Thursday, June 29, 2006
okay haven been updating for quite some time haha =)
my blog is ROTTING.
just had my o level oral today can
and i was like SHIT MY ULCERS la
sigh.
okay the examiner was friendly.
hopefully i did well.
PLEASE DADDY !!!
what the fcuk!!!.
i feeling so damn sleepy can.
i can actually dose of and didnt realise that ive dozed off.
how much more STUPID can i be.
what ever .
nothing gonna affect me. and i mean it nothing
its time just to concentrate on my work than letting other stuffs overwhelmed me.
memories are just for me to look back
no matter how much i wanted everything to restart
i know it cant.
so why not just look forward and carry on.
i still cry, i still miss,
but thats not going to restrict me from flying higher.
ill let go. someday somehow.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Monday, June 26, 2006
BYE BYE TO MY BROWN HAIR
shucks.. i seriously hate my BLACK hair la..
i look like a freak.. woohoo.
okay SCHOOL today.. sighs sighs
MONDAY BLUES
im so not ready haha !!!
trixie trixie STOP SLACKING !!! haha
UNPREDICTABLE..
i dont know what your attitude means.
i hope things wont get worst
i miss holidays..time we shared.
i wont be like the past, going back on my pride
even if i really want the thing back.
im too afraid to bring down my pride.
it doesnt matter.
do i still treat you like my qing ren?
im so afraid
i so hope that its all fake
i dont want to see her being blinded.
shes my dearest mum
although she is unreasonable and i love to make her angry.
but she done so much for us.
its time for me to be oblivious again.. haha =))
-out of my mind, out of my life, love me hate me let me be me-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Sunday, June 25, 2006
CONGRATS AH SIONG KOR KOR
may you and your wife have a child soon haha =)
er er er..
jie jie thank you for making me realise so many things
thank you.
i dont know if i should say
i dare not take the risk
what if you break down
what if you cant take it
what if i misunderstood him
what if its just my oversuspicion.
DADDY,
tell me what should i do
kor has given up on the family already
tell me tell me
what should i do
in your name
AMEN.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Saturday, June 24, 2006
woohoo
went for the BHI interview..
whatever la..
i want it too can but the makeup thing was like arghh
fcuk la 550 dollars can
installment is like 250 dollars every two weeks?..
where to find money.. rob bank.. haha
shit shit.. lala
DADDY tell me what plans you have can?...haha
okay meet up with erjie
arghh I LOVE YOU
woohoo
we went SHOPPING.. haha
yea..MANGO SALE
the off shoulder i wanted dont have size for black colour..
IDIOT can.only got L.. dott =)
okays.. didnt get any tops la..
got myself a mascara, pluck my eyebrow at hollywood secrets, some things for the inner.. haha
spent like 30 over near 40 la..HEARTPAIN.
er jie cheerup okay?...loves blessed
er MADELEINE. you dont have to shout my name in PUBLIC
i was like a retard trying to figure out who shouted my name la.. haha
so embarrassing can !!! haha
oh ya.. take good care of yourselve huh..
get well soon.
chatted with my beloved kor on the phone yest.
so d753. haha
8 j8ww 5y3j.
d9j3 gqdi !!.
oh ya.. im still awaiting for my GUESS wallet.. haha
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
ok..
went out and back home now
sorry liang yi..
i didnt go for your birthday celebration
but anyway HAPPY SIXTEEN .. haha
er sorry okays?..
okay whoever that anoy is
get your ass out
this is my blog
im not imitating madeleine
and even if i am
you are in no position to make any comments
you better not be the SON OF THE BITCH
haha.okay what ever.. i dont care =)
my beloved kor, thanks for that familar concern you showed to me
i really have that feeling to shout kor
hey remember what i said.. the promises still holds.
i welcome you back anytime =)
mei love you.
okay..i looked back on the past post
changes i realised.
no wonder heartbreaking
now i understand.
even tears of disappointment rolled down can.
ill walk home..i promised
okay shit la.. no one believes.. sighs.
