Thursday, November 30, 2006
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went out with maddy to the clinic. had my injections and then i was so scare la. haha
and maddy's arm became painful. haha she is PARANOID =)
after that went down to town with jiawen.
darling little sister, it had been long since i last went out with you haha =)
i miss you.
oh ya, and i bought bakerinz cake for my mum. haha. im such a sweet daughter haha =).
met maddy and qiao at 8 plus, we walked around yishun. saw a pair of old couple under my house lobby and they are so sweet la. if only i could be with my love one till old . <3
we talked about in the future, we'll bring our kids out and play, then this one be with the other one. hahas.
starting work tmr, kind of excited. QIAO COME FIND ME THEN WE GO FOR DINNER !!! hahas. DISTUBING, i miss your SINGING, come back and sing!! hhahas.
-whoever mouth opens, ill consider.-
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006
meet maddy just now.
oh ya and she GOT DRUNK YEST !!!!
hahas
had barcadi with her
and she was so crazy la
STUPID BITCH !!!
vampire VAMPIRE vampire CHECK ! hahas.
and she even bought cat food for CATS !!
DISGUST :p
hahas.
MOMO !!!. hahas
im not going chalet already
i ditched chalet for interview hahas =)
brownie factory
hope i get the job la =)
DARLING JIAWEN !!!
lets go out someday
i miss you la.. hahas. and ya come and collect your books.
hahas =)
im freaking tired
and maddy is so bo liao. !!!
nothing better to DO. :x
hahas.
wake up faster. dont slp.
qiao, faster wake up.. haha
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
yesterday was PROM!!!.
thank you maddy for helping me to make up
i love it la. hahas
everyone looked gorgeous
it was indeed memorable.
peeps send me pic quick ! hahas
time pass so fast,
everything end at 12
and woohoo
the pasta made me vomit haha
oh ya. felicia and bird, thanks okay,im feeling better loves.
-four years in northland, sad or happy, it all becomes part of me -
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Monday, November 27, 2006
its only 0843 am
and im so awake.
my head starts to spin again oH man.
i had my nails painted, and im having some difficulties in typing. lols
yesterday,
maddy met me and we went to sun plaza, bought a really nice necklace
can go clubbing with that :p
after that she came to my house and help me with the make up
haha.. i love her la.
then qiao came .
and we were like crapping.
haha. then we passed heels to wendy
they were pissed,
i have no comments.
hahas.
then we went to windy place.
stupid malays over there.
irritating ass.
OH YA !!!
there was this indian riding a bicycle at high speed and hit my arm
WTF.
and now my arm is swollen.
painful alright.
his bicycle sure buang !!!.
idiots.
im so pissed like hell la.
i wanna change phone too qiao !!!
i want 7373
nice okay ! hahas.
its nv easy to be friend with two different side.
and im so oh not excited for prom.
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Sunday, November 26, 2006
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okay.. i woke up at 7 am yesterday
went to changi airport to send ben off.
okay.. pass him my photo
and yeah keep your promise alright.
and see im god damn good to send you off
but im sorry for not seeing you off at the departure hall at 11 plus
i just dont like to see people go away okay?..
and there are words written on the back of the envelope
but i doubt you will be able to see it la because i used invisible pen to write =)
anyway it doesnt matter
take care over there and yea, when i got money to go over there when i grow up
i will go over and find you okay?.. but my expenses you pay ar ?.. hahas. joking la
no more songs from you anymore.
goodbye my friend. :(
and. actually i gave you the chance
but you are flying off.
but if you would say it out earlier
i would wait. but its all to late.
after that i went to meet qiao at city hall and went to suntec
to watch bao bao han play 3on3.
haha. evil people
after that went to drink
and i think i got DRUNK like one stupid bitch?
im embarassed. hahas.
but ya. im still feeling that my head is so heavy. and jeff dont allows me to drink any more?
daddy cannot like that one.
hahas. i guessed i shouted stupid things like what maddy said in her blog.
haha i only remember i drink the pure vodka down. woohoo
and yea. i feel HOT inside. hahas.i love to drink but i hate to get drunk
and this is the first time la.
and yea.. i vomit out all the vege.. haha DISGUSTING.
kenny, im sorry la
went abit overboard.
dui bu qi,.
