Friday, July 28, 2006
okays.. donkey monkey haha
im not free to UPDATE.
haha =)
but here i am again =)
went town just now, acc wen to get some things.
whatever la. haha.
time flies.
one year for you and her.
that was the ending that i wanted to see
lasting love. heartbroken i might be
but its worth for everything
two years of waiting.
landed me with nothing.
going round in circles
hoping for a miracle.
but ended up the same old spot
i admit i lose it all
fate wasnt there for me
ive learn to resign to it
time is the best remedy.
ill let it go quickly
you wont be the only one
but you remain in my heart.
just what if i nv return home
just what if im still lost
baby tell me how
what should i do now.
im not happy.
not smiling
my smiles look so fake
such a facade smile.
it wasnt what it should be
i wasnt who i used to be.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Friday, July 21, 2006
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
okays.. nothing much lately..
oh ya..
i saw that guy.. !! zi ying i saw him..
FUCK...!!!
im still reacting in the same way can !!!
i believe when you see me, you feel hatred?..
just like me??
oh ya and im trying real hard to let it be
cause i know even if the reason was not you,
me and him might not last too =)
anyway, i might still hate you but i hope
we'll be able to bury the hachet someday.
okay okay.
i dont know what rubbish im thinking again !!!
arghh =)
actually im still curious about the anoy in my blog last time.
too bad that person is gone =)..
anyway its fated.
the wind comes
the wind goes
just like my mood
high and low.
the rain so unexpected
pouring like no one matters
just like my tears
they flow to form a river
the river filled with US
a place where i could rest my soul
a place where i could have some force
to keep me going.
i know. i really do know
the river has to dry up one day
cause i have to find my way
cause the river wasnt meant to be from the start.
i will, for myself
i will, for my tears
i will, for the future =)
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Monday, July 17, 2006
it only takes a second for me to look at you
a minute for me to know you
an hour for me to be close to you
a day for me to fall in love with you.
but it takes me a life time to forget you.
i know its a kind of habit
a habit not easy to change
its a kind of loneliness at night
which makes me reminicise the past
maybe in the future
your shadows getting lesser
it will be easier
for me to let go faster.
-its always hard to say goodbye-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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okay okay
listening compre to do.
one question wrong.. sians =((
i have nothing to blog =)
just too normal
nothing special.
yup 105 days to o level.. haha
i realised i have a bad temper.
and at times i really cannot stand kids.
im so EVIL =) weets
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
okay whatever
jia wen i had a great time with you =)
haha really had fun
those retarded people.. haha.
things come and go.
nothing were to stay from the start.
the more you cherish. the more it hurts when its gone
tears kept rolling down
i dont know why
things seem so imperfect
i seem so incomplete.
what should i do.
baby would you please hear my cries.
baby would you hold me tight and sing me a lullaby
baby would you stay by my side never say goodbye.
Find me I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me Hear me.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Story of my life Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong Really loves my company
Hes more than a man And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
I feel it in the air As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another day A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly As if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be longJ
ust hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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am i still like a little girl
lacking of discipline, doing things my way?
searching for the right way in the middle of the night?.
I KNOW I AM. i seem so lost in my own world. that the world only contains you and me.
am i a typical lady
who see things on the bad side of life?
only know how to cry and whine under the clear moonlight?
I KNOW I AM. everytime i look up the sky, tears roll down.
when will i grow up
learning to take things in stride,
learning to let people enter my world.
when will the one i used to be return?
once so innocence,
once so kind.
when will i be optimistic
laughing from my heart,
bringing the confidence out.
if i were to shout out loud
who would hear me besides god
who would be able to bring me to paradise
who would be able to give me back things i lost
who would be able to make me understand.
im trying.
with all my might.
i know no one saw the effort i put in
but all i do is for myself
cause i want to achieve high and i want back MYSELF.
i dont deny i disliked you.
you owe the things you have NOW to me.
just that you dont know.
i know you hated me. but i dont care.
cause you dont matter anymore.
since the day ive changed, you all doesnt matter anymore perharps.
i do my things my way. like or dislike is your problem.
i shall see how long will that last.