-things which are done cannot be undone. i just got to learn to face solve improve-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
la la la..
went to town with jeff and mad
NEOPRINTS
haha.. i love you two la.. haha
okok..
im BROKE
officially broke
i want to change PHONE
nokia 6280, w800 or w810
i like the two sony ericson ones
but i still prefer nokia..
i dont know why..lala whatever
SPONSORS PLEASE haha =P
DADDY,
ive made up my mind
ill wait till my cousins give me the money then ill go for it.
i know its the choice you have for me
i know roads will be better.
i know one step at one time
DADDY,
bring me through all things with your love
bring me to the road of success by giving me determination and wisdom
FATHER, i love you
in your name
AMEN.
its amazing,
i once lost trust in GOD cause he wasnt there.
but i came to realised that when he ended something in our life
be it impt ot not
there will always be better things ahead.
although i may not believe whoel heartedly
but at least i know
everytime i pray
i feel so much more secure.
i envy, i want
i want to be in love
its so sweet,
but i no longer know the feeling of being in love
im stubborn for two years
even if i have stead during that years
i never put my heart in the relationship except the one with 5y9jqw.
but he wasnt able to replace the love i have for 348d.
so i ended up hurting him.
pitiful me, for not knowing the beauty of love
but anyway, it wasnt easy to be in love
to be with the one you truly love
so treasure.
ill treasure the next one.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
its never easy learning to let go
its never easy taking the first step
its never easy trying to fly
its never easy to fall
its never easy learning to forget
"I thought I loved him, but he had to break my heart
for me to know what true love really is."
"Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone."
"It's a horrible thing to see your lost love walk past you
with another girl, and it's the worst thing to know
that you made a mistake in letting him go."
It's a long road when you face the world alone,
when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within your soul,
and the emptiness you felt will disappear."
"I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you.
I was finally accepting you had another girl.
Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."
"Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go."
"I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you.
That sooner or later I would come to believe it. But I now realize that by lying,
it makes me want you even more."
"A distant cry is love lost, but the sound of laughter
is one that'll last forever, whatever that may be."
"You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?"
"You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live;
you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry,
but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you."
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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CHOICES
TEMPTATIONS.
i dont know which to choose
PAY MYSELF or WAIT
DADDY, i pray
please give me an answer alright?
daddy i hate having to choose..
so please
in your name
AMEN.
im being EMO?
i dont know
all i know was
its SUFFOCATING !!
if problems were easy to be thrown aside
i wouldnt be here so helpless
but anyway
ill try to continue being OBLIVIOUS..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE =)
okay. went to finish up the ss project. after that went to meet aunt and wen
woo hoo..
haha we went to northpoint and after that we went to joy house.
its been ages since the three of us sit down and chat
STOP TELLING ME MAPLE IS FUN!!! haha
joy wen trix.. woohoo childhood friends!! haha
after that yuwen came to my house.
and then we went to 734 to find brenda june and fang
shocked when i reached there.
DRUNK people.
shucks.. haha. PLEASE DONT GET YOURSELVES SO DRUNK.
long details. shouldnt type. im lazy.. haha
after everything calm down,
we went to safra.. but i went home.. haha
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Monday, June 19, 2006
when one of the door is closed
DADDY will open another door
when things go wrong
HE will reversed the situation.
DADDY. im here
praying to you
thanking you for answering my pray
though i know i have to wait like till next year??
but i know road will be smoother cause you are here
DADDY but can i still have a little favour from you?
daddy can i not wait so long?.
please. thanks you for everything
AMEN.
ONE house
THREE rooms
ONE person
INCOMPLETE.
i feel no COSINESS
i feel LONLINESS
i feel FEAR
i see TEARS
no one to turn to
no one to listen
im here along
living alone.
okay. laze at home the whole day
running and sleeping
whatever.
im going to GO OUT tomorrow.. haha
i will find my way
i will keep that dream
i will touch the sky
i will shine like i never do
i will make you proud.
i94 8 j8ww 697,ay8 69ht
i j8ww 5y9w3 eq6w.
