Thursday, May 31, 2007
hmm yesterday was quite a fun day eh?
hahas.
went to sentosa with kelly jiawan and adel.
played volleyball, get tanned though not very obvious.
chit chatting. hahas =))
hmmm best of all, camwhoring =D
went back at 5 plus eh.
hmm walk around at vivo.
then back to yishun
went to 111 to play ball.
then home sweet home.
oh ya.. was too tired to blog la.
slept at like 12 plus
and woke up like just only la =).
hmmm and im meeting adel later
study and balling =))
since i cant even ask you a simple question
i guess thats it right?
u never know how disappointed i feel.
but maybe through your replies
i know
i know,
i have to go.
and the feeling wasnt deep afterall.
someone dont wanna play ball today
say he wanna slp.
lol PIG eh.
but well, i understand la.
hmm take care eh?
hmmm must miss me,
of not life is a tragdey for me eh.
hahas.
and i miss you. my eyecandy =)
arghhh.. running nose again,
-thats it, no more.-Labels: gone, unwritten fairytale
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Labels: SENTOSA. 30th may 07
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
-when two hearts collides.still theres no spark only tears flowing from the painful heart.
so broken to pieces, so painful those tears drop.
as if knifes pricking through
as if someone stabbed to death,
still there isnt any ending
or rather any beginning-Labels: her SONGS, my feelings.
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went to study with julia at civic mac this morning.
adel and jm joined us later.
lol.
full of laughters eh?
had a damn damn good laugh la..
all thanks to julia =)
im contented to have such friends with me =)
oh my and on my way to foodcourt
i saw fang ru!!!
i was damn happy la.
i miss her like so much la.
hahas
well, tmr outing,
so not excited,
somehow, i seem troubled.
my temper, they get from bad to worst.
this effing sucks la.
my mood swing they are like roller coaster ride.
if this continues,
i dont even know what would i become.
damn it.
i have the sudden urge to curse and swear now,
as much as i feel like crying,
i feel pressurize,
i feel so eff-ed up.
oOKAY, somethings are worth to be rejoiced.
my eyecandy coming back from camp tmr. haha
so happy la =)
i miss you like madd? hahas
i dont know why,
still i message you,
still something i hope.
maybe its so clear
i know what i want.
but,
i have never been unable to get things i want
since young,
i got my ways,
but you are so different
i dont even know how to react.
its like sudden heartbreaks.
oh well, what the hell am i talking.
but thats what im feeling.
messed up.
everytime you dint reply
my heart broke,
tried to smile,
yet as if i tried too hard.
i miss your care
i miss so many things
were i the one who let things go first or are you the one?
do you still read this blog and tries to understand how i feel
like you used to?
or im just yet another her to you?.
my STUPID BOY.
i agreed im paranoid
neither do i bear any grudges against you or anything.
i appreciate your understanding =)
i hope things do go well for you.
and its the end of the "blog-talk"
i need someone here right now,
i wanted so much for you.
i dont know why words are affecting me
i dont know why i tried so hard to act as if im strong.
somehow i wish you understand.
somehow i wish you to be out of my mind.
contradicting aint i?
one at one moment.
but who cares =)
-when things get so out of hand, leave it and move on-
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Monday, May 28, 2007
well.
meet adel at amk hub,
walk around,
ate mushroom, and chicken,
cass came =)
then shun came =)
after that acc cass find her monkey =p.
then went to mos.
after that went to teck ghee cc,
wanted to play ball. but well, they having fuction there,
so shared cab back to cpcc.
hmm fell asleep on the way back.
damm tired.
sorry peeps if i cause trouble to you all. =)
i'll learn from the mistakes i made.
sorry. =)
adel, take care of your ankle please =)
im not quite sure if someone was referring to me in her blog.
but oh well,
kind of obvious eh?
hahas STUPID people loves to do redundant stuffs eh?
and well, i dont need you to ask him to clear things out with me
we are clear of what is going on.
thanks FOR your good intention eh?
im sorry of my mood-swing today.
thanks for putting up.
sorry.
