Sunday, January 28, 2007
the past six,
i miss you all.
janet: i miss you la, the only best friend who will scold me up.
i miss you
yuwen: haha sorry didnt meet you that day. take care i miss crapping with you.
fang: ni hao ma? take care of yourself ok?.
wendy: i dont know what has become of us. maybe just awkward friends? i hope not, might always have quarrels with you but still i miss you, and our quarrels.
bin pei: booo booo, haha more and more MAN. hahas take care ok?. mei nai de bao bao. hahas
the present three,
the place you all have in my heart is irreplacable.
im sorry i neglect you all.
but please dont doubt anything ok?
the rest
brenda: i miss your crap.
alot alot. COME OUT FIND ME. hahas.
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okay.
what the,
went studying, then bballing.
sorry adel sorry
and GUESS WHAT.
madeleine you will be shocked. !!!
i PLAYED with RYAN LIU, and same team haha.
but just a game
i really dont know what to say.
i dont message and stuffs doesnt means that i dont care
girl, i sense the dist,
im not used to asking. seriously,
i got no time for you all i know.
i went out with them cause i need to get my shoes and stuff.
i nv change at all.
about the material twin. im tired of defending myself.
to you or to others i might BE but to myself IM NOT.
and if you say that i always happen to get the same stuffs or i should say similar as you
what more can i say.
i bought that zara top because i like that type of shirt after the first time i tried on your mango.
the butterfly, i have it but i never wear only.
and girl
thanks for your concern
im still stubborn. i wont stress myself
and you take care tooo.
i really dont know what more to say.
if there is more, i'll update or message to say
and yeap.
i prefer typing to talking
anyway. sorry girls
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its only 10.36 am.
went to bugis with ji hui and zhi yong yest
kor kor i miss you la
but you are still the same.
keep BULLYING me =p
hahas. =)
bought a top and escada pacific paradise =)
so broke now hahas.
really like the smell of the escada perfume
damn sweet and fruity
the next one i wanna get is DKNY be delicious green apple.
didnt manage to buy my jeans
arghh my levi's lady style. hahas
after bugis went to orchard.
met nicholas. damn funny la.
hahas. after that slack at yishun.
then nich and ji send me home. thanks ar :)
whatever la. i couldn't be bothered about some people.
and its the same old thing.
im SICK of it.
and so BE it.
im sad but its not going to change anything. haha
a big balloon. =p ji hui you know what i meant right? haha shhs.
okay. i'm going off already.
still got homework to complete
.and test tmr.
god bless. =)
I WANNA CRASH SAJC.
linette, lets go crash. hahas
-your words, your smile shall be kept deep in my heart-
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
damn tired
loads of homework.
im left with econs.
test on monday- physics.
im dead. haha =)
skipped training today
adeline was angry
sorry captain.
really cannot take it, almost fainted.
hmm.
went to study at 8.
was supposed to meet jihui at 8 but she was so GOOD la.
i waited for her till 9. haha
win already, pissed but nvm haha =)
after studying went for midnight movie.
GHOST TUNNEL.
scary, i screamed and that stupid ji hui was laughing la. hahas
idy idy i screamed. wth. haha
ji you better keep it to yourself. hahas =)
im starting to feel kinda attached to yjc.
it might not be the top but its definitely going to be fun.
but i want ajc or sa.
my dream school. sigh sigh
or rather i'm thinking of poly education too?.
2 more weeks to getting results.
some said eighth, fifth, nineth, sighh
oh man. i dont understand a shit abt physic.
SOS, someone help me.
work hard, play hard.
-seven hearts, seven minds, indifferent us-
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
fine fine
sch has been stressful.
sighs but no choice.
results are coming out soon.
getting scare, haha. no point =p
okay. dont you feel that you are such a failure?
depending everything on your son.
not getting to work?
come on, you dont have that life to enjoy early ok?
fuck. dammit
i feel so bottled up everytime at home.
sigh.
i feel sad for kor.but whatever
i cant stop you all.
im sick and tired
reflect on yourselve la come on.
do what parents should do.
dont reluy too much on him and me
dammit
. sickening. arghhhh
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
i've been very restless lately
nothing seem to matter
i mean NOTHING.
nothing seem to ease what i'm feeling inside
and its really NOTHING.
had training today.
quite fun yet tiring
but whatever. i love basketball =)
wee.
oh and yeap elanor quite nice. hahas =)
i'm starting to be confused by myself
i'm starting to fall back to the past.
things i used to dream of
i dream of them now.
what the fuck am i thinking,
what the fuck do i want.
i'm not opening up
i cant open up.
fucking answer i gave, fucking excuses i use to free myself away
fucking tears kept rolling,
i miss the past so much.
