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Thursday, April 27, 2006

HAPPI BIRTHDAE TO UUU.. yuwen hahas =)) sweeet SIXTEEN

okies.. im gettin on with my LIFE.. haha moodless,, siian.. without ani TARGET haas
meet eke nn qiao after sch.. eke went home first.mi n qiao cont to study till 7 plus.. hahas..

my teacher was rite.. i remembered her saein, ''its not that the joke was funny.. the reason why others was laughin nn u arent is that others look life from a positive view'' sometimes i WONDER why i kept complainin abt myself,, my life.. why i couldnt SMILE as carefree as others.. haha.. maybe becox i look life at a VERY negative point of view.. hahas

baby,,
i noe its there,,its gettin deeper
somehow i just have to refrain myself
baby,, will u ever noe =(

haha.. liked this song by jun jie *ni yao de bu shi wo*
ni yao de bu shi wo
xin shui de shi qu lu lou
chen jin gei ni de gan dong
zhi shi qing xu de bo dong
neng gei de bu shi wo
fang ren ni chen rou zhi you
yan shi bu liao wo de ben zhuo
jiu lian shuo hua dou hui chan dou
wo bei yi wang zai ni yi wang de jiao luo

[i wasnt the one u want..nn i can nv be that gal in ya life,,hearts shattered hearts broken.. i cant gib eu wat eu wanted,, will i ever become ya memories]

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

TOO much JUZ too much fer mi to HANDLE,, its HEAVY.. i wasnt that STRONG to carry THEM..so many ATTACKS at one shot..im SHOT-DEAD hahas =((

its so PAINFUL.. but at least i noe..eu arent my LI XIANG QING REN but yet i love eu... its amazing how eu were able to touched my heart nn replace HIM.... SO WAT.. im never the one eu want.. u treated mi like a SISTER..wat more can i sae.. keeppin it to myself.. =)

i tried so hard to smile when i saw EU.. cox i noe eu dun wan to see mi sad.. aniwae thnks fer showin that CARE in ya eyes.. somehow that type of eye contact hurts mi.. but seriously i like it.. my tears feel like flowin down whenever i think of eu.. but i noe i MUST be strong.. i cant let anithing PULL mi down.. sweetie.. my heart is with u still..

i gettin so pek che..eke asked mi todae 'darlin dunch you think that eu have been havin moodswings since that DAE?'

i replied, ''did i ?.. im NOT.. hahas'' i was jux tryin to let it off.. sweetie pie.. eke darlin u can see through mi.. im sorri if my mood makes eu DU LAN.. i tried so much to laugh it off.. but sometime i jux dun wan to smile animore.. im SORRI darlings..

qiao: im sorri if i was SOMEHOW harsh.. sorri =)

* exams comin so SOON..im some kind of AFRAID but i feel no MOTIVATION in mi.. haha.. eu are my motivation.. but myself is my GREATEST motivation.. somehow i wasnt able to motivate myself haha,, i must force it INN INN INN*

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Monday, April 24, 2006

im DEAD BEAT..

once again i make myself CLEAR,, i DUN NEED ANIONE to judge mi

so WAT if im FAKE

so WAT if im a BITCH

a LOOSE bitch

i LIVE my life the WAY i want..

DUN stand in MY WAY if i DIDNT stand in URs..

FUCK OFF =)) leave mi alone..*gettin vulgar but who cares*

meet EKE,,QIIAO nn DARREN this afternoon nn we went STUDYIN.. qiiao went back first.. i wasnt FINE at all.. BROKE down twice..im JUZ so FUCKIN HELL TIRED n AFRAID...kor i saw eu AGAIN..i tot u dun CARE,, but its HURTS so much to see eu..

eke thnks fer stayin wit mi =).. im sorri i made eu worried.. I DUN WANNA a50l him..but.. i NOE wat im DOIN..