-its affecting me, and i dont know how-
i miss you. my no 6 =)
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hmm just finish eating my pear. yum yum.
okay.
match againist HONG KAH.
lost by 4 pts.
as i expected, dint get to play
but still learn from the game eh? ahas
hmm after that
went to woodlands to play ball.
play till like hmmm. ten plus then took train back,
cheer up TECK GHEE ballers!!!
lets jia you jia you. haha =)
adel, dont blame yourself alright?
loves you.
and happy happy just now? hahas =D
oh my i miss my eyecandy.
he's away. sighh
i wanna watch potc with YOU YOU, hahas. =)).
like so finally, you replied eh?
oh well nth to say to you either.
so be it?
we shall be.
hahas =)
take care. past tense?.
-what would a crush lead to-haha
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
everyone has someone to love?
do i have one to?
maybe yes,
but why i always love the wrong one?.
and end up in pain?.
super dumb eh?
super lousy eh?.
not good enough?
vulgar eh?
oh well.
maybe i dont worth any love?
haa.
and bloody hell,
who can understand how i feel.Labels: im so down baby.
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as for today,
hmm what did i do??
met up with some people from my class
to do project work and have breakfast.
after that went to amk hub for pool.
well,
then met adel for training at teck ghee.
wasnt training exactly, but five on five play la.
well. lots of mistakes made.
sighh sighh,
i know tmr sure wont get to play,
but nvm its a good start and experience for me even if it was just seeing other people play eh?
i want to brush up everything,
ADEL, I NEED YOUR HELP !!!.
ive really started balling like this year only,
though there is improvement BUT i wanna be better.
help me my crazy adel !! =)
after training went for dinner, then to cpcc for balling,
and now, HOME SWEET HOME.
=)
im all about my eyecandy, =)
okay, was feeling kinda of emo eh?
why do BESTFRIENDS quarrel,
and why cant some people understand certain things,
look from another perspective.?.
well. never mind. ill shall STAY neutral.
oh yes,
good eh you?.
as though i no longer exist eh?
well, it hurts but oh well.
i wanted to call you so MUCH la.
but who knows you might just HECK CARE the call.
well anyway.
there i go.
sha la la ~~
can i say i still kind of miss you?.
the days we talk on phone?
the days we hang out together?
when all was unclear?.
oh well, i know I CANT,
so haha. friends forever eh.
-facade, try so hard to be, yet seen through me-
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oh well.
wasnt able to use the com yesterday.
all thanks to my bro eh. hahas
anyway, i went to watch a div finals yest.
for the girls, VJC won.
for the boys, HCI won.
anyway, for the girl's match, it was a tough one.
hmm RJC is strong and fast in their denfence. =).
for the boy's, although victory was kind of obvious. BUT GOOD PLAY IJC =)
good play JIN LONG =) you really played well.
hmm ANYWAY !!!!
he was there YESTERDAY.
OH MY GOD.
well. hahas.
i miss him la.
he'll be away for camp and kl trip.
sigh. MY EYECANDY =).
i wanna watch POTC with YOU YOU YOU !!!.
will you? hahas.
im crazy over my eyecandy eh <3.
after watching match, me and adel went to town.
walk walk around.
lol. and EFFF la.
i couldnt find the WALLET i want
DAMN IT,
i want BLACK one,
all the colours available except BLACK.
sigh,
why ar. always like that one,
sigh.
-my life is a tragedy when you dont miss me =)-
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Thursday, May 24, 2007
hmm.
met adel in the morning
and we STUDY.
as in really. haha
ate damn sinful stuffs.
OH MY FROM TMR ON, IM NOT EATING DINNER.
I DONT CARE !!!.
i dont wanna be baba.
suck la..
oh ya, and i realised im so VULGAR now la.
sigh.
and sometimes kind of hot tempered too.
oh my oh my.
i miss my EYECANDY =)
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
went to queensway today.
was super tired.
so look kind of blur? hahas and maybe lifeless?
well acc julia to get her shoes.
yeap,
then went to julia house with shun
played bball.
meet mum at northpoint after that.
oh ya and my voice is still not back yet,.
sigh
i feel like calling you,
feel like messaging you too.
but. i shouldnt right?
i dont know why
im still hoping for your message
kind of stupid eh?.
well i know.
im sorry.
because when you look back.
the pain becomes memories
a lesson to be learnt.
questions wanted to be asked
become silence.
buried deep within.
just do you ever like me before,
or am i just another girl.
maybe all so along,
i was nothing special.
and now, i stop hoping.
when all the hopes seem to be vanishing.