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i hate to cry
i hate to be sad
everytime i feel like crying
ill do anything to stop the tears.
ill turn into a stranger
i dont want
im tired
tearing me apart
i dont know how to express everything that is in my heart
i dont know how to show it.
how am i supposed to look on the bright side
when things go so wrong
oblivious ??
but how long can i remain to be 'BLIND'
argghh..STOP THE CRAP. GIVE ME A BREAK
DADDY, i pray
i pray for a happy family
i pray for a innocent me
i pray for everything to go the right way
i pray for smiles
i pray for the dreams i have
i ask for forgiveness for the sins ive done
i plead you to dry my tears
i plead you to stop the blood in my heart
FATHER, i couldnt take it. no more
its tearing me into pieces
i have no more confidence
please i beg, stop all the crap that is happening
return me my happiness
daddy in your name,
i beg i pray
AMEN.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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you were the one i dislike
i mean cause of the way you treated me
but you turn out to be the one who dotes on me the most
you understand everything that i say
thank you
jie jie.. i understand everything. thank you
i love you
ill take critisms lightly
ill take stride and fly high
trust me jie jie
ill make my mark.
ill find ways to sponsor myself
ill fly and touch the sky.
oh ya..
DADDY. happy fathers day
i love you. though at times i really hate you
anyway im so disappointed.
was suspossed to have our dinner together
but IN THE END,
sighs..im looking so forward to today's dinner yet it was cancelled
daddy. STOP taking money from kor or mummy
we dont have that much for you.
you dont have to pay for the bills.. you work
but i dont understand why you dont have money
daddy, i keep my mouth shut. pretending that i know nuts
but please, ive grow up, im clear of whats happening
i just dont want to care.
imagine if i say out everything, what would life be.
im tired, im losing faith and love for this family
my heart breaks every time i think of the problem..
everytime i see people having a happy life.
im trying to fulfill my dreams.. but none of you supported me
you all will only say: OKAY GO AHEAD AND LEARN.but pay the fees yourselve.
all you all care was MONEY.
dont tell me its not true.
think of how many times you all quarrel because of MONEY.
i hate MONEY thats why i want to spend every cent i have.
my family tearing apart in silence
mummy, i know your intentions.. i know you blame yourselve for not being able to give me what i want
i know you hope that you have to money to let me go to UAN
i know you are stress.
mummy i have my own ways.. you know me
when i want something and you cant afford
i have my ways to get the thing
so dont be stress.
i love you but i dont know why i like to give you attitude.
im sorry.
kor, would you ever pass by. would you ever know how i feel for this family
i dont like your attitude.
but i know you care
ive been waiting for you, to tell you my plans
but yet you arent there to listen.
im afraid of saying out too
cause im afraid that you would scold
but its my dream. a dream that i want to fulfill since young
ill do it even if you object ba.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
ok.. what ever it is...
meet janetthis morning and we make chocolate..wohoo
janet you are so lousy can.. i help you so much ..haha =)
okay and stop saying im crazy cause i run while listening to some kind of gentle music..haha
you keepon complaining hot.. but i dont feel so..
haha so you are INHUMAN.. la la
my four year buddy.. haha
thanks for tolerating my nonsense for 4 damn yrs..
i love you la.. haha
okay after that..at about six.. i went to northpoint to meet my dear madeleine and jeff
chatted with qiao honey and we saw eke and pals
i missed you guys !!
after that we went to watch whye nam match with tampiness east at SBC
haha and MADELEINE TEOW
you are one BIG sotong
mistaking ERIC LIM from yss as ERIC NG my ex..haha
so funny can..haha
qiao darling...take care of yourselve and drink lots of water
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR NETBALL MARATHON.
loves
okay tampiness west won the match.. but anyway cheerup..
hmm me and madeleine went crazy during the match la
okay whatever..secret..haha
five, eleven, seven. haha
oh ya and madeleine.. pirates of the caribbean.. haha.. i know im bad..shalala
went home after the match haha =)
I SAW MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS
WOO LOVES.. haha
YOU GUYS STILL REMEMBER ME
i missed the good old days.
sigh..my dear gal
you misunderstood what i said
i love performing arts
but im not strong in vocal part
i just simply have more interest in acting
but im not going for acting because i cant sing..
please dont get me wrong
loves anyway =)
you you you, again again again
but alone this time
you didnt see me
i didnt call you
stranger perharps.
i wouldnt ask why aint i the girl.
im just sad cause i used to be the gal.
okay i know i know i know
just let it go let it go.