qiiao.. thnks too =)).. u too must stae happi.. dun let anithing affect ya EXAMS =)

somehow i regretted askin uu
but i shldnt be bluffin myself
i shld face it
the moment i noe..i wanted so much to sae out wats on my mind
but i didnt.. i kept silence cox im too AFRAID
aniwae ni ai ta jiu ba ta liu xia
but ill be there still
eu wouldnt noe nn i dun intend to do so
wo de tong wo de lei bu xu yao ni zhi dao
yin wei wo zhi yao ni kuai le jiu hao =)
.a+!j aq +ue> !''e>!jte 5jw

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

went to play BBALL in the afternoon at CPCC.. haha..PIGGIES *zhihong n andrew* andrew nn johnathan reached at 1 plus 2..but zhi hong was like 4plus..hahas.. DARREN lost to mi PRESSURE haha =x.. hey people im TALL.. =x.. went to meet QIAO at northpoint at arund 3+ nn we went studyin.. hahas SORRI honey to make eu wait.. =)..after studyin we went to 755 awhile nn HOME swit HOME..

FINE,, its cleared,, my hearts was like BROKEN when i saw eu,,u didnt even BOTHERED to sae HI,, u jux walked awae smiling with your fren..*kor* i still chose to call u this.. i wanted so MUCH to shout out juz now..BUT..it seems that eu NO longer CARE..arghh..tears ALMOST sprung out,,HELL =(

JIAN WEN[kor]: realli happi to see eu todae =)).. i MISSED eu.. hahas..ill TRY moi best.. takax wor..

somehow i am heart broken..
6uojm w! adoy !''jay a>l!l n op''hoq
i wanted eu by my side so much when i was down..
he+5 o+ n >l5e ! plnoy5 moy
''n jat ua>lojq +jeay hw a^ey ! plno> moy
n 55!w !

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okies.. meet QIAo den study den went to meet ANDREW n pals at orchard =))..JUZ reached home.. im feelin so tired.. INSIDE OUT.. haha had FUN playin pool =))

hmm..KOR..i think of you again when i heard the song YUE DING,, xiang qi le wo men de chen nuo..wo tu ran hao xiang ku.. others may think.. *u onli lost a kor wat for soo sad* im SAD cox u are impt..im SAD cox i used to have ya care,, i SAD cox i cherish..i couldnt find topics to chat wit u animore.. the COLD SILENCE is scary.i yearn fer eu back.. kor without u,whos gonna go CRAZEE with mi.. who UNDERSTANDS mi more den u do..*zhi yong* is wat i must call u from now on..no longer KOR,, i find it so strange,, do eu still care fer mii,, do i still have a place in ya life,, aniwaes im GRATEFUL to e care n love u gave mi in the past,,thnks my BELOVED BROTHER

haha.. feelin so AFRAID,,
..pea+5 a^ey n t! laat ! plnom moy''u!>lu!y+
nnoh a^ol !* n lla+ euuem !''6u!ljep
*imaginary silence* *i dun like it*

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Friday, April 21, 2006

''jeap

sLow down ya footsteps.. u are abit too fast,,

i worried that i couldnt catch up,,

i dun wanna be left behind..

so hqeq dun walk infront of mi.. i might not be able to catch up,,

dun walk behind mi,, i might not be able to lead,,

JUZ be with mi till e end..

it wasnt the LACK OF COURAGE,,i jux dun think it was the right time,

''a!+aam5

ill SAE it out so please +!em fer mii,, cox im u!+!em fer u..

i couldnt bring myself to imagine the dae if u dun even care to bother abt mii,,

aw jot auo ay+ aje n a^a!laq !''hqeq

let this be perharps..im contented cox ! x+jeay u sOo =)

hmm..gurliie,, i noe eu are veri important to him NOW,, he was once my beloved KOR,,but now i handed him over to YOUU cox he let mi goo,, sweetie.. please TAKAX of him.. sorri fer being rude or sounding BITCHY.. *dun ever let mi see him sad or cry over youu,, i wont let u OFF,, i dunno how,,but trust mi..ill make eu suffer cox he is my kor.. even though im no longer his meii he remains as my kor alwaes,, so WEI JIE JIANWEN NNN ZHI YONG welfares comes before anithing* darling please dote on him like how he dotes on YOUU.. thnks u =))