-the one by your side might not always be the one you love-
-the one you love often seem so near yet so far-Labels: my IGNORANCE
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
fine.
went to woodland this morning
oh ya, IVE COLLECTED MY PIG FACE =)
hhahas.
hmmm with adel and sophie.
have pizza hut for lunch
then watched 200 pounds beauty.
damn nice la.
touching scenes, tears drop. haha
happy scenes, lots of noise made =.=
hahas.
after that went to do abit of work,
then home sweet home.
the fairytale end
an angel without soul.Labels: soulless girl.
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Monday, May 21, 2007
alright. im waiting for adel to reach my house =)
study ang siow thien !!!
well, played ball till eight plus,
super tired.
ankle kind of pain.
well, hahas
ohh someone as me take care and drink more water eh? thanks ar
you also take care cause u having flu haha.my eyecandy =)
well.
well.
your nick: YOU RATHER BE ALL ALONE?
well then,
i shall leave u alone =)
and friends shall we be,
no more stupid boy, no more crazy girl.
thanks for all your care.
thanks for everything
i really treasure them
but this is kind of the best way out right?
well. hmm shall keep this ambigouity as my memories?
take care my stupid boy,.
and treat that i say nothing, NOTHING AT ALL.
hmm adel REACH ALREADY !!! haha =)
-but somehow it lingers. goodbye my once stupid boy-Labels: and IT ALL ENDS
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im at adel house now !!!
going to play ball at CPCC later. haha
went to sch just now,
played bball with der, shun and eddie
oh ya.
and i saw him.
hmmm invisible coldness eh?
had emo talk with adel yest night.
maybe you were right.
hahas.
but oh well, im afraid. really.
the very first thing when i woke up,
i wanted to see ur message
but well. u didnt reply.
saw you in school.
neither did u come and talk to me.
still i hope you would message me.
yet it didnt happen.
well. again and again.
do things have to turn out this way?
and well i seriously dont understand why some people
wants other people to convey the messages for them
and why cant they get the whole picture first before jumping into conclusion.
'still, whose shoulders can i cry on, who can show me what real love can do'
p.s. I MISS MY SIX SIX SIX. =)
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okay.
went to amk hub with mummy and aunts.
walked around,
messaging someone =)
wee.
ur msg do make me SMILE
though im insignificant to you. haha =)
after walking around, i went off first,
cabbed to cpcc to meet adel and friends
played bball.
so long nv play outside already
really miss that type of feeling haha ~
play till 9 plus,
went to 110 to have dinner.
walked back home.
i guess, when its night time,
my mood would be down.
i'll start to think abt things you said.
but still, tears didnt drop,
though on the brink.
i dont ever wanna seem weak to you perharp?
if you are gonna be happier this way,
with this ambigouity ending,
then good bye my boy.
you are being so obvious la.
everytime i said, i miss you,
u would just remain silent.
broken.
but stupid boy,
i thank you for your care,
and ill appreciate if everything was said.
ps: to someone if you happen to pass by.
hmmm. i shall make it clear here.
No one likes ambigouity,
its the slowest form of sucicide in love.
there is nothing that happen.
and i apologised if this were to worsen the friendship between u and him.
he would rather not make a decision, cause you are his friend.
who would want to hurt their friends?
he aint no director, he's just being him,
thats the way he choose to handle these things.
he doesnt even have that intention to hurt you.
im not afraid if things were to be found out.
cause i know what is going on, and we are clear.
and isnt it clear when it was said that he wouldnt like you cause you are his friend?
dont blame him.
dont even hate him.
please.
and maybe i owe u an apology too.