-when will my prince come. when will someone replace the missing piece,
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Friday, June 16, 2006
hmm..
went town with janet bren june and perlynn
okay. what so ever
oh ya..
i saw you and her
i dont know why i had these feelings
PAIN, TEARS
tears rolled down
i dont have the courage to look at you
i dont know why
the pain ive been suffering for 2 years are back
arghh shit shit
i feel so pain when i saw the happiness both if you shared
i feel so pain when you hold her hands
i feel so pain where the memories flashed back
oh my.. oh gracious
what exactly happen.
i thought i would be dumb
damn it.damn you.
dont let me find out
that i still love you
dont let me find out
that im still waiting
dont let me find out
that ive been deceiving myself all along
dont let me find out
that i missed you
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Thursday, June 15, 2006
its 0957 now and im bloogiing..
went to play basketball with june and zander just now
and the ZANDER is late.. made us wait so long..haha
and we made fun of someone HE BECAME MY BOYFRIEND.
haha =)
okies..whatever it is.. im feeling so tired can
everytime that song played.. my heart break
the wound so fresh, the blood so red
the pain seem so new.. my gracious.. =(
okay whatever its the memories i missed
not the person i want..
BRENDA GAN.. haha..stop singing haha
TORTURE..
me and my neh neh will kill you.. haha
and you BETTER dont be late or else you OWE the addidas jacket..haha =P
sha la la
okies.. for once.. for goodness sake
im ME.. true smiles.
no denying..
argh.. so nice right..
im controlling my vulgarities.. woohoo =)
i missed my RAINE PAIGE MADELEINE
arghh.. haha =)
zhiyong: i saw you i MISSED you.. i still have the urge to shout KOR KOR KOR.i feel like hugging you,
i really missed those days and i still hold on to the promise.
YOU WILL BE MY KOR FOREVER EVEN IF YOU FORSAKE ME,I WILL NEVER GO.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
im FEELING lazy.. timeless
okay whatever shit !! haha
i had a GREAT time with them these days.. haha
hmm i really love the time we shared haha =)
er..i dont know how long good things will last but i hope it will..
okay..i went to revise my work with june in the morning
cool.. haha revised till one plus then we went for lunch
after that me and brenda continued to mug..haha
COLD in the mac..woohoo
saw andrew eke..haha
hmm i haven been hanging out with you guys anymore
i dont know why
the feeling so weird..
argh im FULL..
MADELEINE JOY TEOW MEI FANG
im so JEaLOUSS of you can!!
i WANT it too..but fate isnt doing well for me..haha
anyway ALL THE BEST !!
loves loves
and you are PRETTY too haha..my friend say you are CUTE !!
haha
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Friday, June 09, 2006
hmmm
studying today..met zan in the morning and we studied till three plus with fang wen.. too bad
zan went for tuituion with june.. haha
yup,, i prefer simple life.. study and exercising.
cool right...
meet mummy at seven plus and went for dinner..
oh ya.. mummy maybe you were right..
i dont have to go for doctors
but im just so scared that it would be worst can.
aiya whatever la
i dont know.. its my face can. haha.sigh
WHY WASNT I BORN RICH
the feeling when you got no money to get the things you want
SUCKS can..haha
daddy, i hope what i read isnt true can.
i hope so,, cause its really gonna create war in our family can
before you do anything please think of us.. think of the effort mum put in
think of how you had treated us in the past
dont make our family break again.
i never ask for branded stuffs from you, everytime i asked for a new phone
you dont want to get it for me, i let it go
so daddy im just asking you to spare a thought for us before you do anything please
thank you and i love you.
some people spent all their time waiting
some people spent all their time chasing
some people spent all their time lazing
what did i spend my time on,
is life that wonderful?
do dreams come true?
i had never slow down to think about the wonders of life
perharps i never will until im so close to death?
till now,, i still prefer death
i still prefer BLOOD
it symbolised FREEDOM and JOY to me.
okay whatever.. i know im sadistic..
whether was it in the past or present or future,,
im still that sadistic..
why will i ever learn to be more optimistic..sigh
*friendship is not the duration of time we are together, its all about the memories we share*
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
wooo
movie after school today but before that
zan di di came to my house and ya we chatted
it has been such a long time already can !!