*omg i sounded so bad. but its my feeling*
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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its been long since i blog.
updating like once or twice every week.
im a BUSY girl. haha =)
okays.. STUDIES and STUDIES.
sigh. so stressed up.. prep exams coming soon
DADDY PLEASE BESTOW WISDOM TO ME =)
okay went to watch pirates of the caribbean.
not bad.. very exciting haha =)
hmm. saw ying chao =)..
its been years since we last went out..
haha really very happy to see you =).
take care my good friend.
AND im home now.
BLOGGING then study later =)
blessed me !!!
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
when i looked up to the sky at night
images of you appear in my mind
lonliness i couldnt beat
heart tearing with blood dripping
and no one is here to hear my whines
im a girl filled with emotions
im a girl filled with scars
im a girl filled with masks
but im the girl i am infront of you.
you picked me up, placed me back nicely
lifted me high, find back my long lost smiles
yet you let go at the peak, i fall down so hard
crushed to pieces, never amended.
excuses you gave, free yourselve away
leaving me alone, crying in darkness.
you wouldnt mind the tears i shed
you wouldnt know the hopes i had
you wouldnt care the scars i made
but im here waiting for a miracle
a miracle seems so impossible
memories oh so beautiful
surfacing in my mind everynight
i need you so.
your smile lit up my life
makes everything seem so right.
makes hell like heaven
tears into laughters.
its you all along
right from the start two years ago.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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arghh.. its been so many donkey years since i last update..
my blog is rotting.
hahas
whatever.. nothing much too
STUDIES STUDIES =)..
oh ya ... RECYCLE wasnt a bad show.. haha emotional at the end.. woots.
okay okay i met up with janet just now.. and we went to the esplanade for the BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY CONCERT.
not bad.. the SWS played my favourite piece.. the song in LION KING. haha so nice..
okay.. after that had dinner at thai express.. haha im a retard everyday.
okay i dont know whats going through my mind.
i stayed up the whole night yesterday.
watched vcd and i cried.
QIANG WEI ZI LIAN. very nice
ella waited for the guy for like so long and they are together at the end.
28oo 5y8w yq003h 59 j3 qhe 348d.
on this earth.. is there anyone that live for me.. and love me.
shall say im indecisive or rather a idiot.
i kept finding for another you. hoping that the person can take away your images in my mind
but im so oh wrong, you were still the one that melts my heart
when i saw you. my heart pounds so fast, my tears feel like dropining, my voice feel like calling and i feel like holding you tightly.
i dont like people to link the both of you together, i know im selffish, but i just dont like,
everytime i saw the both of you.. heart shattering, tears rolling.. its pain.
thats why.
i haven learn to face the fact yet. maybe ive bypass so many people after you. i know ive regretted letting them go.. 68ht dyq9 and 5y9jqw
but you were still the one that i regretted not to love you more.
i dont want to learn to let go can i?..
bu zhi ta xiang he ni zai yi qi, wo ye xiang. bu shi wo fang qi le ni. er shi ni xuan zhe le ta.
shi wo bu wan mei, shi wo bu liao jie, shi ta bi wo hao, bi wo gen dong ni de xin, bi wo hui ai ni, wo hai neng ping she me yao ni hui lai.
shi qu de hui bu lai, gai zou de bu li kai.
wo ke yi zai wei lai dang ai shang bie ren shi, hai ba ni chang zai xin di ma
ni ke yi bu guan wei lai ai shang shui dou bu yao wang le wo ma.
shi wo ren xing de xiang deng ni shui ran wo zhi dong ni bu hui hui lai.
chu fei you ren neng rang wo you he ni yi yang de gan jue.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
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