-take care my stupid boy, it might just be the last time.-
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAINE AND FELLICIA =)
ARGHHH, I GOT NO MORE VOICE !!!
sigh, must be due to the straining of my voice yest.
and my cough is NOT getting anywhere better.
okay, went out with shun, adel and sophie today.
went to BUGIS.
slack around.
had pastamania for lunch.
no CHILLI for me. oh well. TRAGIC.
crapped.
hahas
after that me and sophie went to MARINA SQUARE.
okay, and im freaking sad.
THE WALLET I WANTED IS SOLD OUT !!!!
sigh.
i almost stopped breathing for that second la.
well, that isnt bad la,
the ADIDAS shirt that i want, DONT have my size.
and the topshop tube too.
what the hell man. !!!
maybe its is all predestined that i should not spend money today..
but still, I WANT THAT WALLET BADLY !!!!!
argh.
okay, camwhored on the way back.
oh ya and i miss my eyecandy eh? hahas.
`p.s. I WANT YOU TO SAY ALL YOUR PIECE'Labels: im still not over YOU.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VJ NO 6 yesterday. =)
yest had interhouse BASKETBALL.
was quite pissed while playing with seletar.
but oh well,
its over so yeap.
hmm, had fun playing with CANBERRA =) and its so obvious how both team tact against someone eh?
well. damn bad, but haas =p.
oh ya and i LOSE half of my voice.
everyone was shocked to hear me la.
hahas well. but still i shout alot and sing,
hahas. everyone is being irritated and i continue to make noise =p. hahas
after interhouse, had bbq, thanks to coach, mr wong and miss goh =).
played bball during bbq too.
TRAGIC !!! benjamin and i knocked onto each other and his jaw is painful, my head is also painful.there a SCAR on my head and its swollen. =.=
sorry BEN, hahas. take care eh.
was kind of emo.
i guess it was mood swing.
but oh well.thanks shun for listening to me eh?
though u still see my tears.
im just afraid, i'll regret.
and , dont worry your BI will be FINE =).
walked home with willy after bbq.
and yeap. so thats it.
'because i know, the string is being snapped,
and now im on the ground.
bidding this ambigouity goodbye.
are you doing the same?
or maybe just to you, this ambigouity never exists?
would you finally tell me all that was on your mind?
for the last time, before all ends?'Labels: its NO MORE. BROKEN STRING.
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
Labels: TODAY'S SESSION.
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this were all the cards made for the graduating seniors.
take care people.
and we do miss you.
the training times, the days we cheered for each other,
the days we had dinner after training,
the joy, the laughters, the bitchings, the every little thing.
all the best.
we love you.
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
unspoken words, fallen tears
you just cant understand.
fine.
interhouse netball today,
but i dint play
and im glad that i dint play la =)
ADEL,YOU KNOW WHY LA =)) hahas
played basketball.
oh my and thanks ar xj and eddie
haha now my leg got BIG BLUE BLACK =)
hahas.
went the see doc.
got forced by my brother.
anyway,
damn angry la !!!
my mum scolded me cause i see a DOCTOR !!!
WHAT A NICE UNREASONABLE SCOLDING EH?
AND MAKE IT CLEAR, IM NOT USING YOUR MONEY TO SEE THE DOCTOR OKAY??
and please STOP SCOLDING ME !!!!
IM OLD ENOUGH TO DECIDE WHICH AND WHEN I WANT TO SEE THE DOCTOR.
sigh
its so obvious,
we are drifting even further
this ambigouity, no more?
well, i think so
dont you?
its that the best way out?
are you still my crazy boy?
-when this decision is made, ill nv return again-Labels: stay, would u ask me to?
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Labels: YJC BASKETBALL 07
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Labels: my fav CAPTAIN =)
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im in school now =p
pon my econs lecture.