-they say im still in my dream. they say i should just move on. they say he is so much better but
im still scare. so scare-
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
BENNY !!!
wake up and talk to me
next time no chance talk already.
must remember me okay?.
my talking partner.
come back and find me !!
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Friday, November 24, 2006
went for chalet on the 21st .
was quite fun alright
learnt to play mahjong and im fucking shit slow and addicted =P
at about 1 plus we went to downtown
and we went high okay
played childhood games
sing like nobody business and
ya xi sua sua xi sua sua woohoo hahas :)
after that at 4 plus went back to chalet and
im damn hyper. so i went to play basketball !
plyed till 8 plus and my leg is painful like hell.
haha , doesnt matters. its fun =)
played with this grp of maris boys
and they were like damn funny and god damn VIOLENT ! hhas
okays.
yesterday, went to see doctor in the morning
then went back to my aunty house,
ah boy was so cute la,
he kept on ahyi yi yi yi,
even go sch also wants me to accompany him okay,
baby i love you.
at about twelve plus i went to lavender to find maddy and honey.
okay after that ah loo send us to parklane
and then we went to suntec.
haha mummy was god damn angry at the sales man.
YOUR PAY IS MY SHOPPING MONEY MAN !!!
hahas lol.
after that went to raffles and back yishun
didnt get my heels SAD! hahas
hmm then i dont want to go home so we went to sit down
and chat and this grp of malays were super noisy and thought that we are saying abt them
okay who will be so FREE man.
hahas.
then mummy went home and me and qiao waited for that bao bao han.
hahas. BAO BAO HAN take care of my HONEY !!!.
three are attached , left one
and ya, madeleine teow
you think want attach can attach ar haha :)
they say its a good thing
but im afraid
im afraid that what if he comes back.
oh ya maybe wifey right, he will be GONE and the other will be better.okay i dont know.
let nature takes its course ya.
benny is leaving soon
oh ya and he is damn cute, he sang peng you on the phone.
suddenly i felt so down can
my tears drop.
my dear friend, take care okay?
and ill rush down on sat.
yeap. and when you come back MUST CALL ME .
all the best
bon voyage.
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
four years really flies
remember i used to be a NERD in secondary one
remember everything that ive been through in this school
it might not be a wow wow school
but it does worth to be part of my memory
i remember how my ace in my studies dropped
i remember the tears i shed in school
all the ups and downs.
my friends too
life wouldnt be the same after this
a new chapter is opening
adaption.
the good times in school
the bad ones
ill buried them in my memories.
somehow i feel the emotions going wild in my heart.
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im so tired
eh bitch
im sorry okay?
made you wait so long
dui bu qi.
haha.. went to yck sports hall to watch match with qiao
its damn funny la
the uncles there kept giving comments and the group of youngsters beside us kept saying
the referee is k-long. haha then ask him go wear glasses and read newspaper !! =)
they damn evil.. hahas.
the last quarter was so CLOSE !!
though nee soon didnt win. but they tried their best =)
hmmm after that we went back to north point and ROT =)
haha, tried mascara
AQUA and GREEN !!
nice nice..
haha i like the aqua =)
after that we went to yishun pond and relax hahas =)
then home sweet home
im one retarded bitch =)
in the morning,
went for e-base interview
decided not to take up that job
as my time will clash man !! hahas
and i didnt manage to get my hair done SAD!! ahahas
okay okay..
hmm
yesterday was my FREEDOM DAY =)
woohoo.
after exam me wendy janet wen fang zan and bren
went to bishan
walk walk, talk talk
then to safra and play pool !!
zan you made a fool out of yourselve
haha me too =)
the dog is damn cute la.. hahaa
after that home sweet home .
hmm
maddy and qiao:
i know what you girls meant
im tired of the sudden cold and hot of them too
but baby, somethings i just dont like to think so deeply
and hey,
i love you babes. i know you all care =)
perfection lies within imperfection right? hahas =)
COCOLATTE ON 23 NOV.
haha
woohoo =) im so excited . hahas
partytime, alcoholic BITCHES !!