hmm zan, regarding to your question,,
i will consider but i dont think so
cause i still treat him like a kor, a close friend =)
okies catch the CARS at shaw today
and neoprints haha
ARGHH,, my GUESS wallet!! haha
but im so broke now.. i cant spend the money can
its like.. i need it for my FACE. sigh sigh
hmm never mind.. my face is still more important..
after walking around we went back to yishun and i rushed home
meet june at yishun mrt
and we went RUNNING woo
so long never run already..
but i really couldnt run long distance
ahha =))
thanks june for following my pace ahaha
oh ya.. I DO KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF you lazy pig !! haha
i love the feeling after exercising
its like you are REBORN !! haha
i love the life im trying to change now
somehow im able to see the direction
GO ON TRIXIE.. you can do !!
Daddy,, i might not go to church and worship you
i might not read the bible that often
but i know . once i pray you can hear my prayer
daddy cause miracles happen to me before and its you.. you made that miracle
you made things seem right
you always let me see the light after the dark.
Daddy, please guide me through the difficulties im facing now
please bring me home to my soul
amen.
i know i know
girl i understand,, i couldnt rush you for time to accept me back
but im happy with the situation now
we talked and we still laugh and we care
thats enough.. nothing more i could ask for
thank you sweetie =)
mummy, thanks for giving me half the sum of the treatment
ill find my ways to pay the other half cause its my face
i wanted it cured so i cant expect you to pay everything
thanks.
oh ya papa day coming soon right
hmm i know what to get for you daddy !!
haha,, hmm i wanted to tell you have i feel about you
the dreams i have for the both of you
daddy you asked me why i want to make it big in life?
i told you cause i want to have lots of money,
i want popularity, i want my dream
but the main reasons are, i want to pursue my dream
and i want to give the best to the both of you.
i wanted mummy to have everything she want
i wanted her to rest
cause she has been slogging for this family ever since we met some crisis.
dad, i might somehow hate the past you
cause you landed us to this state
the mistakes you made,, mummy help to clean the backside for you
she didnt want to leave you because she wants me and kor to have a completed family
most importantly she loves you.
daddy i dont hate, because yoou dote on me now
though i know in the past you dont really dote on us that much
at least now,, you tried to give us everything we wanted
treat us better to amend for the mistakes
whatever it is.. i cant choose my parents
its fated,, so no matter what happen,,
ill be there for you all not because it is my responsiblity
but its is because I LOVE YOU ALL.
-WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME BLACK OR WHITE-
-I CARED TOO MUCH-
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okies.. went to watch THE OMEN yesterday with fang wen bren and june
okies.. whatever can
i SCREAM and broke into laughters la.. haha =)
haha thnks girl for talking with me yesterday night..
i could talk to you so freely.. thanks =))
okies..im so OBSESSED with sliming and curing my face.
the thought og taking drugs crossed my mind
ICE,, the drug that can make you slim
but it shut down your brain system.
so its off my list.. haha
slimming pills have its side effect and its so expesive.. so does slimming centre..haha
so that shall wait till after my o lvl..
ANNOREXIA AND VIGORUS EXERCISE is the best way out la.. haha..fastest..so i shall consider it haha =)
okies what ever la..
ohya.. boy thank you
you were the one without fail to knock some sense into me
and make me think la
thank you.. you understand what im thinkin and i know ive disappoint you too
you are right
if i chose to go home.. bear all the pain and find my light home
i can if i persist.
thank you
just when i feel like having you back you were gone ..
yup.. indeed somethings are only meant to be reminicise
no matter what you can nv have the ability to take a time machine and go back to the era and redo everything.
live your life to the fullest,, everything gonna be alright.
i remember when you came with me that night
you said forever till whenever
let me go.
im so emo nowaday,,
tears kept dropping without any reason
everytime i heard those songs
everything seem so real,,
everytime i looked back..
i missed them so.
oh my god.. im gonna have depression soon.
DADDY,, i know you are here right?
i might not have total trust in you
but you would definitely bring me through everytime isnt it?
im obessed with witchcraft too
i dont care whatever price i have to pay to find the happiness spell
i would.
i want the spell,, cause i want peace in my family..
so people of you are able to find HAPPINESS SPELL
please help me.. thank you =)
may happiness befall you
i dont know why there are crazy people in msn
trying to know people
and asking others to let him in their heart
WHAT THE FUCK.
i dont even know you
and i dont want to.
get lost.. im NOT forgetting my past relationship
and you are NOT MY TEA..
perharps i will only cheat your money can..
stupid stalker...