ANG SIOW THIEN. STOP SKIPPING ECONS~~
oh man but i seriously have no mood for classes.
its gonna be holiday SOON,
yes babe. =)
but sigh got to study for BLOCK TEST STILL !!!! hahas
oh man, and i found my no6 FRIENDSTER !!! =))
anyway, im just sick and tired of everything,
nothing has been going well, be it school, or personal.
oh man, and im looking forward to the bbq on friday =).
and i miss my seniors =) seriously.
i miss the times we trained together.
but anyway, all the best to you all =)
okay whatever, my post is damn RANDOM ~~
im finding it hard to talk to you.
im lost for words.
someone said, my action seems to show that im letting go.
maybe?
i dont know.
and that person asked, do i still like you?
my ans was definite. what do you think?
many little actions do matters, do you understand?.
sometimes, im just disappointed.
maybe and maybe, you just dont understand what im thinking.
or maybe, im abit too unreasonable?.
when i said, i miss you.
im not missing the presence of you,
but the kind "communications" we had.
i dont know how to phrase what im thinking in words now.
but..understand?
i remember that every morning when it rains,
without fail, you would message me. and ask me to becareful, and take a bus to school instead.
BUT NOW, you dont.
and i dont know why.
boy, sometimes, these little little things that showed that you care,
means alot to me.
did you realise that, i havent been giving you stars recently?
or maybe it dont even matters.
the stars are all in my bag.
still somehow, suddenly, i got no courage and kind of dont feel like giving.
baby boy, the past sugarrush kills.
-what can i do-Labels: facade smile =))
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Monday, May 14, 2007
played against vjc today
lost.
cheerup people,
i believe we all tried our best =)
lets work hard for next year =))
saw my vjc no6 =)
hahas.
whatever la.
was kind of down.
sigh.
when im alone, when i didnt talk to you
would you just take the initiative and ask me?
maybe just that you thought im fine.
whatever that make you happy.
-because im breathless, boy you kept me guessing-Labels: sometimes i really need...
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Sunday, May 13, 2007
woke up at 6, shivering.
oh my, im running a fever.
took two panadol and went back to sleep.
met adel at twelve plus, headed to town.
bought two shirt.
i FOUND THAT GUESS WALLET AT, SEIYU WISMA !!!!!!
oh my god, im gonna get it let during SG sales?.
haas.
walked around, talk cock.
cam-whoring session =)
and now home sweet home.
alot of things running through my head.
following my heart?
when i dont even know what my heart wants?
acting that i dont give a damn, which isnt true?
sometimes i see that past of me and you.
sometimes, im so grateful to have you be it in the past or now.
cause you care, now, as a friend, you still care.
certain things, i had never tell you or others.
certain things you thought i had already forget.
somehow, thats fate,
when the time isnt right.
but still, i owe you alot, yet you forgave me, thank you.
-theres so much i wanted to tell you-Labels: i miss my stupid boy
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
went to sch in the morning, study =)
then play bball for awhile
and then went home at one plus.
met up with sophie at three.
headed to town. =)
walk around.
wanted to buy a black and gold adidas shirt.
maybe i'll get it tmr or next week.
bought a wallet for mummy.
and yeap went home at like 9.30
oh man and my leg is freaking pain. so is my throat.
oh ya. and i saw stupid cai on my way home this afternoon.
haha the first thing i did was to beat him.
im sorry boy =)
and walked home together with him.
and idiot you FORGET where i stay. haas.
-broken pieces, emtpy spaces,
would you fill them up for me?
would you mend those pieces and let me breathe?.-Labels: never able to understand me =)
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Friday, May 11, 2007
okay. school was pretty fine,
oh well, what the fuck i screwed up my skill c.
sigh, had no mood for lessons,
pon gp and econs.
played bball instead,
ang siow thien. WAKE UP LA YOU BITCH !!!
fine.after training
i went to eat with them =)
and damn it, my tummy still hurts even though i avoid chilli !!!!
seriously, the pain might as well KILL me la. =)
i didnt talk much to you.
or should i say today,
im just feeling damn fustrated.
sorry peeps for attitude.
adel, cheer up, ignore that son of the *****.
dont care alright?.
he is just damn it being childish la..
so dont put it on your heart.
you still have us.
like i said, no matter what u choose to do, we can only give u advise.
but the ultimate choice is yours and no one will blame you.,
as long as you are sure of what you are doing. =)
i love you.
i wanted to say my piece.
i wanted to tell you how i feel.
but how do i start?.
how should i say it to you.
didnt talk alot to you.
i expected you to start the topic first.
since you said nothing,
i just walk away.
called you just now,
you didnt pick up.
maybe you fell asleep.
everytime i tried telling you my thinkings,
you always say sorry,
boy do you know that what i want to hear isnt sorry?.
and sorry doesnt makes the heart feels better.