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When life gets the best of me I just think of you
When I'm sad and confused
All I have to do
Is think of you I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on It's like you set me free
had barcadi just now
it had been long since i last drank
hahas.
i love liqour. it makes me go WOOHOO hahas
okay
i have to study for PHY already
but i really hate that subject to bits,
sighs.
oh ya..
saw a adidas orange shade on the net
DAMN NICE
im going to get it man
by hook or by crook =)
and the adidas jacket too.
CHANG QIAO HUI!!!
stupid bitch you better wake yup tmr
hahas.
i found torturing myself is a type of relief
just when hitting myself no longer ease the pains
i bite
even at the slightest things.
i felt so fed-up
i felt so irritated.
just when screaming and writing doesnt help anymore
i can only use pain.
im sorry,
im not who you all once knew.
zan,
i told you ill be home soon
i told you before, ill not let you all down
but now?
i know im not home yet
i know ive let you down
im sorry, although sorry dont mean anything
wo bu shi bu xiang hui dao cong qian de wo
zhi shi, wo you xin wu li,
zhi shi wo xiang zhan zai yuan di.
-if there was a choice, ill keep you by my side
-if theres only one person that could make me cry, its YOU.
-you used to look at me when you saw me but now i seem to be invisible to you
you never knew how much those little actions hurt me. cause i was nv impt to you.
-i can lie to everyone but not you.
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e math was relatively easy =)
hope i didnt screw it
and hope my A dont fly.
okay fine !
emotion running through my mind.
the thought of no long being able to see you that often
make my heart so breaking.
i dont know why.
i wasnt supposed to have these emotions.
anw, ill nv be the one you ever need,
so. end.
sighs.. i dont want is going through my mind
tears started dripping
i felt so mentally tired.
i get mad at the slightest thing.
i feel like killing people.
its enough. too much for me.
i felt like a complete BITCH. or perharps a slut.
i really wonder am i having some mental-related illness.
im feeling damn sick.
mr chye: im not tyco de okay ! haha
got skills =)
but anw, i dont mind being tyco for o level
as long as i score well =)
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Friday, November 10, 2006
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
sounded so much like the day we part.
u nv meant to crush my world?.
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales .
fairytale was what i was searching endlessly for
i thought ive found it when i found you
but. the day you crush my world, broke my heart
left me lost alone
i lost faith in my fairytale then.
but baby,
i promise since that day you went away
ill be here for you,
ill be there the moment you need me.
baby if ever you fall, hang on to me. cause i wont let go.
just that you never know.
i often think, how long can my stubborness allow me to hang on
hanging on to that promise.
but baby, it seem so clear
i will never be the one you need to lean on
i might not be even one of those you would think of.
just how silly i am to be there
but i cant bring myself to go away.
it seems like after the math paper today
i will never get to see you that often anymore
or i should say, unless im lucky then ill see you?
but im still curious
curious about everything around you.
when you and her are linked together
i felt that i dont qualify for you love anymore.
baby, wake me up from my dream.
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But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
sounded so much like the day we part.
u nv meant to crush my world?.
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
Just don't believe in a tiny hell (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales .
fairytale was what i was searching endlessly for
i thought ive found it when i found you
but. the day you crush my world, broke my heart
left me lost alone
i lost faith in my fairytale then.
but baby,
i promise since that day you went away
ill be here for you,
ill be there the moment you need me.
baby if ever you fall, hang on to me. cause i wont let go.
just that you never know.
i often think, how long can my stubborness allow me to hang on
hanging on to that promise.
but baby, it seem so clear
i will never be the one you need to lean on
i might not be even one of those you would think of.
just how silly i am to be there
but i cant bring myself to go away.
it seems like after the math paper today
i will never get to see you that often anymore
or i should say, unless im lucky then ill see you?
but im still curious
curious about everything around you.
when you and her are linked together
i felt that i dont qualify for you love anymore.
baby, wake me up from my dream.