*taking one step at one time
im walking fine
but somehow i feel something
missing in my life
i feel incomplete
im still waiting
for that mr right
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Monday, June 05, 2006
i was so lazy to blog haha =)
VODKA with janet and ziying on sat night
had fun chatting
sha la la
hahas,, KEVIN im not DRUNK, dont SCARE me haha
and JANET have fun in malaysia woohoo
had amaths today
sha la la
after that went to CINE to meet amanda and lvy
catched SHES THE MAN
FUNNY MOVIE,HANDSOME GUYS AND PRETTY GIRLS
we loved so much woo hoo
AMANDA, ill think of what you said
ill becareful..no worries =)
loves
im so pissed of nowadays
getting irritated so easily
haha
i wasnt moving on nor going back
im still here
stagnent, confused
how many hopes have i smashed
i know you guys feel sad for me
i know you guys care
but im just being oblivious
weiquan you words knocked sense into me
i know you missed the xiaotian you knew during camp
zan maybe you are right, im taking it out on my life
im making myself fall.. a saddist within me
.[unknown] to whoever you are, i know you said those words as a friend
thanks. im missed the past too.
people NOT only you guys missed the old me
i MISSED the old me too
ive been changing, to someone that i DONT even know
maybe she is gone for good
maybe she was fake all along
maybe none of you know her at all
she dont even know herself
she is not as simple as she seem
but she still trust others.
she listens
she thinks
she knows the right from wrong
but she isnt doing what she thinks
she knows the way she must be
but she isnt doing it too.
she knows everything
she knows that the drastic change would do harm
but she didnt stop it
she wasnt like this in the past
she used to think of others before self
she used to give in
she used to love everyone
she was different
but NOW
she is like an alcoholic bitch
she hates herself more than anyone
she love the dripping of BLOOD
she missed the pain
she is a TOTAL BITCH
beyond cure.
WHATS HAPPENING !!! she doesnt even know
was looking through my diaries
my past post
i was completely different
but i could still feel the happiness i had then
the times when i were with two different guy
the times when i were with you guys
BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES
ENDLESS TEARS
ETCHED IN MY HEART FOREVER
ACCOMPANYING ME THROUGH TIMES OF FEAR
LOVED,MISSED
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Saturday, June 03, 2006
PHYSIC AND CHEM TODAY..
dozing off..sigh sigh
im so tired.
went to ORCHARD with madeleine
my cousin jiawen
woohoo tried gown dress shirt
oww..
that TOPSHOP JEANS
that TOPSHOP shirt
that GUESS wallet
that SANDELS
woo,, haha soo many things i wanted la
i want to WORK
sha la la..
fun today right madeleine.. hahaha..
PICTURES PICTURES
my darling cousin.. the way you speak damn funny
haha madeleine our dirty little secret.. haha
woohoo
come home come home
everyone waiting for you
stop breaking people hope
stop stop stop.
i want a fairy tale ending
happily ever after
i hate depression
i aint happy at all
not abit
i feel like tearing apart
i feel like crying out loud
help help
evry smile i faked
every okay i said
wasnt true.
its so facade
what was i hoping for
what was i chasing after
i cannot see my goal
all i saw was a piece of deserted land
loney, scary, darky
no more sun light
no more laughter
shucks
i feel like drowning myself in alcohol
make myself drunk and forget all things
i feel like dancing
make myself so high and have fun
i feel like cutting myself
making the blood drip ,so beautiful
fcuk.. my tears kept rolling
fears creeping
i dont know why im afraid
i feel so scare
things arent the same
i dont know who to turn to
i missed my kor
zhiyong: beloved kor,, dont say im a different person to you now.. you are also someone i no longer know..
zai ni de xin li.. wo hai shi ni teng de yi ge mei mei mah. ni hai guan xin wo ma.
ANG SIOW THIEN
WILL ONLY GO HOME
WHEN KOR ASK HER TO
SHE WILL ONLY LISTEN TO WEIJIE [kor]!!
kor, i missed you.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