`You and someone you care about are on different wavelengths right now, but this shouldn't frustrate or frighten you. It's true that the way forward for you two is not very clear, but don't give up on the hope that clarity is coming. New beginnings are much likelier than endings. It's time for an honest discussion with this person. Do not be afraid that what you have to say is silly, irrelevant or unimportant.`
that is my horoscope for today. its time for an honest discussion.
what do we have to discuss, how do we start.im trying to say. yet i dont know how to say.
-a strong front, is not what it is-
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADELEINE TEOW MEI FANG !!!!
i miss you to bits la. =)
okay, after school today,
i went home then headed to amk to meet mad, qiao , wei wei, jun kai, wei jie and rong mao.
had fish and co for dinner.
then we went k-boxing,
emo yet high eh. hahas
half way, mad has to leave.
and girl, we arent angry and we understand. haha =)
love you.
after kbox, took bus home.
really had a nice day today.
i really miss my two bitches like mad la.
yeap.
i shouldnt love you
but i want to.
i shouldnt even think of you
yet i cant help.
if you knows how im feeling deep inside.
would you just let it go?
baby, i just wanna hold you tight.
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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
sigh.
we lost to ajc.
did we do our best?
seriously?.
lets work hard
we are a TEAM.
so adel, DONT blame yourself.
you and becca are my fav captains.
after match,
watched hci vs sajc and vjc vs ajc.
OH MY,
MY NO 6 FROM VJC IS SUPER CUTE =))
hahas.
okays enough.
oh man and his name is DANIEL hahas.
emotions all around,
it wasnt good at all.
trying so hard to put up that smile,
who do i do all these for?.
and now, im trying my best to just let it be.
so be it then.?/
still i need you somehow. right now.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
okay.
didnt go to sch.
my tummy hurts.
whatever la.. can just kill me.
went to polyclinic with adel.
4 hours of waiting. =.=
doctors prescribed me with two bottles of antaacid,
and NO CHILLI,no milk, no oily stuffs for at least ONE WEEK !!!!
omg. freaking killing me la, that means NO LONG JOHN, NO CHOCOLATE,ARGHH.
whatever.
health is more important eh. =)
after that we went for lunch.
xiang jie , cousin and aloy came to find us at yoshinoya.
slacking eh.
test tmr and im slacking
GOOD JOB XIAO TIAN. =.=
if loving someone end that person in blood,
will you still love?
if words killed that someone practically,
why dont you spare a thought for that person?
if love makes the world go around,
why do i see fallen corpse everywhere.
happiness is when there is you,
happiness is when you care
happiness is lying on your shoulder.
happiness is when im with you.
my happiness is JUST SO simple.
-how do we cure broken hearts?-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Monday, May 07, 2007
had trg today.
okay la.. haha
after that went for dinner at north point.
jokes sia. haha
emo kid. lol.
fine, i did badly for napfa.
OMG.disgrace eh.. sigh.,
whatever la..
all i want NOW is accuracy.
bless me. hahas =)
oh man, and i cant concentrate during lessons.. that was OMG.lol
im kind of HIGH today,
abit out of the way.
sigh.
next match on wed.
bless us.
LET US DO IT.
GO YJ.
haha =)
im sick and tired of such love story.
im envying fairytale-liked love story.
im crying over that love song.
boy, you will never know.
the feeling, deep down inside.
covered up with that so as per normal smile.
you took my heart away,
leaving the girl in blood.
if walking away seems hard,
do i still choose to stay.
if holding back my tears seem hard,
do i still cry ,
and so if i cry,
can i cry on your shoulder.
would you be there,.
you are so unaware about times you made her sad.
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Sunday, May 06, 2007
UPLOADED NEW SONG FOR MY BLOG.
haha
although its chinese, but i like.