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
whatever
when i feel like eating I WILL !!!
stop forcing me !
if i dont treasure my life. then BE IT !!
cause when i dont treasure.. i dont deserve you all to treasure also
so I KNOW WHAT IM DOING !!
went to meet qiao and ya did some math =)
hope tmr paper will be alright. hahas
i dont want my A to fly away.
ill die man
qiao you voice ke yi man
and my ear ke yi man =)
weets
madeleine!! change phone again ! hahas
ai ya.. i dont know what to type.
im just so restless
after tomorrow, i wont be able to see you that often right?
wei lai jiu zhen de yao he ni shuo zai jian?
wo shi wo, ni shi ni. you wouldnt care right?
huo shi, wo jiu jian jian de bei yi wang le.
zhi xiang dui ni shuo,
wei lai de re zi, wo hai shi hui hen xiang ni.
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| Your Inner Child Is Happy |
 You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to. |
| You Are The Wheel of Fortune |
 You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth.You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life.Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things.Big things tend to happen to you more than other people.
Your fortune:
Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it.You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way.Big things and big changes are about to come your way.And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest. |
| Your Hair Should Be Purple |
 Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights. |
| You Have a Sanguine Temperament |
 You are an optimistic person who is easily content.You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything.A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better.
You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun.A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours.You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much.
At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness.A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily.You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you. |
| Your Inner Blood Type is Type A |
 You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.
You are most compatible with: A and AB
Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter |
| You Are An ESTJ |
The Guardian
You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!
You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. |
| Your Personality Is Like Alcohol |
 You're the life of the party, a total flirt, and probably a pretty big jokester.Sometimes your behavior gets you in trouble, but you still remain socially acceptable.You're a pretty bad driver, and you're dancing could also use a little work! |
| You Are Cherry Pie |
 You're the perfect combo of innocent and sexyThose who like you enjoy a contradiction |
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| Your Heart Is Pink |
 In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time.
Your flirting style: Coy
Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park
Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant
What you bring to relationships: Romance |
| Your Brain's Pattern |
 You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. |
| You Are 4: The Individualist |
You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel. |
| Your Love Life Secrets Are |
 Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.
You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes...
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. |
| You Are Likely an Only Child |
 At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated.At work and school, you do best when you're organizing.When you love someone, you tend to worry about them.
In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic.Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management.You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books. |
| You Are A Margarita Martini |
 You are a full on partier, with a good deal of sass and spunk.You're always friendly and welcoming - and very tolerant of obnoxious drunks.
You should never: Drink and dance. The pictures will be everywhere the next morning!
Your ideal party: Is loud, with good music and fun drinking games.
Your drinking soulmates: Those with a Dirty Martini personality
Your drinking rivals: Those with a Classic Martini personality |
| You Should Be A Leo |
 What's good about you: you always speak your mind and aren't scared of anything
What's bad about you: you have to be the boss, and you love to control others
In love: you enjoy being admired and pampered, but don't always reciprocate
In friendship, you're: easy to get along with and the center of attention
Your ideal job: member of royalty, TV anchor, or investment banker
Your sense of fashion: classic well fitting clothes that last forever
You like to pig out on: Greek or Italian food |
| You Are 34% Evil |
 A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil. |
| You Are a Blue Flower |
 A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.And at other times, you are wise like an iris.And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea. |
| You Are a Visionary Soul |
 You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul |
| You Are a Mai Tai |
 You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive.And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away. |
| You Were a Giraffe |
 You are a high achiever - able to reach things others can't.A great communicator, you are good at getting past superficialities. |
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was easier than i expected
but i hope i didnt screw anything up.
i want at least a b3..
okay.
no paper later.
so.. can get to study more =)
ya.. who dont like the feeling of being doted
i like it too
who dont like the feeling of having someone to lean on
just that i no longer know the feeling of liking someone.
i've been used to my own life.
madeleine .. haha.. try help me and qiao into the guest list alright.
than we go for SURGE!!
woohoo =)
whatever
bloody O faster DIE
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Monday, November 06, 2006
| Your Birthdate: August 17 |
 You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life.And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others.You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented.Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage.
Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck
Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all
Your power color: Bronze
Your power symbol: Half Moon
Your power month: August |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
| Java Chip Frappuccino |
 You're a caffeine addict and pretty high maintenance about your coffee. There's a good chance that everyone at your Starbucks knows your name. |
What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?
| You Are 76% Vain |
 You're a little vain, but you also work hard for your good looks.Just remember, everyone knows you are a total hottie. You don't have to remind them. |
| Your Career Type: Enterprising |
 You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.
You would make an excellent:
Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp DirectorCity Manager - Judge - LawyerRecreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales PersonSchool Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect. |
| You Are Rum |
 You're the life of the party, and a total flirtYou are also pretty picky about what you drinkOnly the finest labels and best mixed cocktails will doExcept if you're dieting - then it's Diet Coke and Bicardi all the way |
What Alcoholic Drink Are You?
| Your Makeup Look Is |
 Punk Glam EyesYou're the perfect mix of rock and roll meets glamour! |
| You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut |
 A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence. |
| Reeses Peanut Butter Cups |
 Very popular, one of you is not enough. |
What Kind of Candy Are You?
| You Are Cameo |
 You are understanding and very empathetic.You don't tend to have acquaintances. Everyone is your friend.And all of your friends tend to be friends. You have a knack for bringing very different people together. |
What Color Orange Are You?
| Cheese Pizza |
 Traditional and comforting.You focus on living a quality life.You're not easily impressed with novelty.Yet, you easily impress others. |
| You are 80% Leo |
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| You're an Passionate Kisser |
 For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble |
What Kind of Kisser Are You?
| You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream |
 You are kind, popular, and generous.You tend to be successful at anything you try.A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.
You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream. |
What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?
| You Are A Guilty Ex |
 You weren't the greatest to your ex, and you admit it.And now your remorse is keeping you up at night...While feeling a little remorse is good, your guilt is preventing you from moving on |
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im feeling like crying now
i dont know why
i felt so bottled up.
i feel so scare suddenly.
no one knows what im thinking how im feeling
i might say out at times
but i dont even know if it was what i felt.
im getting so sick.
so tired, while walking today, a sudden black out in my head,
i feel like fainting,
whatever.
its tired hating someone
can we stop giving each other cold shoulders?
im tired.
i admit i hate you but its the same for you isnt it.
just stop all the hatings can.
or am i being too paranoid?
sighs.
i need a personal doctor,
i think im going insane someday
i think im having depression
i think im having split personalities
ARGHHH.
ive been punching myself recently for no good reason
my tummy have bruises.
wth la.. i feel no PAIN
and its making me HAPPIER.
im insane
HELP!
end of me.
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WHAT EVER.
does not having menses means im ANOREXIC?
omg. what was that CRAP all abt !!!
i also HOPE SO LA
can DIE faster.
its never nice living
facing problems okay
if i can choose ill just VANISH
call me selffish
i ADMIT!
actually,
i may look strong
i may not treasure my body
but im scare also la..
i also scare i have some illness
i might just laugh it off
but who knows the inner struggle im having.
who knows how much i envy those who nice figure and healthy body
no one knows whatever feeling im having.
it all ME and MYSELF !!!.
who would cry when i die
who would treasure me till the end of time?
would you hold be close for that last second when im gone
or would you just let me go.
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arghh!!!!
this year a1 for math should be super HIGH!!!
my god..
sigh..a2 jiu hao le ba
hmm ss.. i dont really know how to link
just argued my way through
hopefully, i didnt screw it
sighs. GIVE ME A B3 at least !!!!
blessed.
okay.. sighs..
shall update more later
im just moodless now.