i still chose to call u kor.. not directly to uu but in my heart. KOR,i tot i could take it lightly,,i tot i wouldnt cry,, but the fact is im missing u,, i still want u,, u are impt to mi. my heart hurts so much when i recalled back on the memories.. YUP i noe they are the past.. i noe eu WOULDNT want mi to be stucked here..iLL move on.. cox u are GONE. i nv tried askin eu to stae cox i noe u wouldnt nn i dun like askin people to stae but deariie..iLL promise to be there fer uu when u needs mii. *i want to stick with u,, i want to behave like a kidd infront of u* but i noe its NO longer possible.. kor my heart never changes.. i still hearts youu but u dun wan MEI le..

okies.. a tiring dae indeed.. wat so eva.. im not happi,, my tears went dripping down again,, YUPP fer YOUU,, went to meet QIAO at 1++ den went studyin at mac.. haha.. RYANN n EKE came.. hmm nn we studied MATHS =)) hmm ended our REVISION at six plus.. mi n eke headed down to BISHAN to get my shoes but in the end.. haha.. we took NEOS =p went back at ten plus..

QIIAO HONEY: cheerup.. time is needed nn i believe he understands.. hmm.. he loves u more den her so he is with u =)

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Thursday, April 20, 2006

-i DiDnT CRY,,although i nearly did-

-it was so damn hurting,,once my KOR now..haiis

``u will alwaes be my mei,,i will nv let u go`` thats wad wat u promised mi.. but now..i kept those promises,,i trusted u.. but now,,wo bu she de..i cant bear to let go but i noe u wouldnt stae

my fault partly fer this outcome.the drastic change in mi made u STRESS,,im sorri

i noe she would mean so much more den i do now,,

let her replace mi to be ya listening ear,,let her replace mi to smile wit u to joke around with u,,let her replace mi to bring happiness nn joy to ya world..

*the tears we shed,, the daes we had* kor..ill kept them in my heart,,i noe i shouldnt be callin u kor now..but i jux couldnt get used to it,, the pain when i saw u..u saw mi nn u nv tok to mi..the split sec we became stranger..

*xin li zhun bei* i expected the unexpected =p.. but it still hurts.. im still sad.. i will still care..nn i still be by ya side when ya need mi,, my heart still welcums u back anitime

-PLEASE do takax of yaself..nn ill be fine..ill be strong-

hmm meet QIAO after sch nn we went sturdin at MAC =)) eke came to find us after watchin her match ..wasnt realli feelin alrite,,things he said ran through my mind..but thanks QIAO,,we went home at 8+ hahas =))

im feelin tired,, sometime it hinders mi.. WHY when i learn to treasure someone..that person will leave mi at e end..sometime it hinders mi..are both of your foorsteps too fast or am i too slow..ill SMILE like i alwaes do.. i wouldnt LET anithing affect mii,,*suppressed*

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Monday, April 17, 2006

went to meet E''ke lao po at mac..*freezin*.. ZHI HONG: im soo SORRY..duii bu qii =(..nn u played the guitar well =))..hmm study till 7++ den went under block.. GUITAR=)) hahas.. den HOME swit HOME

o6 6u!ffal to >lu!jq ayf uo w!''paj!f n fuaje'jo>l
''ajow!ue n aou of waa5 unp !''!w of ja6uejf5 e >lhl waa5 n
''ua>lojq 5fjeay

i love the way u make mi feel
i love the way u look at miie
i love the way i think *misconception*
everybits of u i love them dearly,,
feyf noh lle> ue> ! fep adoy''jeap

*ni na me ai ta,, wei she me bu pa ta liu xia,,wei she me bu shuo xin li hua*
oo6 fal of jeaq unp noh t! hef5 of jay >l5e