2 years and three months.
i couldnt believe in myself
i couldnt believe my tears.
things i wanted to do, words i wanted to say
i hold them back for two years
believing that there will be one day.
a bitch indeed i am
i wasnt suppose to behave this way.
you werent perfect, just what on earth did you do to make my heart stay.
idy asked, what if you return
i replied, i'll give up all that i had and go with you.
worthless i know. but im willing to do so.
cause baby i believe in those promises made
cause baby i know you wouldnt lie to me.
tears behind those smiles
fears behind my heart
a place still there forever for you deep in my heart.
boy, i know you would be upset if you see this post.
you treated me so well. i feel like i was a princess.
boy, let everything go slow,
my heart do need time to adapt cause i havent been really loving someone since two years ago.
i trying to find back the feelings of loving somebody.
and ya, dont lose your sleep because of me.
even if we weren't to last please be clear that your studies are more impt.
actually. im sick of guys.
i sick of all the tolerating for my previous ex,
it resulted me not being able to tolerate any flaws now.
it resulted me in not treating my stead as sweet as how i used to treat my boyfriends.
seriously i wouldnt mind being a bi.
maybe because i'm too hurt and too tired.
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
arghh
sian, i feel so restless everyday.
feel so much like biting myself. whatever.
i feel like a NERD. seriously.
but yeap. still i didnt regret trying out jc, hahas.
looking back, time flies
somethings just wasn't meant to be
some things that i'm just struggling for nothing
the times i cried
the days i laughed.
everything seem to pass so fast
i'm moving on from the broken past
though i'm looking back at it sometimes
and still cry for all that past memories
memories of others and me,
memories of all incidents
lastly all the heartbreak.
at least i'm facing all memories bravely now.
boy, thanks for everything
what you hope is what i want too.
=).
some things i keep deep inside
some things i chose to keep quiet
some feelings i tend to hide
some thinkings i always had in mind.
some people i always think of
some events i would always remember.
someone i really want to give my heart
some times i'm still clinging onto the past
somehow the problem lies within me .
i happened to see c.g yest
damn it.
i still had that same reaction.
you looked at me in a funny way.
it has been long,
but somehow we still cannot forget all that happen two years ago.
you were the reason for his departure
you were the cause for his heartbreak and mine,
but seriously
when will we be able to face each other
like the day we know each other.
bury the hachet and befriends again.
lastly, all the best.
hay,
thanks for listening to all my crap.
you've been a great listener.
see you soon.
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
okay. hmm played some investigation games in school today and monopoly alive.
was feeling super tired. haha so slack hahas.
was considered the last day of orientation.
A4 A4. though we are small but like what james said. we bonded well =)
i'll miss you guys and the ogls. hahas.
tomorrow will know permanent class already.
hopefully can be in the same class as big bird, haha =p.
sians haven't buy my notes yet. hahas,
went to play bball after school today,
dont like to play with ah bengs. sians,
maddy and honey are working,
i miss them la.
janet is working too, but nvm will get to see her tml. haha
yeah, means i can see erjie and yuwen tmr too,.
weeheee,
raine is studying, sighs
i dont know why im feeling so upset inside.
i dont know where all that heartpain comes from.
i dont want another storm.
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Monday, January 08, 2007
okay,
today's activities were quite fun.
although trudy wasnt there but i mingle quite well with the others =).
scouts camp =)
tiring. but enjoyed. haha.
still thinking if i can go for 13th at dxo. sighs.
i shall club less already. hahas.
i dont know what to blog.
sians,
maddy working already, work hard babe. hahas.
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
hmmm. i've been super lazy to blog haha =))
school starts already.
orientation wasn't that bad after all
managed to know afew friends. hahas.
people who keep asking about my relationship with madeleine and qiao
i hereby declared that WE ARE FINE =)).
yeap. maddy, i love you la. let bygones be bygones,
i'll learn to speak up and yeap. hahas.
and those who ask about me and timothy
IT'S ALL OVER.i'm single.
it's a new year,
and my new year resolutions are:
club less
study hard
stop making people worried
stop eating.
i'm tired. so bored of life.
-my prince is still missing.-
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