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
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haha
QIAO !!!!
haha im so LAME =))
study with this bitch
and i woke her up at 9am
then she was like NOT YET TEN THIRTY!!! haha =P
im bored thats why.
hmm.
study at starbucks, then saw yong qiang. haha
i called him KA ZUA =)
after that qiao's friend rong mao came
taught him math,. but dont think he can understand what im talking hahaha
and after that study till 7
went for dinner at mac =)
then we chatted, took pic. lame here and there =)
damn idiot la. and i was the one okay being so lame haha
they couldnt stand me haha =P
i saw yong long. kor and so on at mac
SO HAPPY,
I MISS MY KOR =)
after that at 10+ they rong mao and qiao walked with me home
haha saw frog and we took its pic
DAMN STUPID =)
hahas..
heynna laugh .. hee hee hee.
haha. i had a fun and tiring day, studying and crapping haha
-shi shang wang wang you bi ai qing gen zhong yao de dong xi-
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Friday, November 03, 2006
just had a FULL DINNER
cause welcome my uncle back from new zealand.
die man !!!
arghhh.. sharkfin, vege, chicken, fish, red bead soup
im dying..
LESNER!!! you teasing me or saying the truth? ahaha
heart broken =)..
okay..
darling jie jie. cheerup okay
people might not see the effort you put in and start complaining
but we see the efforts.
you took up the responsibilities when no one want to
you try ways to sustain his life.
jie we know
dont give a damn about what they think
as long as you know you did the right thing can already
life will be better ahead
what goes around comes around okay.
i feel like going to visit uncle
all of a sudden
i miss him.
sometimes maybe it will be better to go away than suffering.
but i want to see you for the last time.
i remember my childhood with you.
im so scare like what they say
you might just leave anytime and you cant recognise anyone now.
sighs.
stirring up of emotion.
madeleine:
hey girl. no matter what decision you made
dont regret and if you chose the hard way
it might be pain. you still got us to fall on okay
loves.
-ni hai ke bu ke yi bang wo cha yan lei-
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sighs.
im so sad when i saw mummy cried.
tears rolled down too.
mummy, uncle gonna be okay.
i believed.
life is really fragile.
it breaks my heart when i heard that the uncle who dotes alot on me is almost like dying.
i dont know what emotion im going through now.
but he used to bring me to eat. buy things for me when i was young and now?
sighs.
im so tired now
its only twelve forty
just finished doing my notes for history
never mind. for once im going to sleep soon and wake up tmr morning
and then study.
im going to do add math as i realised that im neglecting it
and im going to do chem tmr also.
i shall memorise my ss tmr night and sat.
DADDY,
please give me the wisdom and concentration that i need now
lord, clear all other things on my mind so that i can concentrate
in your name,
AMEN.
okay people.
im going to my dreamland soon already
good night.
-ren wang wang cai bu dao ming tian hui fa sheng she me shi. life is fragile.-
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
okays.
slept at three thirty yesterday
and i so tired !! =)
my grandma came to my house just now.. woo i miss her so.
hmm ya . for awhile then she went back.
its okay.. will get to see her on sunday =)
oh ya.. so close to o.
im so scare. i might be studying but im so afraid i didnt study enough
sighs.
oh ya,, i really went out of things to blog la..
lala -__-
okays what ever
i realised zui jing by li sheng jie quite nice.
wo neng gei de
qie bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de.
hahas.
ni hao ma?
zhen de hao ma?
ni he ta hai hao ba?
shi wo duo xin le ba
ni men shi xiang ai de.
xi wang ni hen hao,
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
If you just believe in me,
I will Love you endlessly.
Take my hand.Take me into your Heart.
I'll be there forever, baby.
I won't let go.I'll never let go.
Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memoriesI, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget the memories we made
Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time I'll never know again
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always Always
i dont know what to blog.. so posted some lyrics. hahas
hmmm..acc mad in the morning to get her addidas bag.
haha and im so in love with her addidas wallet. hahas =)
hmm i dont know whats going through my mind now.
everyone say things gonna be fine
but im feeling so stress up and scare.
sighs. i feel so out of my way.
what was i crapping.
exam fever!!! hahas
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