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

*6out uay u!x*

went for bball in tha morning nNn they BOMBED us except for hanming nnn shi jun =))..okiies meet andrew nn pals during even nNn we went for MOVIE =))..*black nite*.. i was kinda afraid [au!t 5! 6u!ythja^a ap!5 hw hq noh t!m] nnn home after that..tears flow on my way home..im gettin DEPRESSED =(

6en6 6uay>: i saw u.. i dunno how to react.. GRUDGES stae dont they?..weird stares..dampen moods..the sight of u reminds mi of >!ja..GOSH..get alive..im HAPPI till i saw u..im LOSIN control..arghh..

''jeal> 5t!
"teyt aw llat ot auohue paau unp
w!y 5tjeay !
w!y jot t!em ll!
"auo ayt tou w! t! ua^a
m!y t!m aq ot !w jot papaau 5! al>aj!w aou !
uaddey tuom 5!al>aj!w pue
hddey aq ot noh 5! tuem ! lle
mou aje am tem tou> ot 5! tuam ! lle
hlleuo5jad noy llat ot tnua a^ejq tou w!
mou>l noh ajn5 w!
tual!5 het5 ll! tnq
((= !h uayz 6uem majpue !!e om

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im jux LAZII to blog =P.. hahas..

iN sHorT..went to TOWN yest nn the dae before yest..hahas with ryan qiao nn eke..my hONEY qiiao nn DARLIN eke is so PRETTY =)).. went round searchin for HEELS but didnt get ani..haha =((..GREAT DAE PEEPs..LIU JIE YING !!! i gib qiao mian zi so dun chao wit u !! haha u IDIOT..arGhh haha =x

okies.. went out in the afternoon after doin my household chores =X *im such a GOODIE little gurlie* haha..meet QIAO nn we went to STUDY =)) done 3 chp of notes fer CHEM *thumbsup* after that we went fer afew games of bball den slack at mac..haha..went to find majpue at safra =))..played awhile..den went home le =))

*a thousands nn millions of words in moii heart,,im findin hard to express them all out
*i wanted so much to lat hon >uom..it affects mi..but !w rn5 uot qje^a enough
*wh yaejt ynjt5,, qeqh,,monlp hon a^aj yolp wh yeup eup te>a w! m!t yon
*qa>o5 ot hon,,! laejn to dleh ou tya 5eta 5!pa*

-pejl!u6 ! wi55 hon-

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Monday, April 10, 2006

hmm...

`tell mi im WRONG,,
`tell mi that our PROMISES still holds,,
`kOr,,tell mi that eu STILL care,,
`tell mi that im STILL ya beloved meii,,
`tell mi that eu would be THERE when i need ya,,
`kor i aint USED to daes without ur care,,
`kor i miss the PAST,,daes where we COULD share our laughters n sorrows
`i HATE the silence between US =(
`i want BACK my kor

okies..went for detention nn MR TAN let us goo early =)) *cheers* went to BUBBLE TEA shop nn chatted with auntie since its still early for mi to meet QIAO..hahas..hmm went to cc to meet QIAO..studies =))..eke came later..gurllie cheerup,,nn takax wor =)) after that went to play bball =))..hmm laughters were heard from my heart =)..walk my way home SLOWLY,,arghhs cox im TIRED..haha..hmm i saw kor at cc todae but AWKWARD SILENCE was wat i can use to describe the atmosphere between mi n him..HECKCARE is the only word i can used to describe e way he treat mi..kor it HURTS,,im TIRED,,i jux dunno wat to do

*ai shang wei lai de ni.. if that verse was realli fer mi yest,, i've melted-
*yong yan shen shuo wo pa wo hui ting cuo,, i dun trust moi instinct but i hope its true-
*i noe U knew ba,,if ya realli do..tell mi,,baby DUN make my heart break into two,,make clear now or let it be,but i thnks fer not AVOIDING mi-