NI HEN AI TA.
okay,
met adel at ps,
acc her to buy phone. haha
her grandma super cute la.
after that walk walk then went to meet shun and cousin.
sigh,
i saw that GUESS WALLET that i all along wanted.
damn damn it. hahas
adel,
im not emo la.
sometimes maybe, still im always smiling la.
haha JUST SO YOU KNOW EH. ahah.
tears rolled down on that starry night.
yet the girl is still being left alone.
she wants this ambigouity no more,
yet she dont bear to give up.
after seeing broken hearts all around her,
she would rather continue this ambigouity.
stupid and contradicting she knows.
yet this is it.
what she wants is so much more,
no one will ever understand.
-because this game wasnt easy to play.-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Saturday, May 05, 2007
fine
watched spiderman after school before i go home for dinner
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !
if things cont. this way in the family,
i would miss home more.
really.
madeleine,
not that i didnt want to go for your chalet.
dont tell me you dont understand.
i have to finish up my GPP.
i apologised.
really
ill make it up to you,
im sorry.
im disappointed
you dont seem to understand.
friends for so long
yet,
im tired of explaining,
so be it?.
used to it.
your nick
hurts me.
yet still nth i said
what can i say?
you nv seem to understand
im tired.
ill be gone soon
as you wish.
and then ill nv be back
lke you wish.
goodbye in advance?
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Friday, May 04, 2007
OMG, WE WON!!
super happy
LETS WORK HARDER GIRLS =)
hahas.
ambigouity exists.
all along
between you and me.
dont mind, dont we?
do you?.
i wanted to walk away,
but when you sat there, alone.
my heart soften,
walking back, so much heartaches
still i smile,
acting that all the conversations doesnt exist.
can you feel that the smiles arent real?.
i just dont want you to feel bad,
whats now?
whats next?
the girl dont deserve all these,
or is the boy too picky.
the boy cares, yet the girl throws tantrum.
ending this ambigouity?,
but the girl dont bear.
maybe all along she just dont mean anything,
the closure of an unwritten fairytale?
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Thursday, May 03, 2007
fine.
watched video today
JIAYOU for tmr
MUST WIN!!!
LETs GO YJ =))
believe and we CAN do it. =)
ambigouity?
a bliss or a tragedy?
how many more tradegies do i have to go through?.
your words contradicts.
what am i suppose to believe?
COMPROMISE?
it does make me sad, but LOSING YOU makes me even sadder.
you are always my crazy boy?
YOU SURE?.
how long can i be your crazy girl?.
from now on, misses cannot be said out,
hearts and stars no more.
insignificant too right?
sorry doesnt always cure.
it CANT mend a broken heart.
hope, false hopes.
dont say YOU DONT WANT ME SAD,
when you had already made me sad.
boy, would you hold me when i go?.
should this ambigouity carries on?
garfield.shun eh,
thanks for being there for me.
the blood stains, hard to remove,
tiring for you to try, its not worth.
i thank god for friends like you and adel.
the girl, will be fine. cause she isnt as weak as she seems.
and you know the girl too well.
wei jie,
maybe to you i only know how to think of eric,
but when i said, i misses thomas, DO YOU BELIEVE?.
he is always there, my guardian angel.
YOU SURE?.
i did miss him, he is the only one that is willing to give in alot to me.
really.
but when that time, i wanted to go back,
he left with HER,
and so FATELESS.
but i did, really miss him.
-she hates the differences,and dont love her like a kid-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
went to gab's house with adel and eddie yest's morning
watched dvd- the prestige and brotherhood.
oh man. brotherhood is a damn touching show la.
seriously,
after that we went to meet shell, kelvin, shun li and sophie at yck mrt and then we headed down to marina to meet the rest.
had steamboat. haha, xiang jie was the chef eh. lol =)
it was damn funny la. the way julia and xj bickers. lol
after eating, we went for pool.
i was god damn lousy la.
whatever. and then we went home.
stupid you,
you dont have to be scare, seriously.
the choice is yours like you said its mine.
time will tell. that is what you said.
so, let time show?.
i would stay, if you asked me to.
-memories play back, same old person, different expression-
BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS
shattered beneath
