. when u ask mi to go home earlier nn study hard.. my heart melts.. haha tu ran hao xiang bao zhu ni den call u kor.. kor.. hao hao de zhao gu zi ji.. yao kuai le wor..i'll alwaes be here fer uu
wei jie: kor.. wo hao jiu bu jian ni le.. mei yi ci xiang he ni chu men shi.. ni dou mei you kong.. everytime i wanna chat with u.. u seem so busi.. im lost with your footsteps.. kor ni zou tai kuai le..wo gen bu shang.. wo gan dao hen yao yuan.. kor kor i got so much to tell u.. but it seem so hard to sae out.. aniwaes kor.. ni yao kai xin. nn lead ya life well.. hhaas.. *ji de wo men de nuo yan wor.. yi bei zi de*
-yi ju jian dan de hua jiu ke yi da dong yi ge ren de xin``
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
hMm..bbaLL todae lols.. haha
wo tao yan xian zai de wo.. wo hen si xian zai de wo.. bian bian bian.. haiis wei she me?
i told yu wen: wo hao xiang play flirt wor.. hao xiang like someone easily.. zhi shao i wont miss you.. i wont be hurt.. thats is partly why i accepted u.but if stead le den i wont like other ppl...but unexpected lol.. hahas..suan le..
let it be how others think as long as im happi.. it doesnt matter to mi animore..on e brink of givin up myself.. lol..
jie im sorri fer being harsh.. but im jux saein out wat i feell..maybe u were once e key to my heart but now u arent.. that time im serious.. dou shuo le.. i will like someone easily but if stead le im serious de.. that time mi zhen de hope dat u are someone who can replace him.. but too bad jux becox of one mistake.. lol.. dun gib up on yaself.. she is there alwaes without fail by your side
i believe with her help u can find back yaself de..
*ive been findin subs fer u..sincerely hopin that from them i can find the same feelin im with u.. but everytime i think of uu .. i noe..no matter wats goona happen.. i noe no matter who im with next time.. memories of u.. ill keep them deep inside.. ill nv let them be erased..cox u were e first to touch my heart deeply*
*saw your nick.. i noe u are happi now.. glad fer u..somehow though we dun seem like frens..i hope that through ways i could noe wats goin on in ya life nNn care fer u*
-`zai ye bu ren shi wo le,, siao shi,,*
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
hmm.. i dunno wat to sae.. feelin abit unbalanced todae.. wtf.. im tiired..
i feel the change in mii.. i hate vulgarities in the past BUT now.. i scoldin it like normal.. OH mY GoSh.. wat had happen.. rebellion?...maybe i am...but definitely im stress.. haha
im like so RESTLESS..lookin fragile.. haha..maybe due to lack of slp?.. i dunno why i feel hard.. hard to open up to u all..i feel scare..i feel as though im alone..so alone..depression back in my life again?..i know i din fall hard.. i noe the hurt he gave was not deep..but somehow.. its a new scar to mii.. rang wo zhong sheng nan wang,, lol.. hmmm,,,
jing guo zhe xie shi... i learnt not to trust so easily...nn at the least dou le yi da quan wo fa xian wo ai de ren shi zhong shi ni ba??.. haii.. ci xin jue dui..
came across a new song by pan jia le.. kelly: [ai wu li].. cried upon hearin this song... tu ran xiang dao le guo qu ba.. haha but wats e point.. haha..wo de xin you ge di fang yi bei zi shu yu nii..*a promise i made on 110504* it will be kept...
*zhuo hui peng you de qing ren , bai tuo guan xi bu tai rong yi*
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
its has been a long time since i blogged rite.. hahas.. er er.. shi qing lai lai qu qu... wo hao leii..
wei she me yao betray wo.. dang ni dong ni hui shi qu wo shi.. why u still chose to do it..truely speakin... im not angry with u... i forgave u ler... cox wo shen qi also cant rewrite the past ma.. wats done is done.. but im disappointed.. im sad.. cox dang wo feel that i wan to fu chu in this relationship,, u let mi down.. u smashed our dreams..wo hai neng shuo she me.. i condemned uu.. yup..cox u made a grave mistakes..ni dong ma.. u hurt mi.. zhen de.. wo de xin hen tong when i knew it.. i cried..i had nv think that u would do that.. but its a fact.. i cant choose not to believe..i dunno how to face u todae,, wo ba ni dang peng you...zhui mo shen de peng you ma?.. wo dui ni shi wang.. wo dui ni gan dao jue wang.. ni hui you ban fa rang wo regain the trust ma.. lol.. wo jue de hen nan,,mei you ren xiang ni yi yang zhe me shang hai wo.. hurt mi through the way i hated most.. aniway.. its e past.. jux let it be..
jie.. u very fortunate do u know that... ni you yi ge na me ai ni de ren.. she is willin to be fooled by u.. to acc u through ya hard times.. believin that one dae u would return to her side.. u would realised her existance.. treasure her well.. cox if u lose her.. i believe that will be ya greatest regret.. jie i believe that she can bring the old u back...i condemned u.. juz like u condemned her.. but boii.. she realli worth another chance..
*wo gan jue dao tong.. xin xiang bei zhen chai le yi xia*
*unexpected.. GaMe OveR*
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