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

hMm..meet QIAO todae nn we wnt to ORCHARD..went to see AND1 2on2..nNn eke's team got FIRST =)) conGraTs =)..hmm mi n QIAO went around walkin..tried a shirt in CINE..*nice* nNn a dress in HEEREN..*qiao look like a PRINCESS in it =))*

wanna watch ICE AGE with eke together de..but she wasnt able to make it so mii n qiao went to watch it..nn we met E'ke after the movie.. hmm went to YOSHINOYA with andrew they all too..nNn..*paiisehz,,hahas*

went back with qiiao first nnn meet eke at ocbc =)) den we went funland awhile..nNn HOME swiit HOME =))

*rEfLecTioN,,iTs PeRfeCt,,fLawLess
*iT Jux sHows tHe aPpeArAncE
*i LiVe mY liFe e WAY i waN,
*i HaTe FaTe tO fOoL wiTh mii =(

-got a feelin u knew it,,an imaginary silence between us,,its da e way it supposed to be-
-moi choice,,nn i wont REGRET,,i hope i can =)

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Friday, April 07, 2006

haiis..

i DUN like it,,it HURTS,,
wat CAN i sae,,its NOT goin to
MAKE anii DIFFERENCE,
mean NO harm,,realli
i EXPECTED e outcum,,
i shall JUZ remain SPEECHLESS..

okiies.. late fer sch todae... wakaka.. actualli dun wanna go de butt.. WENT in the end..nNn kena DETENTION,,goin fer it on MONDAE =x..EZ link confiscated.. haiis..after sch went home den went to STADIUM.. took a CAB there.nNn the driver asked, 'xiao meii u this year takin PSLE ar?' i was like stunned -__-..haha..after that went to meet QIAO nn E'KE.. hmm went to acc E'ke makan at KFC den we took pics..after that RYAN nn QIAO went home.. mi n E'KE went to play bball. den she go 111... i go 761..hahas

HOME swit HOME at abt 10 plus =x

-it gettin stronger,,but i noe i shld not fall in,,but somehow i hope i can be the MRS AFRICA =p
-heartsyoo,theaceonmymind =))

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Thursday, April 06, 2006

HeHes =P
met QIAO after chem.. hmmm.. ryan nn sanji came along..went LJS to makan.. nn we saw bert.. we were like slackin in there.. haha RYAN LIU JIE YING: STOP bullyin MII..haha =x
hmmm...andrew came to find us..haha see us draw..slack lol =)) den they went to FUNLAND..leavin qiao e'ke nn mi at LJS..haha we took PICS =))..after that went cc play bball awhile..=))

kor [zhiyong]: saw u todae at cc.. played bball with u.. hmmm.. you zhong shuo bu chu de gan shou zai ni wo de yan zhong...i dun like this type of MO SHENG,,i miss e past when we used to be able to tok abt everything...but wats now..im jux left wit BITS nn PICES of memories from everywhere..haiis..kor u sae before will alwaes protect mi till i found my LOVE de..can i have ur care nn my zhen ming tian zi at e same time..haiis.. *does our promise still holds*

-wo hai ji de wo men de yue ding,
-yi bei zi xin fu de yue ding,,
-weii ni xiie de na shou ge,,
-ta ye tou tou de diiao leii le..
-ni hui ji de wo men de yue ding,,
-wo bi yi qian hai gen ai ni le,,
-lian na feng ye siao wo le,,
-wo xiang ta hui gao shu ni de,, wo gen ai ni le.. =))

-im missing u,, my MR africa,,can u sense it? hearts ya though i noe i might not be da one``
-ZHEN YIII`

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

-eHh eHh-

hahas.. went to syl hse awhile den went buy BUBBLE TEA den i went NP meet qiiao.. hahas =))
im EARLY todaes hees =x..hmm went to CC nn STUDY..haha we realli did wor =)) *claps*
hahas hmm E'ke nNn syl came to look for us hees =) hMM intended to play bball but it RAIN.. wth =((

hmm soo went NP with e'ke nNn HOME swit HOME..hahas..haiis im SADD..kinda worriied abt moi grades..im workin HARD now..but why i cant see PROGRESS..im TRYIN.. arghh GOD,, i NEED wisdom =x

kor[zhi yong]: totally speechless..im NUMBED..i dunno wat to reply.. maybe i changed..im tryin to close e dist but i seem to be one e SAME spot..kor..tirring i am..let mi NOE if ya wanna let go,,maybe im NO longer that MEII MEII you treasures..*take claiiree*

-my ACE,,im missin uu DEEP DOWN moii heart,, iTs STRONGER-
-mr AFRICA,,i MISS ya..hahas..but its SILENCE..hearts u-

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

hMmm

DRENCHED..haha =x.. such a BIGG rain todae,, walked to NP to meet qiiao..hahas.. she one PRETTY piie =))..hmm went to have our DINNER at foodcourt den went walk walk.. saw eke.. and she came along wit us.. =)) went studyin at STARBUCKS =))..hmm chattin too =))..ryan came to find us after that...

kor[zhiyong]... im tired chasin after u,, im tired followin your footsteps,,i treasure uu but i dunno wat i shld do,, ii care but i dunno how i shld go abt showin uu,,seeing uu alone i wanted to acc u but i dunno how to open my mouth to ask u,, kor i wanna see u smile like u used to.. i wanna hear the laughters i once heard from u,, i wan to hear u sae u care like u alwaes do..
TELL mii how to be a good sister,, TELL mi wats wrong between mi n u,, *im wrong?*,, *my over-sensitive?*

`a long time since i last walked in the rain,,
i love the feelin,, i love the rain,,
cox no one can see the tears i shed,,
cox the rain covers up my sadness,, my weariness..
smiling..it jux a mask showin people that eu are happi,
a mask to tell others that uu are strong,,
a smile from e bottom of the heart is hard to get,,
but onli that smile can brighten up the dae =)

~uUu are the ACE in moi hearts ("v")
~hopin that one DAE u would find my blog~ =))

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Monday, April 03, 2006

hmMm..went home after oral..

a PERFECTLY borin dae

sLeeP,, sTuDy,, eaT..hahas

nNn NOW..updatin.. hahas =))

`ii noe i wan,, but.. i noe i caNt-

scram

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

hmm..

yesterdae.. went to meet QIAO HUI at ocbc den went to cutt haiir hahas.. after that we went to laze around NP nNN we went bISHAN after that.. haha..walk walk chat chat.. went back to yishun nn had our DINNER at ljs.. haha nv tot of being good fren wit qh.. hahas =))..hmm RYANN came to find us after that.. lol.. he bought N70.. idiot him keep on HAO LIAN.. haa =x
went HOME at around 10++.. haha tiirin..haha =)).. qiao hui is SOO chiio =p

todae... wakiie up at 11 plus.. haha =x.. den sent kor kor to tuas.. lol he goin TAI WAN.. omg i MISS u.. hahas.. he will onli be BACK on 24th april.. ahah.after that went to ahyi de jia.. haha laze there NNn study moii SS..after that went to CHINATOWN..walk walk lor.. den BACK home.. *phew* tired

kor [zhiyong]: ni jiao wo bu yao guan ni... how to??...u are my kor.. how can i dun care abt u.. how can i jux leave u alone..wei le bu yao wo qu zai hu ni.. u sae u dun be my kor lor.. HEY.. it HURTS... its tiring...i noe i noe u arent feelin alrite..i noe u are UPSET..im juz tryin to console u.. im juz tryin to cheer you up..i juz wanna see ya smile..i dunno wat to sae..i dunno how to face ya sometimes..kor..we arent like that in da past.. we used to be able to talk abt everithin UNDER DA SUN..nnn i miss those time.. we dun noe where the prob lies..but i hope that one dae we'll be fine.*i treasure* unless u sae i dun worth to be ya mei..unless u sae ni she de fang kai wo..

-iTs clear,, i NOE,, but i SHALL remain SILENT =x

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